A Healthy Body for Cute Dresses

I mentioned on here how I went to the first boxing taster class on Friday, and how excited I was to do it. I went again on Monday (only for 45 minutes because they had a lot of people and had to halve the time) and it was a lot of fun, but the thing is the classes are at a weird time at night, where eating dinner before is on the early side and eating dinner after is late. So I wind up going and being tired and hungry, and tonight the class runs for an hour and a half until 9 at night and I just already feel tired out from it and I haven’t even gone yet! Basically, I’m just trying to psych myself up for the class tonight. And what saps my motivation even more is that I forgot about the class tonight and made plans with my friend to help her out and she was gonna make me homemade tofu baozi (which is sooooooo good and I only ever have it when she makes it because I don’t know how) so now I’m sad because I had to cancel and I’m letting her down and I really wanted that tofu baozi. So instead I get to go and be super tired at boxing. Which is silly because I really do enjoy boxing, but I don’t like letting my friend down and it runs really late tonight and last time I went it was in this mirrored hall and everyone else was thin and healthy and ugh I just felt too self-conscious to really get into it, you know? But I’ve met some really nice people and its a good way to get some exercise in so I really should go. Especially since the classes are the only times I’ve made it to the gym this week, so it is really good for me. Okay, I’m sucking it up and going! And in the meantime I will do a little studying and some cleaning and have lunch, and while I’m cleaning I will buy a new makeup organizer as a reward for being responsible woohoo

I just got a blender a couple of days ago too, s I can make all sorts of yummy smoothies for myself at home now! I’m about to run out to the store so I can stock up on frozen fruits. :D Other than that, I don’t have too many updates. Classes haven’t started yet, but I already feel like I’m behind because of all this stupid dissertation stuff, and apart from being more responsible and on top of things and going to the gym regularly, this year I’m making it a point to try new things and have more confidence in myself. I think by now I’ve learned that I have to stop waiting for things to be perfect or a specific way for me to have confidence - like saying ‘oh I’ll wear that cute dress when I’ve lost ten pounds’ or ‘oh no I’ll wear exciting makeup when I get a better haircut’ etc etc. I need to just start taking more pride in my appearance, and not worrying so much what others will think of me.