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Look.

Here we see our Steven. He’s starting to look at everyone with more and more panic. Did he do something wrong? Did he unintentionally hurt anyone when he was a monster? Why is everyone looking at him? He is so scared and overwhelmed

Everyone is just...looking. Why is everyone looking, what did he do again-

And then all he sees is lion. Steven immediately has all his focus on this pink fluffy beast. Lion knows it’s very hard situation for Steven and he wants him to calm down and he knows it’s not going to be easy with literally everyone staring at him almost crying. So for now, lion asks Steven to focus on someone who isn’t emotionally drained right now. Lion asks to only focus on him.

And Steven does that. He hugs the only thing that is stable and calm enough to let Steven dump all his emotions on it. Steven is so tired. He needed that hug. He needed lion and no one else.

The revelation that his whole life, Steven’s just been breaking all of his bones all the time is SENDING me 

 So like…. everything we wrote off as “zany cartoon gags” in season 1 was actually him just SHATTERING HIS BONES OVER & OVER?? IM LOSING IT 

11/17/19

my comic “pearl” I made for @141-point-12​‘s MGS Lost Years charity zine that can still be obtained physically here or as a pdf here! please check it out! 

I made this comic (if I remember correctly) through december of 2018 to january 2019. It’s about sunny, raiden, and big mama (and ocelot *winks*.)

Content warning for stylized gore, asphyxiation, and pregnancy/baby horror. 

maybe not ALL of it…

Here are some early research on “Victor and Valentino”,the Cartoon Network series TV created by Diego Molano !

These are called “Fun pack”,some pre-design to help the storyboard artists.

The series is airing on the various Cartoon Network for a few months now.

She could have shattered her. After all, it’s how Homeworld deals with defective Gems. A Pearl who was so damaged by her owner she has a permanent, physical and mental scar? You can either try to Rejuvenate her or outright shatter/harvest her, right? It’s not like Pearls have value or are difficult to create.

But no, White went out of her way to keep PP. She bleached her, turned her into an extention of herself, and paraded her around, as a reminder to Pink of her actions.

“This is why you’re not fit to be a Diamond. This is why you’re just a child. You can’t even keep a Pearl.”

“Find your center, your very core. Remember – your body isn’t just a projection of light but also a reflection of your inner soul.”

“I only came here because I felt bad for you, but all of this is your own fault. All the other Gems were corrupted by the Diamonds, but – but you corrupted yourself just to win a fight, which you lost to me! No one’s making you stay here all alone in the middle of nowhere ready to fight a war that’s been over for years! Are you just gonna sit here for centuries waiting for someone to give you a purpose?! Because I’m trying to give you one!“

Jasper: “I don’t need your help. You’re the one that needs help. You think you’ve beaten me, but you’ve never beaten me on your own. You’ve always been a fusion. You’ve always had your friends because you’re nothing without them. You think everyone needs help.” Steven: “I – I just…” Jasper: “But it’s only you. No one is as pitiful as you.”

Amethyst: “So what about you?” Steven: “Uh, what about me?” Amethyst: “Now that things are settling down a bit, what are you going to do? Come on. Let’s talk about your future! The doctor is in. The first session is free.” Steven: “I don’t know. I still want to help people, but maybe I’m losing my touch.”

“I thought I was ready to move on and not have her hanging over me anymore, but I can barely be in a room with you because I still feel all twisted up about her. I’ve been pretending that I’m fine because it’s not your fault, but I’m not fine.“

[Stores his mother’s image in a place he doesn’t have to see it or interact with it- compartmentalizing it away.]

“Her physical form shows damage, but her pearl is perfectly fine. This injury must have been so impactful that it continues to manifest despite the fact that her pearl has been repaired.”



“So, it’s like… psychological?”

“That’s absurd, I am fine!” [gem cracks more]

“STOP IT! I can’t deal with ONE more horrible thing she did, okay?! I don’t wanna hear about it, I don’t even wanna THINK about it! I just- want to FIX IT!!”

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Remember – your body isn’t just a projection of light but also a reflection of your inner soul.

To find balance, you must understand your feelings. To understand your feelings, you must see them clearly without running from them.

An imbalance can cause [you] to lose touch with reality, see things that aren’t there, and eventually fall apart.