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⇧ Descendant Astrology ⇩
Your descendant is the opposite of your ascendant. The descendant is the completion of the ascendant. It shows what you unconsciously crave for in a relationship, how you aspire to be and on which level you can personally develop the most. Basically, the descendant reflects characteristics that you not always possess but which another person is able to provide you with and thus to make you feel happy and complete.
♡ Your Ascendant (1st House) ⇆ Your Descendant (7th House)
Aries ⇆ Libra
Taurus ⇆ Scorpio
Gemini ⇆ Sagittarius
Cancer ⇆ Capricorn
Leo ⇆ Aquarius
Virgo ⇆ Pisces
Descendant in…
♡ Libra:
active person
wants a wholehearted relationship
must be able to adapt otherwise relationship won’t last
true, steady partnership may come late
wants fun partners, with no time pressure for developing intimacy
needs to develop diplomacy and readiness to compromise
wishes for independence and self-determination but also for someone to reflect, complete and soothe one’s doing
wants harmony but is also good by oneself
can’t always be understood by others
strongly torn between adapting to partner and doing own will
easily bored if nothing scandalous is happening
environment provides challenges and ideas
feels easily personally attacked or excluded and thus challenged; counters by speaking up offensively
sometimes questioned by partner, this leads to closing oneself up and being misinterpreted
energetic and in love with life
♡ Scorpio:
passionate and able to enjoy things
doesn’t like people to criticize what is loved
kind and likes to indulge loved ones
jealousy alerttttt
partner is loved unconditionally, wholesome and never-ending but also in a possessive way
if deeply hurt, will never forgive
believes in destiny, a human’s dark side
prone to losing oneself in emotional pseudo-realities
needs courage and utter reassurance before entering a relationship
search for security and durability, trust and mental connection
the idea of losing something scares
love equals hate
hates being ruled, this would mean a violation of honour
needs to risk a certain amount of flexibility, otherwise no development
supremely versatile, but stuck in mind restriction
♡ Sagittarius:
needs and gives independence and space
mental input, initiative and easygoingness crucial otherwise stagnation
partner could be best friend
immune to potential lovers, very loyal
can’t cope with emotional overload in a relationship
great hopes and desires, needs galore and soulfulness
partner is considered the ultimate safe haven
if less appealing traits are discovered in partner, great disappointment
prone to only plan for the future and forget the now
wants to discover new ways in a relationship and to get the best out of each other
life is there to be improved, ready to learn and teach
never prejudiced
finds it unfair to leave partner behind
expects too much and is thus disillusioned frequently
high moral and sense of reality obstructs acting out one’s desired temper
♡ Capricorn:
has troubles expressing affection verbally
needs to be completely convinced of another person before getting involved
when committed to someone, it’ll be forever
sometimes duty overshadows emotional side
if hurt, needs time to be convinced of something new
needs maturity and down-to-earthness
finds reassurance in set routines
money planner; never wastes anything unconsidered
self-confidence comes naturally, doesn’t need anbody’s ‘approval’
realistic way of solving problems
people with highly emotional ways of expression are considered unpleasant and annoying
likes to have a partner with dignity and savvy
partner should reflect a kind of reassuring character, if one should ever lose control
matures over the time and becomes more open to the concept of emotional love
♡ Aquarius:
seeks idealistic opposite
needs challenge and strong characters around
self-realisation must not be obstructed
sensitive towards disappointments
tries to act like being protected by a shell when meeting new people (to not get hurt)
sometimes considered flirty, but actually just trying to make people laugh
cannot have boredom
instantly turned off by ‘main-streamers’, needs otherness
likes to give freedom but won’t tolerate being ignored or neglected
won’t get along with very stable and never-changing people
may be more experimental before settling for ‘the One’
may be afraid of ending up alone
evolution by lots of experiences is natural here
♡ Pisces:
needs true emotion and total devotion in partnerships
true coddler
finds it difficult to accept that ideals aren’t always realistic to achieve
weakness for messed up people who can’t really handle life
very much ranging between a very realistic outlook on life and the complete loss in dreams and desires
sometimes blinded by harsh waves of emotional flooding
may often feel indefinable and therefore alone or untrue
sacrifice compensates unanswered feelings, but sacrificing oneself for someone doesn’t ensure gratitude by this person
needs to avoid becoming neither the victim nor the saviour
finding balance highest priority
partner doesn’t necessarily have to have the same twisted mind if he is thouroughly loving and good
best match: relationship with equally giving partner, doing it out of love and respect
♡ Aries:
partnership provides development of personality
can’t decide between wanting to lead the relationship or to adapt for peace’s sake
interests change quickly
partner should be an active person who prevents from boredom
needs lots of contact
needs challenging people but also harmony
little teasing games always welcome
suspense and calmness hold each other’s balance
intrigued by gallant and graceful people
harmony and challenge not always achievable, therefore feels restlessly dissatisfied from time to time (conflict danger!)
should gain insight out of complicated times
work is a welcome distraction
needs to accept own fluctuating personality
disappointments are not taken well
old plans are abandoned very quickly
♡ Taurus:
craves depth and won’t do anything half-heartedly
partnerships are desired to be for the long-term
counterpart is considered spinning point when it comes to passion, happiness and enjoyment
needs to be careful not to sink into jealousy
love aspects: happy and careless but also serious and deeply binding
wants the definite as well as the unknown
feels often disappointed by humanity
affectionate and providing for those considered worth it
doesn’t show it but wants sexual challenge
steady partnership gives feeling of security and confidence
needs time to adapt to different aspects of partnerships and what they bring along
in the end very self-sacrifizing
♡ Gemini:
open-minded and free when it comes to new relations
partnership needs to be free and mutual
excitement comes with interesting fodder for conversations
partner should provide mental input, needs to be approving of vividness and cockiness
nimble and therefore fond of being attention center (not to be confused with vanity), likes to leave a good impression
reassured by courteous behaviour
lots of idols and influenced by world changers
super drawn to funny and intelligent people, knowledge is the holy grail
profound feelings are considered private matter, doesn’t like the feeling of being sounded out
light communication is preferred over deep topics; this might depress and discomfort and bewilder
doesn’t like to be too mysterious, partner should be of clear shape à la what you see is what you get
loves movement, exchange, meeting friends, and expedition tours; needs someone who accompanies all this
♡ Cancer:
objective and level-headed in daily routines
when it comes to love searches tenderness, security and comfort
tends to self-restraint and self-adjusting for partner’s benefit
when sure of counterparts full commitment total abondonment of reluctance
deeply interested in partner’s well-being; emotional perception
needs to pay attention not to care too much about things that don’t even concern
feels quickly personally attacked, thus answers hastily harsh and repellent
doesn’t show but needs plenty of alone time (not to be misinterpreted as rejection!)
needs someone who understands and to whom one doesn’t have to explain oneself; otherwise lonesomeness bound to occur
wants to steer things into the right direction; not one for spontaneous undertakings
should learn that life cannot be planned entirely
if mature and accepting, partnership inevitably trusting, beautiful and for the long-term
♡ Leo:
wants to be proud of relationship
needs much freedom, but gives equally as much
ascendant may make seem cold but partner will get to the true core of warmth
strong and will seldomly will subordinate unless there’s a sensible reason
enjoys partnership as the thing worthiest to aspire
tends to ignore when it comes to beef (partner should handle this by doing the same; this leads to understanding no one can without the other)
loves people equally intelligent and strong
total turn-off: boring people who go mainstream
total turn-on: unusual hobbies and people who just do
probably considered by others as the flamboyant and peculiar couple
needs constant mental enrichment
will only risk things together with someone who provides courageous backup
times when everything is done together take turns with solitude (recharging)
♡ Virgo:
very creative but lacks self-discipline
excellent match would be someone who loves for the dreamy element but will provide a healthy amount of realism
romance please!
tends to be too sensitive and thus withdrawal; partner ideally gets these little quirks and knows how to counter
afraid to ‘impose’ emotions on anyone
expert in human nature; needs contact and (mental) exchange
is happy when there’s need to focus on a task, environment etc.
hates being dictated anything because too polite to decline
needs to learn to take matters into own hand
ideal partner shows how and when to stand up for oneself (in a subtle manner of course and with genuine intention)
antenna for fake people and their fake intentions and fake smiles
needs someone who’s strong for oneself and won’t hesitate to speak the truth, they would complement each other very well
must learn to be enough for oneself (!) because here we have a great human being if there ever was one
We have helped so many, yet we cannot save ourselves.
I found these gifs I made a while back for a site that’s not running anymore, so I thought I’d post them here. It’s a description of psychiatric symptoms and states of mind using a pink box and some other stuff.
These are so accurate
Interesting! Just thought I’d share!
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For what it’s worth: It’s never too late to be whoever you want to be. I hope you live a life you’re proud of, and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start over.
F. Scott Fitzgerald (via psych-facts)
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Tips for Healing a Broken Heart
1. Go through – don’t hide from - the experience. You need to fully experience all the negative emotions before the healing process can begin.
2. Allow yourself to wallow in your independence. Don’t rush into a new relationship. You don’t need another person to make you feel complete. You’re enough in yourself. You are NOT inadequate.
3. Make a list of your strengths. It’s important that you focus on your good qualities as a broken heart can cause our self-esteem to plummet. Make a note of your successes and accomplishments. They didn’t disappear with the relationship!
4. Don’t try to suppress all the memories you have. Allow yourself some time to go over one or two … But don’t pitch your tent there - as the future’s now your focus.
5. Reach out to others who are suffering. You’re not the only person who is having a hard time (although you often feel you are when you’re broken-hearted) … and comforting another will distract you from your pain.
6. Allow yourself to laugh, and allow yourself to cry. Both of these are healing, and can bring release. They can help us feel more “normal”, and can bring a sense of peace.
7. Make a “good and bad list”. Make a list of all the things that you need to stop doing, to try and put some distance between you and them. For example, if you’re always checking their stuff on facebook then you’ll likely find it is harder to get them out mind. Alternatively, going out for a jog or meeting up with a friend can help to lift your spirits, and to change the way you feel.
8. Hang onto your hope. When a relationship ends (or if our love is unrequited) we can feel that life is pointless as there’s nothing good ahead. But the future is still open – and there’s definitely hope … And one day you will notice that you’re smiling naturally.
People think you are an extrovert and easily blend with people because you always look happy and talk much, but i know you are not an extrovert. You are extremely introvert, and you become superficially outspoken and loud to keep people thinking that you have nothing hide inside. But i know, there in your eyes you have your real figure. Unmasked, undisguised. I know you can’t see twinkling stars as simply twinkling. I know you see that those stars are actually smiling and greeting you “have a good evening, or good night, or even ‘why are you still up?’” I know when you hear the rain, you hear the most beautiful orceshtra in the entire universe. I know when lights fade away and darkness sets in, you feel most comfrotable and safe. I know you are smiling, and laughing and even crying during the time you spend with your awesome imaginary friend. You also got so much support and advices from your imaginary friend and have learned alot. I know you have your own world that you create with internet connection, books, music, and locked room. I know cold wind warms you, loneliness spoils you, I know you feel unwanted and too sensitive, and there are times when you feel the whole world rejects your presence. I know that inside you are an introvert. I know you have beautiful life in your beautiful world. I know your vault keeps millions of thoughts and secrets. And i know that you love someone so strong that it can move a mountain. You are an introvert and let me tell you, you are understood.
rezarusandi (via wnq-writers)
i am i am.
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Gratitude and Hopes Journal 10/03/2015
Dear God,
Last night, my friend had a sleep over in my staffhouse unit. We talked a lot about the deep stuffs again. I am very thankful for the progress my friend have been making through a spiritual care group. I can feel the positive vibes in her eyes, in her words and in her actions. It was very unlikely of her which is very inspiring. She is full of energy to start things again. Last night she is full of giggles about his crush like a highschool girl. I find that adorable. It brings back memories of being a teenager. Above all things, she is back to writing again after years of saying she already gave up. In fact she had written about 2 to 3 poems yesterday and immediately send those to her inspiration. Imagine the courage. I never had done that myself. I am really grateful because I can feel you working on her. I pray that she will be able to transform her life more. I also pray for the examination she will take this year. Thank you God for the blessings for me and for my friend. Thank you for letting me feel your presence always.
Your servant, GRACE.
It has been a while since I posted something but this made me cry. I really need this right now to be reminded that even though I am weak and sick because of allergy I will continue to worship You, my Healer. That is the heart of worship. Thank you!
I should sell my cameras.
Smile, It's Free! turned 5 today!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
Kahit sa hospital,photoshoot pa rin.
My friend @gourmethunter just had a successful surgery this morning. At last, let that disease be bygone!
Thanks my friend! Actually it was just a partial operation. I had my polyps removed but the myoma is still there. Sucks. I got to deal with it.
Anyway guys I'm on medical leave and I am literally abusing my bed rest. Hahahaha I hope I'll recuperate soon. I'm more active on IG : mitchiwashere
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Quarterly Update 3.0
I have to do this! Yes folks, I am still alive in case you are wondering. How's everyone? (late post based on BDJ planner)
July
2-6: I filed a vacation leave for the opening night of Eiga Sai. They served unlimited sushi and wine catered by Akira. Too bad I did not win any Shue Uemura raffle. The opening film was starred by my ever crush Kenichi Matsuyama. It's a pretty film and I just love how it captured the countryside life.
I have a festival pass at Virgin Labfest. Every year watching this unadulterated plays makes me sad because I really want to be theater actress. It was frustrating but nonetheless there are dreams that are not meant to come true. Or maybe not now but soon. Let's see.
9:I am crying because of toothache. hahahaha
11:I finished the book Audition. It has a cult following. I like the book better than the film as always.
16: We have accommodation at Traders Hotel because of Typhoon Glenda but I braved the storm and strong winds because I don't want to deal with my cruel officemates.
17: Subscribed at BDJBOX
19-25: I love Orphan Black! Don't you? Can't wait for Season 3.
28: People will try to bring you down and hurt you but you need to rise no matter what.
August
3: Cinemalaya 2014. Attended 3 Gala Premiers and free food again. Hahaha
I suffered from vertigo while watching the 2nd film. Awful.
4: 60th Birthday of Mama. We had a simple celebration.
10: Ace Water Spa with the whole family.
12: Caution: I need anger management program. The world is filled with so much hatred. Don't let that seep into your life.
14: Mama went to USA for vacation for 5 months.
15: Office gossip and escalations. Only dead fish swim with the current. Go against the flow.
22: I'm in! TESDA for Spanish language. Yey!
29: Career profiling at Tesda.
30: Top- Blue Rating at work
September
1: First day of Spanish class
5-7: Laguna mode: UP elbi binge eating and food trip with mi amore.
14: VIP Pass at Beauty Camp of bdjbox.
20: Book Fair: But I splurged on Watsons sale. lolz
28: Gaddiel's 6th month
30: Month end with my love
For the third quarter of this year, I was so busy. Work, school, love life and some social events on the side but I am definitely happy with the turn of events outside work. Speaking of work it was too rubbish and exhausting but it will soon end. I really enjoy studying Spanish language even though the grammar was so hard and I still have a lot of things to learn and I also need confidence in speaking. For 5 weeks I was sleeping 3-4 hours a day because I need to go to class after work. It was free btw. I actually forgot to take care of my body and because of that, I am suffering.
I wish I have new analogue photos to post. Bummer. My go-to developing lab was on hiatus because of restoration whatnot that's why I am also on hiatus. lol ( that's a lame excuse btw )
For the last quarter, I hope that I can improve my makeup skills and start my beauty and health blog. I also hope that I will take care of my health like eating right and engaging in some group exercise. Lastly, I want to have the courage to speak Spanish in everyday life.
That's all!
Some old people have a lot of hang ups in life. That's a natural thing. But this 67- year old Spanish teacher is definitely not one if them. He is still passionate about the things he enjoy the most like teaching and painting. He was indeed an inspiration. Thank you for bringing out the best in all of us. We will surely treasure the experience of being your student. #graciasseñor #spanish #elmaestromejor #minime #studentmode #tesda #nlsi