anotherwise

I adore edgy, I get excited by edgy, and I want to be edgy. But I also don’t want to waste time anymore. I have to be something else instead.

What’s a word for something that wastes zero time? Timeless. Timeless things don’t waste money or effort either. I don’t have unlimited resources for everything. I am old. I want to just go for what’s useful for me and the things I care about in the long run.

Lose all your money, you can earn money again.

Lose all your friends, you can make new ones again.

Lose the one you love, you can love again.

There are things I only have one of in my life, and they are the following:

my body – if I don’t take care of it, I weaken

my mental and emotional health – if I don’t care for it, I suffer

my life – if I don’t make the most of my one and only life, I die in vain

The last time I fell in love, it was with a gentle and calm guy whose greatest incompatibility with me is that he’s not expressive, making me unable to feel deep intimacy with him.

Two months ago, I met a guy who is gentle and calm and expressive and sweet and funny and oooh boy I’m not sure how this story ends.