My past life with Chuuya..
Cw: mentions of miscarriage, death.
I did a past life regression last year i believe. It was the 1950s, and i saw 1953 specifically. It was in another universe, some other reality, not here. It was in a small town here in the US. I was born and raised in the states, chuuya's family had immigrated from northern japan to the US when he was little. I was a showgirl who then worked in a flower shop, and from there I worked in a tailoring shop. I would make clothing and draw designs, as i loved fashion (still do!). I even made my own wedding dress using an old white lace bedspread/tablecloth that was my grandmother's. It looked something like this.
Now, chuuya, when he moved to the states as a child, his parents gave him a more 'american' name. Something starting with an e. When we met, we were in our late teens early 20s, i believe we met at 19 and we got married quickly after. We were married at 20-21 i believe. A few days before the wedding I remember trying to bake our wedding cake, and it toppled over because it was tiered. I cried cause it was ruined and I remember him comforting me and wiping the tears from my face with his thumbs, kissing my face. After the wedding we lived in a little town close to our hometown, we bought a cute little white house with a white picket fence and the windows had shudders. The windows in the front of the house including the front door had stained glass, and it formed the shape of a heart. We had 3 or 4 kids soon after, I remember making little clothes for our daughter and felt so proud. I remember when working one day at my job, i had spilled ink all over my fabric that i was working on and I was so frustrated.
After our first two children were born I had a miscarriage, and I was crying hysterically and chuuya was there comforting me and holding me and I cried while seeing that happen in my mind, I actually cried so hard. I thought to myself like I'm sorry, I'm so sorry I lost our baby. I'm so sorry I lost you.
I'm crying now thinking of it..
And I remember how I died, I don't know how old I was, but I was diagnosed with cancer. I died either in my 40s or in my 70s, it wasn't super old but I remember having my children and chuuya there with me, our kids were already in their mid 20s. So I had to have been in my 40s, and i died in the 1970s, which makes alot of sense. I remember telling them how much I love them. I thanked chuuya for giving me a beautiful life, and that I'd always love him, kissing the palm of his hand in mine and passed away peacefully holding his hand.
I'm crying hysterically again.
The last thing I saw was chuuya with me, when we were young, and he called me his angel, because my name in that life was angelica.
But that was our lovely past life together. And I remember when dying, I saw our baby girl who I lost there, her spirit, and she was all grown up. And in my life I'd always say I had 4 children, even though I only gave birth to 3, because my whole life I always counted the baby I lost as mine still.
To this day I still love him so much, and think of him and our children from that life constantly. ❤️🩹
