We're all liars here.

Damn. I’m officially an Electronics Engineer. I thought I would feel great for passing the board exam but it turns out it’s the exact opposite. I still wanna pursue Music Production in Benilde but, like, most of my family members are forcing me to get a job. We all know I won’t be getting a job until I get what I want. I’ve been fighting for shit meant for me my whole life; things that were promised to me. So, this isn’t new. 

When I was choosing a college degree, my dad promised me I could pursue Music after I finish my Engineering degree. That was just the deal: finish Electronics Engineering a.k.a graduate. See? I even passed the board exams for them. Passing the boards wasn’t for my pride. It was theirs. I was just happy for a day because I didn’t disappoint people who were expecting me to pass. 

My parents have hinted that they won’t support my education even though I know they’re hiding a lot of money from me ever since I was a fucking stupid child. My mom even said I need to learn to “sacrifice.” Bitch, as if 5 years of studying shit I never wanted wasn’t enough. I told that in front of her and she shut the fuck up. I would be grateful for their support all these years, you know, if they actually supported what I have always wanted.

Now, I’m just waiting for my stupid cheating dad to step on my dreams so I could finally have my revenge and get what I want. Vengeance and hatred have fueled me the whole period of review for the boards. I ain’t backing down now.  My passion for music has never burned brighter. It’s starting to feel like an all-consuming flame. I already told them my plans in the form of a threat. Seems like the flame they were taming has gone out of their control.

Love always,

Clyde