I just write Fan-fiction to fill a void

No one has any idea what to do. There’s no place to start when it comes to the dread doctors. I haven’t seen Scott in five days. I stopped going to school. I still see Stiles around the house at night. He fills me in on what's going on with everything as best he knows but from what I can tell, no one’s really talking to anyone. The only other person I’ve seen is Theo. He snuck in through my window the first day I skipped school. I was rolling around restlessly in my bed when he showed up. An hour later I was exhausted and had my first peaceful sleep in weeks. When I woke up I expected him to be gone but he was still right beside me.

He was still going to school. Still trying to do his best to help Scott. I saw him every day once school was over and every morning once we woke up. I still haven’t told anyone. Especially Stiles. I didn’t like lying to him, although it was more a lie of omission. Being with Theo, it was almost normal, going out with him after school. Burgers, coffee, even a movie, but there was a nagging in the back of my mind. Danger was coming. Something we were supposed to stop but we were divided with no ideas. Theo was all I had to hold onto.

-

Theo left for school over an hour ago. I finally emerge from my room heading to the kitchen when I run into Stiles.

“You’re ditching?” I ask in confusion.

“Can you even ask me that question?” He counters. I shrug making to move past him.

“Lydia and I are going to the preserve to look for the bodies.” He tells me.

“Okay.” I tell him heading for the stairs.

“Do you want to come?” He asks. I stop and turn towards him.

“Do you want me to come?” I ask.

“Only if you want to.” He tells me.

“That doesn’t answer my question.” I point out.

“I’d really appreciate it if you come.” He tells me. I nod.

“I’ll get dressed and meet you in the car in five. We’re stopping for breakfast on the way. You’re paying.” I inform him before heading back into my room to get changed.

-

I followed Stiles and Lydia around in the woods for an hour. I munched quietly on my hashbrown and tried to sniff the nematount out. I didn’t succeed. It didn’t matter, Stiles was relying on Lydia’s banshee death sense more than anything else.

“It’s almost like this thing doesn’t want to be found.” Stiles grumbled as we did another lap around the woods.

“Maybe it knows we’re late to class. Come on Stiles we should get to school. Jamie hasn’t been in a week.” Lydia begged Stiles.

“I’m not going today either.” I told her with certainty.

“Well either way we’ve been here twice. This is useless.” Lydia said turning to Stiles again.

“Crap.” Stiles groaned as he noticed the two white chalk x’s that Lydia had drawn on a nearby tree much earlier in the morning.

“Why don’t we just talk to Parrish. He’s the one taking the bodies.” I pointed out.

“We don’t need to tell him. The nemataount is covered in bodies. Lydia can find it.” Stiles shut down my suggestion.

“Me?” Lydia asked confused.

“Yes you. You Lydia. That’s what you do, you find the bodies.” Stiles pointed out to her.

“Well the banshee’s having an off day so how about we go with Jamie’s idea and talk to Parrish.” Lydia suggested again.

“We can’t.” Stiles insisted. I perked up sensing his tension and stress. His chemosignals were rolling over me like waves.

“Why not?” Lydia pressed him.

“Guy’s let's just keep looking.” I tried to take the focus off the conversation at hand but Lydia’s gaze never left Stiles. She wanted an answer.

“Because one of the bodies could be…” Stiles started to explain. I stood frozen.

“Could be what?” Lydia pushed him again. I looked between them. Stiles was fidgeting with his hands.

“One of them could be a clue.” I offered.

“Yes a clue.” Stiles agreed looking at me with thanks in his eyes. Lydia rolled her eyes at the two of us.

“I’m leaving now guys. I’m going to tell Parrish he’s the one taking the bodies.” Lydia told us before turning on her heel and beginning to strut out of the forest.

“Lydia!” I called after her.

“It’s always better when they know.” She reasoned as we followed her.

“Well then he should know he owes me a jeep!” Stiles called after her. He and I hung back letting Lydia lead us out of the woods. His hand found mine as we walked in sync. He squeezed it softly and I looked up at him.

“Thank you.” He barely breathed the words but I picked them up. I nodded to him. I let his hand stay in mine as we walked the rest of the way to the cars. It made it easier for me to take away his pain without him noticing.

-

I didn’t want to go to school but Stiles drove me there anyway. I was about to strip and run home as a wolf before he promised me I wouldn’t have to go to class or see Scott. All he wanted was some company in the library while he researched. I didn’t have a good enough reason to say no so I stayed.

I texted Theo that I was at school in the library. He joined Stiles and I during his free period.

“Maybe instead of trying to find the nemataount first we should just be trying to get Lydia to focus on something else.” I supplied after another book turned out to be less than helpful.

“What do you mean?” Stiles asked me as he and Theo looked up at me from their research.

“If Lydia finds the nemataount she’ll also find Donovan.” Theo finished for me.

“She’s also going to find Josh.” Stiles countered cold and defensive.

“Maybe she should.” Stiles and I looked with matching expressions of surprise and confusion and Theo.

“Things are different now for Scott. I don’t think he’s going to blame us for defending ourselves. Look I know he won’t blame you.” Theo insisted. I appreciated that he was trying to make Stiles feel better but I still had a bad taste in my mouth from the last time I saw Scott.

I looked to Stiles. He was looking across the library to the spot where Donovan had been. I could smell his chemosignals again. The fear and anxiety coming off him in waves. It was nearing a constant state for him. I nudged his shoulder and pulled him back to reality and out of whatever he was thinking about. He shook his head as if to clear his thoughts. Stiles doesn’t say anything as he leaves. Theo looks like he wants to go after him. I grab his arm and shake my head. The bell rings overhead.

“I have to go.” He tells me an apologetic look on his face.

“I know.” I tell him glancing around to make sure there are no prying eyes before kissing him quickly. He smile at me and grabs his bags. I turn back to the research as he goes.

-

I was looking through books for another hour when Stiles came to get me. He was breathing heavy and pulled me to my feet. I barely had time to grab my bag before he was tugging me out of the library.

“What’s going on?” I asked him as we made our way through the school towards the parking lot.

“More dead Chimera’s.” He told me before pulling out his phone to dial Lydia.

“Lydia pick up your phone. There’s another dead Chimera so right now is probably not a great time to be alone with Parrish.” Stiles warned her voicemail.

“Shit.” My eyes widened as I realised the danger she was in.

“If he’s coming to get the body do not get in his way. Lydia do not get in his way.” Stiles warned before hanging up and looking to me. He didn’t say anything. He didn’t need to, we both took off through the halls for the parking lot.

-

Scott hadn’t answered any of Stiles texts. And Scott went radio silent on me too when I mentioned I was with Stiles. We were driving around beacon hills, my head out the window trying to catch his stubborn scent when Theo called me. He told me Hayden had been attacked. He was taking her and Liam to the animal hospital in his jeep and Scott was meeting them their on his bike. Stiles pulled an illegal U-turn in the middle of the road and hit the gas as soon as he heard the word clinic.

It was raining by the time we got there. The sun had set. Scott was just pulling up on his bike and I got out of the jeep along with Stiles ready to give him a piece of my mind for ghosting us all damn day. Stiles held me back.

“It’s okay. He had a reason.” Stiles assured me. I grumbled but decided to let the issue drop for now.

“I couldn’t get in touch with Malia or Lydia.” Stiles informed Scott as we walked up to meet him. I studied him curiously when instead of leading us inside where Liam and hayden where he just stood there staring at us.

“What’s wrong? Scott?” Stiles asked as our best friend stood frozen in the rain. Scott reached in his jacket and pulled out a wrench. The one Stiles had been using to work on his jeep that night. The one he used to hit Donovan with when he attacked. I could only assume he knew about it all.

“Scott…” I tried to say something to him. This was something we could talk about after we had saved Hayden, but Scott cut me off before I could say anything else.

“You knew.” The look he gave me was colder than the rain currently soaking me. It wasn’t a question so I didn’t answer.

“Where did you get that?” Stiles asked Scott.

“This is yours.” Scott said handing over the wrench to Stiles.

“Why didn’t you tell me?” Scott asked.

“I was going to.” Stiles told him as he looked down at the bloodied wrench in his hand.

“Why didn’t you tell me when it happened?” Scott pressed him.

“Scott.” I tried talking to him again.

“Why didn’t you say anything?” He asked me.

“It’s not her fault. I asked her not to tell you, because I couldn’t. I didn’t want you to know.’ Stiles defended me.

“You killed him? You killed Donovan? And you let it happen?” Scott asked us.

“We have bigger issues at the moment Scott.” I bit out at my alpha tired of his superman charade. He could pretend with everyone else, but I saw him. He was falling apart and taking the entire pack down with him. But he ignored me.

“He was going to kill my dad. Was I supposed to just let him?” Stiles asked.

“You weren’t supposed to do this.” Scott scolded like he had the right.

“Oh what Stiles did is so wrong but when you assaulted Corey because you fucked up with Liam and he got into trouble that was completely okay.” I pointed out.

“That was different.” Scott defended himself.

“How?” I asked him.

“Corey’s survived.” Scott pointed out.

“Yeah well he’s dead now.” I threw back at him.

“Well I didn’t kill him. We don’t do that. None of us are supposed to do that.” Scott told us.

“You think I had a choice?” Stiles asked him.

“There’s always a choice.’ Scott told him.

“Yeah, well I can’t do what you can Scott! I know you wouldn’t have done it. You probably would have just finished something out right?” Stiles asked him.

“I try.” Scott told him. I growled at how blind he was.

“Yeah because you’re Scott McCall! True alpha! Guess what not all of us can be true alpha’s. Some of us make mistakes. Some of us have to get our hands bloody sometimes. Some of us are human!” Stiles screamed at him.

“So you had to kill him?” Scott asked.

“Yeah. He was going to kill my dad.” Stiles told him.

“The way that it happened, there’s a point where it’s just. Where it’s not self defense anymore.” Scott struggled to put what he was feeling into words.

“What are you even talking about?” Stiles asked. I was growling beside him fed up with Scott.

“I didn’t have a choice Scott. You don’t even believe me do you?” Stiles asked him.

“I want to.” Scott told him.

“Okay, so believe me. Believe me then.” Stiles begged. I let him but I didn’t move towards Scott like he did. I didn’t seek out Scott’s approval like he did.  

“Scott say you believe me. Say it.” Stiles begged.

“Stiles we can’t kill the people that we’re trying to save.” Scott told him.

“Say it.” Stiles begged again stepping closer. Scott flinched back looking at the wrench Stiles was still holding in his hands.

“We can’t kill people. Do you believe that?” Scott asked him.

“What do I do about this? What do you want me to do? Just tell me how to fix this alright. Just tell me. What do you want me to do?” Stiles asked.

“Don’t worry about Malia, or Lydia. Maybe you should talk to your dad.” Scott suggested before turning his back on his two best friends and heading into the clinic. Leaving Stiles broken hearted in the rain. I snapped and went in after him.

“Scott!” I screamed before slamming him into the clinic wall.

“What the hell Jamie?!” He growled at me.

“You’re going to turn your back on him? On Stiles? It’s Stiles Scott!” I tried to get that through his thick skull.

“What he did, it changes a person. He’s not the same.” Scott tried to justify himself.

“You’ve changed too Scott, and not for the better.” I told him. Scott’s eyes began glowing a bright red. He yanked my hands off his chest and shoved me off him before turning to walk away.

“Now you’re going to turn your back on me?” I snarled. He froze in place and turned back to face me. There was a look of anger on his face, his eyes were still glowing bright red.

“What do you want from me?” He asked in a growl.

“Be a fucking alpha! Not the god damned pussy you're turning into!” I shouted at him.

“Fine!” He shouted back before charging across the space between us and pushing me up against the wall. I stared him down as he growled in my face. Long, loud and powerful. I could sense the power but I didn’t bend to his will, not like I had in the past. It was then that I realised I wasn’t his beta anymore.

When he finally finished his roar I just stared at him stone faced. He looked at me in confusion before I shoved him off me as hard as I could. He went flying across the room crashing into the wall and sliding down to the floor with a groan. He looked up at me.

Together Theo and I right the overturned jeep while Stiles sits stunned nearby. He hasn’t said a word.

“We should get you to the hospital. You took in a lot of smoke.” Theo tells him as we both study the shell shocked boy.

“I’m fine.” Stiles assures him as he struggles to get to his feet.

“Stiles you’re not fine.” I tell him walking over to help him up. He swats my hand away.

“I said I was fine.” He growls out at me before rising to inspect his jeep.

I step back away from Stiles. I know what he’s going through right now is hard but he didn’t need to yell at me. Theo walks up beside me and runs a reassuring hand down my back. I lean into his touch.

“Suspect in 187 is in custody and en route to station. Suspect's name is Yukimura, Kira.” A voice comes from the police scanner in Stiles jeep.

“What’s a 187?” Theo asks as my mouth falls open in shock.

“Homicide.” Stiles answers as my hand falls into Theo’s. All at once it feels like everything is coming unraveled and the only thing for me to hold onto is him.

-

Theo, Stiles, Malia and I are standing in the McCall living room. Lydia texted me this morning. She and Mason were trying to get information from Corey about the dread doctors. Liam and Hayden had been taken and his memories about where they held him could be the only way to find them. So far they hadn’t been having any luck.

“Scott.” I called to my alpha as he walked in. He didn’t acknowledge me or the others.

“Is Kira okay?” Stiles asked him as he walked past us without a word.

“Scott?” Theo called after him as he raced up the stairs.

Something wasn’t right. I followed closely behind him. I heard Corey talking to Mason and Lydia in the bedroom. He was only on the second chapter of the book.

“We don’t have time for that anyway.” Scott announced as he walked into the room.

“No, Scott. Don’t.” I heard Lydia warn as I rounded the corner to see Scott plunge his claws into the back of Corey’s neck.

“Scott!” I yelled rushing forward to tear him off the boy but Lydia stepped in my way.

“It’s more dangerous if you tear them apart now. All we can do is wait.” She told me. I didn’t like it. This wasn’t who we are. The pack was falling apart.

“It’s not right. This isn’t what we do.” I growled out glaring at the back of my alpha’s head. I heard footsteps in the stairs as Stiles, Malia, and Theo ran up to see what all the yelling was about.

“Don’t get to close.” Lydia warned as the looked on with thinly veiled horror similar to the expression I no doubt wore on my own face.

“What is he doing?” Theo asked.

“Tapping into Corey’s memories. It’s usually something only alphas do.” Lydia filled him in.

“Yeah, Alphas with years of practice and experience.” I added. Theo moved to see exactly what Scott was doing.

“Is it as dangerous as it looks?” He asked.

“Probably more.” Stiles told him.

“Does anyone know if it’s working?” Mason asked. I could tell he was worried about Corey.

Suddenly Scott breaks away from Corey, gasping like the whole time he was in his head he was holding his breath.

“What the hell did you do to me?” Corey asks him appalled.

“You’ll be alright.” Scott assures him as Stiles helps him over to lean on the desk.

“What the hell Scott?” I ask him. He ignores me.

“There’s blood.” Corey notices as he touches the back of his neck.

“You’ll heal.” Scott repeats.

“Scott…” Stiles tries to say something.

“He’ll be fine!” Scott growls out. I snap. I’m across the room in two strides shoving Scott into his bedroom wall. The foundation of the house rattles and I know my eyes are glowing in rage. Scott eyes change to match my own and he lets out an anger filled roar at me. It shakes me to my core but I do not look away. I don’t know what happened but this is not my friend. This is not my alpha. I roar back with everything I have. We stare at each other chests heaving before he breaks the stare and grabs a pencil and paper from his desk. He begins to sketch. I turn away from him to check on Corey.

“Listen. I think it worked. There were tunnels, pipes on the walls. There were two huge blue pipes at the entrance. Two on both sides.” Scott reports as he creates a crude drawing of what he saw. Stiles looks tentatively between us before going to look at what Scott has drawn everyone else stands with Corey and I on the other side of the room.

“I know this, I’ve seen this before. It’s one of the tunnels i used to skateboard in before my dad caught me one time and told me to never go back.” Stiles tells him.

“It’s the water treatment plant.” Lydia pieces together.

“That’s where they are. That’s where we’ll find Liam and Hayden.” Scott realizes. Without another word Scott turns and rushes from the room. The rest of us follow closely behind him.

“Scott. Scott, slow down. Just think for a second okay. Mason shouldn’t be going.” Stiles tries to reason with Scott as he leads the army out.

“Liam’s my best friend. I’m going.” Mason fires back at Stiles.

“Oh did you suddenly get super wolf powers all of a sudden?” Stiles asks him.

“Well if you’re not coming I could use all the help I can get.” Scott tells him.

“No, I’m coming just as soon as I talk to my dad. He’s moving the body. He want’s to make sure that this time no one steals it.” Stiles clarifies.

“How’s he going to do that?” Malia asks.

“I don’t know but whoever took the last one was strong enough to flip my jeep.” Stiles tells her.

“We can bring Theo. Me, you, Mason, Jamie, and Theo should be enough.” Malia tells Scott.

“Who said I was going?” I asked.

“What are you talking about?” Scott asks.

“I’m sorry Scott but after what you just pulled I’m not following you anywhere.” I tell him before turning on my heel and marching back to the stairs.

“What are you going to do?” He calls after me.

“Look after the innocent kid you just assaulted.” I fire back at him over my shoulder.

“Maybe I better stay here. You know in case the Doctors decide to make a house call for Corey. Jamie won’t be able to fight them off on her own.” Theo tells him as I stand with Corey by the stairs.

“Scott maybe we need to slow down and think.” Lydia tries to talk sense into him.

“I am thinking about how Liam and Hayden might already be dead.” Scott tells her.

“You could have hurt him Scott. Really hurt him.” Lydia points out.

“By that she means kill. You have no idea what you’re doing and you’re running around Beacon hills half cocked.” I add.

“I have to find them.” Scott tells me.

“At what cost?” I ask. He doesn’t have an answer. He turns and leads Mason and Malia out the door.

“Text me for anything.” Stiles tells Malia.

“I got it.” She assures him before following after Scott.

-

Lydia wets a washcloth in the kitchen sink as I take Corey’s pain. Lydia cleans the back of his neck. When the washcloth comes away the cuts have healed. I share a look with Lydia.

“It healed didn’t it?” Corey asks us.

“Yeah. Completely.” Theo tells him.

“Alright then. It’s been fun. Especially the part where the werewolf forced his way into my brain with his claws.” Corey tells us before turning towards the door.

“I don’t think that’s a good idea. You know Lydia’s a banshee, it means she can tell when someone’s close to death. Lydia what happened if he walks out that door?” Theo asks her. I almost smirk at Theo’s manipulation.

“It’s bad very bad.” Lydia plays along. I push past Lydia and Theo.

“I’ll take my chances.” Corey tells him.

“Corey wait. What Scott did was wrong. There’s no justifying it. I’m sorry he did that to you and I’m sorry I didn’t stop him. I don’t know what’s going on with him. Or any of us for that matter. Before you knew us we were a pack committed to keeping Beacon Hills safe. Now it seems like everything is spiraling out of control. The line Scott has drawn in the sand has been crossed by everyone now including him. His moral highground is worth shit, but Liam is still in danger. Please, he’s like a brother to me. And when I say that it means something because I don’t have any biological family left, so if there’s anything else a fragment of a memory you can remember that might help us find him please stay.” I beg unapologetically. I can tell it works because I see Corey’s expression soften a split second before he nods.

“What else did you see?” Theo presses him.

“There was the hospital, and they took me out of my room.” Corey begins to recall.

“And then where?” Lydia presses further.

“The tunnels. Like I already told you. That’s it.” Corey insists.

“Yeah, yeah, and nothing after that?” Theo continues to press him for information.

“No.” Corey says sadly.

“There has to be more. Think for one second just think.” I beg him again. He pauses if only to humor me, but I can see it i his eyes as something new starts to surface in his mind.

“What?” I ask not allowing myself to hope just yet.

“There was a basement.” He recalls.

“Where? Like in a building?” Lydia asks him.

“A house. It was old and there was a broken stone wall in it like a bomb went off.” Corey tells us. A smile stretches across my face as I realise I know where he’s talking about.

“The werewolf with the talons the one that attacked Scott. Didn’t Parrish say that it smashed through the wall of a basement? Wasn’t it something like that?” Theo asked Lydia.

“No, it was exactly that.” Lydia confirms. Theo looks to me.

“We’re going.” I tell him before pushing past Corey and running out the door. I can hear footsteps following me and I know Theo is close behind.

-

Theo and I I never slow once we pull up outside in his truck. I kick in the front door of the house from the report and we rush into the basement. Together we go through the hole in the wall. The tunnels we find ourselves in smell terrible. I can’t catch a scent so I reach out with my ears. In the distance I hear Liam’s voice.

“This way.” I tell Theo before leading him down a new tunnel. When I round the corner I see them.

“Liam!” I call rushing forward, Theo next to me.

“Jamie, Theo wait!” Liam calls to us in warning, but it’s too late. We reach out at the same time and as soon as our hands come in contact with the gate I can feel the electricity flowing through me for a second before my world goes dark.

“Jamie? You alright? Theo can you hear me?” Liam asks as I stir. I was only out for a second. My body is getting better at recovering from unconsciousness. I can feel movement underneath me and when I open my eyes I realize I’ve fallen on top of Theo. I move to get off him and rise to my feet before pulling him up with me.

“I’m good.” I assure Liam before looking to Theo.

“You?” I ask him. He nods.

“Can you guys go get help?” Liam asks.

“We are the help.” I tell him before looking back to Theo.

“You go left.” He tells me.

“You go right.” I tell him.

We nod at each other before grabbing onto the gate again. I growl as I feel the electricity run through me, but I don’t let it stop me. Together Theo and I force the gate apart.

-

Theo is driving his truck back to Scott’s house. My body is nearly done healing from all the electrical burns. My head is resting against the window and my hand is in Theo’s. Liam and Hayden are in the backseat.

“Does it hurt?” he asks her.

“Everywhere. I’m not healing. Not like I did before.” I wince at her words.

“It means I’m a failure doesn’t it?” She asks him. I look to Theo. We both already know it does but Liam’s not going to tell he that. I look at him in the rearview mirror. Instead of reassuring her with some bullshit line he leans in and kisses her. I watch the black lines track across his face as he takes her pain.

“It’s gone. The pain’s gone. How did you do that?” She asks him.

“I don’t know.” He admits.

They smile at each other before kissing again.

-

As soon as we get back to Scott’s, Liam and Hayden fall fast asleep on the couch. Scott, Malia, and Mason show up not long after. Theo makes the round hugging them all starting with Scott. I stay where I am studying the true alpha as he looks at Theo. I can smell it on him. The jealousy. He must have noticed that Theo is the one keeping everyone safe now. He;s the one holding the fragments of the pack together.