Skinny Until I Vanish

It’s been four days that I eat less than 1000 cal and I move a lot during the day

Maybe seems like nothing for a lot of you

But for me, who been eating what ever I what and eating when I’m hungry for the last months that’s very an achievement

I feel kinda empty and I looooove it, I miss this sensation so much

I even got dizzy one time!!! Sad to say but damn it felt nice

I shouldn’t say that but DAMN

The feeling of having barely anything in my stomach feel so gooooood

But I’ve come back three time saying that 🤡

I just notice how many followers I have

This is sad

I’m ashame with myself

I tought a was on the good way of recovering lately

It’s been two days that my clothes feel tight on me now and I’m absolutely disgusted with myself

I didn’t eat yet and I plan no to today.

I’m kinda excited to be back in my old habits.

Yes I’m still alive 🙈 I reached 124lbs a few months ago.. I was losing my hair a lot and my heart was a the scary number of 32bpm 🤧

I had to eat again if i didn’t want to end up in hospital!

I felt in the binge eating mixed with the extreme hunger from starvinf myself for 6 months.

I obviously gain fucking weight 😭

Since Christmas I’ve been restricting and binging over and over again.

I feel gross, disgusting and fat.

Now it’s time for me to stop that cycle and starting to loose weight again.

I’ve made myself a food and exercises plan for the whole week. It should help me to stay focus.

I know that if I respect the plan I’ll feel so skinny ✨

I will never regret respecting the plan, but I would totally regret not respecting it.

I ate like a pig for 2 days straight because of Christmas

Did I like that? Fuck yes

Do I regret it? Not really

I freacking achieve to loose 25 pounds this year, so I did stuff my face with food for Christmas. Now I’m ready to restrict again and lose another 10 pounds!