Breathing Error

I think this will be the last time I post. I’m sorry everyone. Good luck in the future. I’m proud of you all: I’m sorry.

Every night, I fall asleep knowing that if I were to never wake up, no one would care.

One of my best friends died yesterday in a car accident and I don’t know what to do. Everything feels wrong. It’s doesn’t feel like reality. I’m so fucking devastated. I don’t know what to do.

I don’t know why I’m still here. As if anyone would ever care for a fucked up person like me.

I just watched my cat, who I’ve had for more than half my life, die suddenly without warning or explanation. I’ve never felt more helpless than I did in that moment. I’m permanently scarred. Now that she’s gone, I’ve literally got nothing to live for.

I find it oddly amusing that I could be seconds away from ending my own life and no one would even notice.

My relationship is falling apart and I honestly wish I was fucking dead.

I know I’m not worth the effort