Today I learned how self conscience I still am and will probably always be. I did what I do every other day before the gym, I changed into my clothes and looked in the mirror and liked what I saw that booty is coming in great so i decided to weigh myself. I mean I‘ve gone down a jean size and look to be loosing weight. The scale has not changed from about a month and a half and that killed me. I know I know the scale isnt right and i must be gaining muscle as I’m losing weight but this fcken sucks. Anyway, I didnt let the number get the best of me so I went to the gym and started with cardio. I thought about just doing a full hour of high to medium intensity cardio to try and burn a few more calories since I already felt like a cow. As i started to cycle, my choice of cardio, I began to think fck the number fck the cardio i need to work on toning my body and the fat will just melt off. After 40 mins of cardio i went into the gyms fitness room where the lights were dimmed and planned out some ab workouts as i started this girl, with a way better body in the fact that she was thin, walks in and turns on the lights blinding me which annoyed me. Then as i was doing some abs I felt SELF CONSCIENCE AF. I felt like they could see every roll on my body and felt like i was being watched when i wasn't because i chose a pretty dark corner. I couldn't take the thoughts in my head I put the yoga mat back and ran out of there. Well walked quickly because running would just bring more attention to myself. I came home and felt so shitty about the workout a did what i do best eat a donut. I don’t know it i’ll ever feel conformable enough at the gym to get a great workout in.
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