To My DEAREST FUTURE BOYFRIEND,
Letâs just pretend that Iâm talking to you now..but sorry if this letter will be very random and looong. *please take time to read <3 written JUNE 10,2011Â 2:04 AMÂ
 Iâm just thinking about you and i canât wait to see you! You will be my very first, and I cant wait for it to happen,. I would like to call you CEY in short for fiancĂŠe for I want you to be my first and last boyfriend. I cannot promise you that ill be a perfect girlfriend, but I will try my best to be the girl that you want to grow old with. I hope youâll enjoy my company. if there will be times that iâll make you sad, i hope you know that i didnât mean it. you know i always want you to be happy and i will never want you down and feels sad. Iâm sorry. I will love you like always and i hope you will feel the same way. Please tell me everything. i really want us to be open . You can always share your worries and anxiety to me .. no secrets please.âcause you will really break my heart if you will lie to me. I swear iâll tell you everything you need to know. I want you to be not just my lover but also my best friend :) I want to share all my silly thought, craziness and random stuffs with you, I hope you still find it cute if im being clumsy sometimes. Im sorry if there will be times that iâll act so childish(thank you for not showing me that iâm irritating you already). Im sorry if i arrive late sometimes(thank you for not getting tired of waiting). Im sorry if I got drunk sometimes (thank you for understanding and taking care of me) Im sorry if i talk too much(thanks for always listening to every word i say). Im sorry if it will take hours for me to get dressed up(thank you for still complimenting that i look beautiful). Im sorry for being clumsy(thanks for just laughing and finding it still cute :â>). Im sorry if i text you all the time(thank you for still replying and telling me that you love me). Im sorry if i always miss you(thank you for coming over just to see me). Im sorry if cry easily on my girl friendsâ issues(thank you for comforting me all the time). Im sorry if i loose my temper when youâre making fun of me(thank you for hugging me so tight that i end up blushing :). Im sorry if i get jealous so easy, you know itâs just because im scared of losing you(thank you for telling me that it wont happen over and over again). Iâm sorry if one day, iâll hurt you so bad that youâll be so fed up and you dont wanna see me anymore. Im sorry. i hope if that happens, youâll give me another chance, âcause i will definitely give you more.
Thinking about the future, i wanna meet your family.. i want us to laugh on your cute baby pictures with your mom and listen to her stories when you were young. I want to be close with your siblings and treat them as if they were my new found friends, I want them to tease you in front of me, and share me some of your dirtiest secrets! Hahah! Evil laughs! I will introduce you to my whole family and iâm sure they will love you too! I want you to come often in our house if we have some occasion..I wanna meet your friends and i will introduce you to my friends too for you will be the first  and im proud of that.. I know that my friends will surely love you for you were the lucky one! Hahahah. :D we will hang out together and they will tease us âcause weâre so sweeeeet. they will envy us âcause weâre like the best couple around :)) we will watch sad movies, laughtrip movies, horror movies together! weâll cry, weâll laugh, weâll hug each other âcause weâre scared..haha! Weâll have small fights but will never forget that we love each other a lot so we better settle it as soon as possible.. weâll take lots of sweet and silly pictures together! weâll talk about weird and stupid stuff. weâll throw pick up lines and still find it sweet :)) Weâll have a date on the beach and wait for the sunset while drinking and eating our favorites. weâll play around the park and wonât care what others will think of us. you will be the only man i will love :) and i hope iâll be your one and only true love too. weâll talk about our celebrity crushes but will still know that youâre my greatest crush and i am yours <3 weâll play games and youâll allow me to win over and over again even though it is impossible for me to win you over then ;) I will miss you when youâre far. We will talk all night and wonât hang up even thereâs no more words coming out of our mouths and then wake up the next morning with smiles on our face :) If we hold hands, please hold my hand tight so it wonât slip away and so that i can feel you more. Hug me like you will never see me again ..Iâm not asking you to kiss me as often as those other couples do, i just want you to surprise me J) that sweet little kisses will do <3 Love me as if thereâs no tomorrow <3 âcause i will definitely do the same for you :) If lovinâ is what you need, to give it is my joy :) lets always put god in the center of our relationship to make it strong,  god will serve as the foundation of our relationship
 Iâm not asking for too much you know. i just want you to love me and i hope you will not give up on me that easy. Thank you for being there whenever i need you. Thank you for making me happy all the time. Thank you for understanding me and not giving up on me. Thank you for being my motivation and inspiration in life. Thank you for making me a better person. Thank you for making me feel loved. and itâs okay if one day, youâll make me cry.. just donât leave me and tell me that everything will turn out right. And if the fate says that were really not for each other, I hope we still stay as friends and cherish the beautiful moments we had! Im looking forward to see you future boyfriend my CEY! I still donât know, when will it happen,. But I know that will happen in the ryt time,. Im just waiting for everything to fall perpectly in the right time with the gods grace.. its now JUNE 10,2011 exactly 2:04 in the morning.. got to sleep na CEY! Hope you can read this so soon
                                                                   loving you most,   Â
                                                                    YOUR FUTURE GIRLFRIEND
                                   JANNA
P.S.
More letters to come , okay!
I LOVEÂ YOU <3
Lol! My love letterr written 7 years ago









