hayleys blog

i very much use this as my personal diary, read if you must i don’t care you’re a random person on the internet i’ll never meet i don’t care what you know about meeeeee and i say tmi things sometimes?

just an insight to some random south african girls life in cape town i guess.

have funnn

i’m starting my new position today! i’ve got no clue what it really is just yet i’m finding that out today but i know i gotta do emails of some sort lmfao

my boss said it’s my last chance to impress him or i’m gone. says i got one month

but he said that in front of the whole office so it’s more than likely one of his techniques because i’m on permanent contract so he can’t just say byeeeeee

i’ve got a meeting at 11 am with my new manager

i am upset that i’m awake right now because i woke up just gushing blood (i love being a woman) so i had to run to the bathroom and my housemate tried to stop me and hug me i was like bro get the fuck out my way

off to work soon, the ceo wants to have a chat with me and it’s got me shit scared

i woke up at 6am and couldn’t fall back asleep so that was very annoying

i doubt he’ll fire me they did put me on a permanent contract so they can try i guess hopefully it’s a position change. it’s very cold today but i’ve dressed quite skimp because yeah why not i look good

i didn’t make any sales at work yesterday prolly because it was mid shift

worst shift to make sales in

i’m going to try make two today i know i can do it and i have callbacks too

i can do it!!!

sam croal and i have started speaking a lil bit again

just been having basic catching up chats

i kinda miss him

don’t hate me for this

but i wanna get back with him at some point in life

right person wrong time?

i don’t know he’s making me question a lot

but i mean we’re on day two of chatting now

i quite miss him

he sent me a small bit of literature that he wrote after his breakup with someone:

title: Siren

In my darkness she came.

She spoke words to me with such conviction that drove me to believe I was finally at peace.

Her voice as sweet as honey suckle and her touch so addictive I could not live without.

The love she offered completed my lifeless puzzle as I rest my head on her bosom and spoke in such a way that put me at ease. I could finally sleep without the impending risk of being consumed by nightmares.

A love so strong it gave me a drive to carry on. Willing to give myself to her as I know I could not live without. Her somber tune gave me solace within the shadows of my doubt.

I walked with her through the white forests of my dreams in which she guided me to the stone church of my heart buried deep within. She grew accustomed to the presence that wondered the shadows and gave them fear of the light which entered my soul. I could not live without.

I soon began to realise all was too good to be true. With that doubt came a misery no man should witness.

The path to self destruction laid in my wake in which she confessed the love she had was no more.

Delusions of grandeur in which I return to the forest alone and too the shadows which infected my mind like a cancer once before yet stronger, ripping at my consciousness as pages out the bible.

Pulled to the dark of the frozen water, a thousand dead hands gripped at my body and hair as I sank to the abyss where I once lay before.

oh by the way i made two sales at work today.

i’ll make another 2 tomorrow. i believe in you hayley!

feels great to be good at my job

i need to stay up till 7 though because they’re switching my shift (AGAIN) so i’m going from 3am-11am to 11am-7pm

i’m already tired and i wanna sleep but i need to prepare my body for staying up past this time tomorrow

hopefully i don’t get sleepy at work

it’s just me and new kids so most news will come toward me so hopefully i can show them how it’s done

i’m genuinely so proud of myself

i’m eating 3 meals a day officially. even having an easter egg as a treat (and i didn’t need to get stoned to feel hungry or finish my food)

argh i’m soooooohappy

okay as i type this the easter egg tastes more and more like shit

i dug up a few asparagus fern from aunt michelle’s garden and they look so cute in my room

oh yeah!!!! made a sale at work

so stressed because i haven’t been making as many as i would want to make

but everyone’s sick atm (liquid if you get what i mean)

good morning tumblr

i was risen by the birds but as i type this they’re completely silent, which is odd for this hour.

i’m thinking of rolling a joint to get my day started.

i’ve got a lot of cleaning planned for today it’s the day after easter so i need to spring clean! i’ll post pictures of how my bedroom looks before i clean and organise and after of course i’m not gonna edge you like that.

i hope todays a wonderful day. i also woke up to a runny nose because i hadn’t taken hay fever pills in quite a few days so i popped two and went to piss and brush my teeth

omg i need to call the dentist today about my lil teef because they’re not doing great. i need them checked out!

okay chat later ily future hayley 🥀