SICKENING.

you didn't tell me you play piano.

how would i even get there?

you said you wanted to make more friends here.

do you think it'll rain tonight?

i crawled out a window.

we're the lost girls then.

so you can't spend the night?

we're trying to talk.

i'm taking you to the bookstore.

are we ever gonna talk about... what i did?

no. that's never gonna happen.

i've been looking forward to this day. for a long time.

you aren't going to see me again. i can't help you anymore.

i've gotta leave you to figure it out for yourself.

i don't know how much of what i'm about to say you remember. maybe you honestly don't.

shouldn't you be in school?

that was the last time i used our real last name.

you got clever. so fucking clever.

is there a place to get something to eat?

i'll just wait here if it's okay.

i didn't mean to scare you.

i was looking for you. maybe that sounds weird to you... or maybe it doesn't.

do i know you?

i smelled you, and you probably smell me now.

through the back. we'll talk inside.

you won't always be able to hold yourself back.

there's a reason you're on your own.

i'm not a thief.

did someone find you? while you were doing it?

what if i don't want that?

you don't have to be alone.

you're out of control.

what happens? you think something bad's gonna happen?

i didn't know i could do that.

why does that matter?

i'm just saying i'm not an asshole.

you wanna get in? for a minute?

i don't know whether to cry or scream or laugh or what.

can you help me? i just... i'm new at this.

i'm gonna take a shower.

we need what we need, right?

open the fucking door!

let's make like a tom and cruise.

you seemed like such a hardcase yesterday.

that's a choice. we don't have to be like that.

why'd you offer to bring me along?

do you get home often?

there are hypocrites everywhere.

i didn't run away.

i'm not trying to start anything. i'm just saying what i think.

take whatever you want.

fucking asshole. you said you were going to stick around this time.

you're the only person i miss.

are we not safe right now?

what was your first time like?

i don't remember much after.

we shouldn't be talking about killing anybody.

i don't want this to touch us.

i'll see you in an hour.

i can't protect you anymore.

you've got blood on you.

we ruin lives we don't even see.

why are we even talking about it like this?

we should feel something. we've killed and it's murder.

how dare you make this harder.

you've got nothing to be sorry for.

i hope you can respect that.

all i ever wanted in this world was love.

the world of love wants no monsters in it.

you don't have to say anything else, but tell me if you're okay.

i'm just not comfortable with this.

you protected the people you love.

you don't think i'm a bad person?

all i think is that i love you.

i used to tell people the truth, you know.

The following prompts are taken from Ethel Cain's 2022 album Preacher's Daughter. All tracks are included except for "August Underground" and "Televangelism" which are instrumental. Feel free to change pronouns and wording as you see fit. Trigger warning: profanity, sexual themes, religious themes, violence, abuse, etc. UPDATED: 04/18/24.

FAMILY TREE - INTRO

forgive these bones i'm hiding from no one successfully.

jesus can always reject his father, but he cannot escape his mother's blood.

the fates already fucked me sideways.

you know i raised you better than this.

AMERICAN TEENAGER

maybe it was his fault.

another red heart taken by the american dream.

and i feel it there, in the middle of the night, when i'm all alone again.

say what you want, but say it like you mean it.

say it like you mean it, with your fists for once.

just give it one more day, then you're done.

i don't need anything from anyone.

it's just not my year.

i'm sorry if i sound off, but i was probably wasted.

jesus, if you're listening, let me handle my liquor.

why do i feel alone in this room with you?

i do it for my daddy.

i do what i want and damn, i'm doing it well.

A HOUSE IN NEBRASKA

sing it to me all day long.

you and me against the world.

we had nothing except each other.

you were my whole world.

you told me even if we died tonight, that i'd die yours.

your mama calls me sometimes to see if i'm doing well.

i'd kill myself to hold you one more time.

it hurts to miss you.

i'm the reason you won't come home.

i cry every day and the bottles make it worse.

you were the only one i was never scared to tell i hurt.

i thought you were so beautiful.

it was love, i guess.

i hope you're doing fine out there.

i pray that you're all right.

i feel so alone.

i feel so alone out here.

i feel so alone out here without you, baby.

WESTERN NIGHTS

i watched him show his love through shades of black and blue.

show me how much i mean to you while i'm lying in these sheets undressed.

i'd hold the gun if you asked me to.

trouble's always gonna find you, baby.

hold me across every state line.

i'm never gonna leave you, baby.

i haven't spoken to my daddy in a long, long time.

i should have known that there's no getting in.

i'll be screaming your name.

please don't love how i need you.

FAMILY TREE

i'm not above violence.

my mama raised me better than that.

daddy said shoot first then run and don't look back.

take me down to the river and bathe me clean.

i've killed before and i'll kill again.

they say heaven hath no fury like a woman scorned.

hell don't scare me, i've been times before.

let christ forgive these bones i've been hiding.

let christ forgive these bones i've been hiding, and these bones i'm about to leave.

HARD TIMES

tell me a story.

i'll make pretend.

happiness ends and dies with you.

i thought good guys get to be happy.

i'm not happy.

i am poison in the water and unhappy.

i was too young to notice that some types of love could be bad.

i'm tired of you.

it's just the way that you are.

i just wanna sleep.

please, can i sleep?

THOROUGHFARE

baby, don't run. i'll take you anywhere.

hey, do you wanna see the west with me?

love's out there and i can't leave it be.

love's never meant much to me.

no one left to leave and no one left to love.

now that i met you, i finally know just where i'm headin'.

we found heaven in time where your western sunshine met my deep southern wet.

we finally reached the edge after all this time.

in your pickup truck with all of your dumb luck is the only place i think i'd ever wanna be.

GIBSON GIRL

you wanna love me right now. you wanna get alone with me.

you wanna take my clothes off.

obsession with the money, addicted to the drugs.

says he's in love with my body, that's why he's fucking it up.

if it feels good, then it can't be bad.

you wanna fuck me right now. you wanna see me on my knees.

you wanna rip these clothes off and hurt me.

if you hate me, please don't tell me.

just let the lights bleed all over me.

PTOLEMAEA

i followed you in.

i was with you there.

i invited you in.

you love blood too much.

you'd do well to say yes to me.

suffer does the wolf.

i'm on fire, i'm on fire, i'm on fire.

suffering is nigh.

i'm the white light. beautiful. finite.

you poor thing.

there's nothing you can do.

there's nothing you can do, it's already been done.

what fear a man like you brings upon a woman like me.

please don't look at me.

i can see it in your eyes.

stop, stop, stop. make it stop. stop.

i've had enough.

i am the face of love's rage.

i am no good nor evil, simply i am.

i have come to take what is mine.

you can't hide from me forever.

SUN BLEACHED FLIES

god loves you, but not enough to save you.

good luck taking care of yourself.

that's how my daddy raised me.

if they strike once, you just hit 'em twice as hard.

the more it hurts, the less it shows.

i think it's about time i put up a fight.

i always knew that in the end no one was coming to save me.

i keep praying, and praying, and praying.

if it's meant to be, then it will be.

i can't let go when something's broken.

STRANGERS

don't talk to strangers, or you might fall in love.

i never considered myself tough.

you're so handsome walking over to me now.

i tried to be good. am i no good?

am i no good?

i just wanted to be yours.

can i be yours?

you're so handsome when i'm all over your mouth.

am i making you feel sick?

am i making you feel?

i never blamed you for loving me the way that you did.

don't think about it too hard.

just know that i love you.

i'll see you when you get here.

♡ 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐚 𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐨𝐰𝐚𝐲 & 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐯𝐚𝐞𝐫𝐧𝐞𝐬 * @searaphic

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