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maybe it’s time to come back to tumblr? i’ve taken a left turn to substack and pinterest only

Why am I having such a hard time finding skramz in my city makes me miss nj even though I never went to shows at least I knew about them

Actually while I’m here since I don’t like talking places where my friends and said person can see it: I am currently experiencing a very complicated best friend to romantically involved relationship which they cut off but we are also very codependent and I can’t not be friends with them but also I still like them so painfully much and they hurt me really bad by rejecting me and then unrejecting me and then rejecting me again. And it was my first experience being intimate with anyone and it physically hurts every time I see them and think about it but I also care about them too much and value our friendship too much to not be around them all the time. But than they told me yesterday that made out with their ex a few nights ago and that made me so sad because the biggest reason the stopped it in the first place was because they didn’t feel ready to be intimate with people after there last experiences among other things. It feels like a very gay problem too and I think about the way I’ve related to people in my life and I’ve fallen for my best friends so many times and feel like it takes so much get close to people to where I trust them in the way that I trust them.

Yearly looking at tumblr for five minutes and leaving time

Once a year I come here, change my blog layout and than leave