man. i miss home. i miss my grandma n them and i miss NC pretty bad, i havenβt been home in nearly 10 years.
whatever this weird self discovery journey iβm on rn is kickin my ass but i canβt pick or decide if i wanna go back home and be with my southern family in the middle of boring lame fayetteville
or if i wanna live in a big place with walkable cities and underground trains and buildings taller than i could believe
i only lived in boston for like 3 months but godddd it was so pretty and i was so mesmerized by everything, but iβd be alone with no family or friends
but north carolina is comfort and nostalgia and my family is there (along with everyone i went to highschool withβ¦yeesh) with southern cooking and farms and yardwork and homemade sweet tea and ngl i miss my accent and it comes out sometimes but itβs faded and :(((( AGHHHHH
third option is if i keep living with my dad, HE wants to go back home to FLORIDA and uhβ¦nglβ¦.not really stoked abt that one
not that i care about moving but goddd id be so much farther from home
