LYNDSEY & JORDAN!!!!!

“I’m not going to let you or your client make me feel like this is in any way my fault.”

so i just went to my third concert this era. the first two i tried SO hard to get picked. I mean wore insane costumes (just look at my profile pic), walked all around searching for mama swift or tn, spent the whole night thinking about it, and didn’t get picked. and every time it was a letdown. this time i wore a t shirt and shorts, put my hair up, and just DANCED. I knew i wouldn’t get picked. i didn’t care. i came to have fun being 50 feet from my idol, not to try to slide my way into rep room.

not meeting taylor is hard. it’s a constant cycle of yearning for something so bad, trying so hard, actually believing you have a shot, being let down, & then losing hope. sometimes it seems like everybody has but you.

Sometimes people forget Taylor is

“you are not your mistakes. you are not damaged goods from or money from your failed explorations. you are not the opinion of someone who doesn’t know you. you are a product of the lessons that you’ve learned. you are wiser because you went through something terrible. and you are the person who survived a bunch of rainstorms and kept walking. i now believe that pain makes you stronger. and i now believe that walking through a lot of rainstorms gets you clean.”