kuzzok

I'm sorry that the only side of me you've gotten to see is the unpleasant one, and I'm sorry that my actions or my behavior hurt you. I'm usually a kind person, but these past few months have been some of the worst of my life. I'd appreciate it if you could read this all the way to the end.

I completely understand why you're angry. I put myself in the shoes of the people around me every day, and I know it must be exhausting having to deal with me all the time because, the truth is, I'm not the easiest person to be around. I do want you to know that I'm not like this because I'm self centered or because I don't care. I do care, a lot. In fact, I feel guilty about the way I am every single day and the shit I put my friend through

The reason I've been acting the way I have is because I've been going through intense episodes of paranoia, mild depression, and a difficult situation that's left me with very little energy. Of course, that doesn't really change anything, and I'm not trying to play the victim or excuse my behavior. I just want you to know that I'm not acting this way because I'm an asshole.

I think it's best if we just leave things as they are, because if my personality is something you can't tolerate, then I recommend that you don't message or talk to me again. Right now, I've genuinely tried to change my actions and my behavior, but I always end up getting worse. I'm not doing this because I want to, I'm doing it because it's the only thing that's been keeping me calm, and that's the only reason I still have friends. I used to stay present even when I was going through those episodes, and because of that I ended up being a complete asshole to them. It wasn't until later that I finally started taking precautions because I cared about them and didn't want to keep hurting them. Maybe that's why they still comfort me, they know I'm struggling and that I'm not like this on purpose (???). I'm not always unpleasant. I'm also loyal and consistent, and I've stood by my friends even when they did things that were completely their own fault. I still listened to them and supported them emotionally because they're human, and none of us always knows what's best. I do admit that it was my fault for not communicating any of this to you, I knew there was a chance you'd overthink it and get upset, and I still didn't say anything. That was my mistake, and this isn't your fault.

Es probable que no lo vea y simplemente me duerma para evitarlo. Me genera ANSIEDAD la posibilidad de perder contra los ingleses, y con los últimos partidos que hubieron, se que al menos voy a tener 5 paros cardíacos en todo el partido... creo que son eso ya respondo tu duda de que si soy argentino o no ;(

Soy neutral con el fútbol, no lo consumo... aunque no es porque no me guste, simplemente no soy de mirar cosas. Creo que la única opinión que tengo es que aveces es una mierda por la cantidad de xenofobia que causa entre todos, aunque eso ya es por la ignorancia de las personas y no culpa del fútbol 👀 pero se entiende supongo

Me siento avergonzado porque no hago mi tarea y me la paso acostado en la cama sin hacer nada últimamente, estuve muchas horas acostado únicamente viendo al techo. Pero no puedo culparme, no tengo energía para nada y el solo salir de mi pieza ya me genera angustia y fatiga, me siento más cómodo encerrado en total oscuridad y aislamiento

Aleja tus sucias, mugrosas y asquerosas manos de mi pene.

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