Mostly just using this old old site again to shout into the void but being generally afraid/anxious about commitment was so much easier than catching dumbass feelings again. Like, I’m an adult and i know everything doesn’t always get to work out perfectly or whatever, but having stupid highschool crush feelings/being like 90% sure thats all its going to be blows. real hard. Its been a long ass time since I’ve had legit butterflies in my stomach type shit and I don’t like it








