My brother's friends coming here tomorrow too idk how long but I assume pretty long and now I can't sleep because my shoulder hurts😔
Ificjckcihij why it gotta a rain tomorrow I'm going to be in hell with more noise and I can't relax with people around or like close peopleee.
And I have to do some stuff tomorrow for a call on Wednesday I want to explode but I'm just tireddddd😔😔😔
I'm so .................. ded
Why is everything fun with a price I'm not built to do fucking anything i feel so shit afterwards 😭😭😭EVEN THO IT'S BEEN SOMETHING FUN BUT LIKE IT'S JUST THE AFTER THAT SUCKS SO BAD
I feel so miserable for days after I go out to do fun stuff what is wrong with you. starts crying
Where the fuck do people get their energy fr😭😭😭
I wanna fucking die when I have to leave my house for more than couple times a week but also that's not good either you go insane but otherwise I cry and everything is too muchhh
And it's so hot outside now I want to drown myself in ice and peel my skin off along my clothes and I have to run to the shower when I get home or I'm crying on thr floor losing it and want tp scream
Girllll I cannot think how to survive work something else like i be just rolling through days and it's okay and I'm good if I can mostly be like nice I'm feeling ok.
But ifffffffffffff when I have to do stuff more again and go out i know I'll be crying every night because I'm just tired and can't
Sounds nice in theory like omgg work and money!! But then I go do stuff and I want to cry because HOW DO I SURVIVE IF I GO BACK THAT EAS SP BAD
And I'm just told it's okay and good to plan how much energy you have for things and take resting days and some people just get more tired than others but I'm feeling good rn when I have been able to just mostly be but i still get tored when I go out do stuff but that's okay
But then I'm like yeah i feel good now and I can take it easy and it's good but idk how I'll be if i go back to working again i know I'll get tired again and it's like....
Yeahhh well... some people just get more tired and umm
No answer idkkk. Understandable that's been talking about more of mental health but like I keep bringing up i get so tired and cry and it's like yeahh... that doesn't sound nice but anywayyyyyyyyy
Idkkkkk. So scared to go to a doctor and being just dismissed or to told just exercise more like fair I should
But also I've been always just so tireddddddd idkkk
Bruhh idkkk I've always struggled like I've always taken days off school to rest dor being "sick" but like I feel worse than if i was sick but idk. Idkkk was those more of just fir struggling mentally but also I just literally feel dead i cannot go i will die(obviously won't but I'll dieeee)
I don't think there's many months I've been whole month at school of work and not been feeling lishit needing a day off or then I was actually also sick
I never understand how people be just living doing normal human stuff like it isn't killing them toooo
I THOUGHT LONC EVERYONE HAVE BEEN JUST PRETENDING BUT APPARENTLY NOT EVERYONE
Or I'm just a weak fuckass baby going like but:( I'm tired :( like okay boohoo
I'M NOT DOING BAD I'M JUST JXKHKCJHJ AFTER GOING OUT FOR R DAYS STRAIGHT
I'm so cooked for life lmaoo 😭 i be just here that's enough what do you mean that's not enough, what