I remember making this blog when I was 13 and just starting to discover my sexuality and a blog that originally had no theme or purpose quickly became oriented almost entirely with Lolita after one listen to a Lana Del Rey song. I was so surprised to find so many other fans of the book and even more surprised to see girls a few years older than me refer to themselves as nymphets and having sex with guys 3 times their age. I watched them disassociate themselves w the term and delete their blogs one by one as they got older and I became terrified of getting older bc I unhealthily tied my whole identity and self worth to my age. I didn’t know the evil of pedophila I was exposing myself to 5 years ago, even though those same girls consistently warned me. This is getting king and I guess I’m just writing this moreso for myself since I promised myself I’d delete this blog once I turned 18 which is in just an hour now. I’m not going to delete it, I don’t think, at least not yet, but I’ll change the password and leave it inactive from here on out.
