quarter life happens

It is often difficult to admit that someone you love is not perfect or to consider aspects of a person that are less than admirable. To the Baudelaires it felt almost as if they had drawn a line after their parents died. A secret line in their memories separating all the wonderful things about the Baudelaire parents from the things that were perhaps not quite so wonderful. Since the fire whenever they thought of their parents the Baudelaires never stepped over this secret line preferring to ponder the best moments the family had together rather than any of the times when they had fought, been unfair, or selfish.

For all of the most important things, the timing always sucks. Waiting for a good time to quit your job? The stars will never align and the traffic lights of life will never all be green at the same time. The universe doesn’t conspire against you, but it doesn’t go out of its way to line up the pins either. Conditions are never perfect. ‘Someday’ is a disease that will take your dreams to the grave with you.

You are so young, so much before all beginning, and I would like to beg you, dear Sir, as well as I can, to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.

kahit na lumayo ka, kahit na manahimik ka, kahit na pilitin mong wag maka-agrabyado, kahit na sa katiting na pabor na hihingin mo, kahit na sa mga bagay na hindi mo inalintana. tumulong ka, wag kang tumulong, magsalita ka, wag kang magsalita - sa dulo ikaw ang masama, sa dulo ikaw ang mapanghusga, sa dulo ikaw parin ang di marunong umunawa. lagi at laging may masasabi, magtiwala sa kapwa ay tila ba isang pagkakamali.