Captain Wentworth’s Loveletter

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𝔻𝕚𝕤𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕕 𝕃𝕚𝕟𝕜

𝙹𝚘𝚒𝚗 𝚂𝚕𝚎𝚎𝚙 𝚍𝚎𝚙𝚛𝚒𝚟𝚎𝚍 𝙰𝚌𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚖𝚒𝚌𝚜 𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎!

𝕃𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕤𝕥 ℙ𝕠𝕤𝕥𝕤

𝙲𝚕𝚘𝚜𝚞𝚛𝚎

𝙰𝚕𝚌𝚑𝚎𝚖𝚒𝚌𝚊𝚕

𝙼𝚘𝚛𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚅𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚕𝚎

𝚆𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚕𝚘𝚜𝚎 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚘𝚖𝚎

𝙿𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚎 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚢

𝙷𝚘𝚕𝚕𝚘𝚠⚠️

𝙸 𝚏𝚎𝚕𝚕 𝚒𝚗 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚊 𝚠𝚘𝚕𝚏

𝚆𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚙𝚎𝚘𝚙𝚕𝚎 𝚏𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚒𝚗 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎

But I struggle to believe

that it isn’t at least one of my purposes for being on this earth.

And out of the many I’m sure I have,

- old

- boring

- overdone

Saying “have something my brain made”

- personifies the brain

- disassociates brain from body

The boyish behaviour should stop.

You’re old enough to know better,

to be a man.

Or perhaps I’m wrong.

Perhaps you’re just a

coward.

Too scared to close the door

so you left it ajar.

Although you didn’t expect me

to simply walk away.

I have spent too much time

in my short life

nursing the egos of

boys pretending to be men.

I have spent too much time,

deciding who I am

so I will tell you who I am not.

I am not a second option back up plan consolation prize last resort.

I’m not someone you should ever be ashamed of.

I’m not someone to be hidden, your secret, your game.

I am not someone who will accept bare minimum.

I have not, nor will I ever be, desperate for you.

The thing you continued to deny me,

was the thing I needed

to leave you behind.

And in my anger, I found it.