Hello. I am Goratrix bani Tremere of the Draconic Wizard Workshop. I'm a fictive, sourced from a canon-divergent Vampire: the Masquerade game. I write essays and do panels for various conventions in the alterhuman community. My and the rest of my system's writing can be found on our personal website, here, although I am the main contributor. I have a dragon archetrope and have written about that as well. I run the Fictionkind Dreamwidth (see below) and am generally happy to talk and answer questions. If you are a sourcemate or a double, I highly encourage you to reach out.
However, if you are here to argue with my existence or harass me for being "problematic," save your time and mine. I don't care and block very liberally. Show respect or don't show at all. If you discriminate against people (you are queerphobic, racist, anti-endogenic, etc.) the door is right there.
That being said, don't be driven off by my demeanor. I do appreciate questions and conversation.
I run the fictionkind dreamwidth. Come check it out if you're fictionfolk of any description--fictionkind, fictionhearted, a fictive, have a hearthome, whatever. See if you want to hang out. We let you post basically whatever and have prompts every so often if you want to answer them.
If you're looking for anyone else in the system, try over at @tanix-dragon. As this is a sideblog, I follow from there as well.
My blog's header art was done by @totallynotasubliminalcircle, which we commissioned her for. As a friend of ours, we trusted her to get my look right. She did not disappoint.
Do you like my work? Did one of my essays or panels help you? Please consider donating to my Ko-Fi. Thank you. :] If you are someone who likes how my voice sounds (particularly someone who, at Othercon, has said that they want me to read audiobooks or similar), you can pay me to read things out for you. Contact me and we can talk.
FAQ below the cut:
Q: Why is your url goratrix-betrayed?
A: I was feeling much more melodramatic when I made my blog and now everywhere links to and references it, so I'm not changing it now.
Q: What is Vampire: the Masquerade?
A: VTM is a tabletop role-playing game centered around being a vampire. It gets quite dark and political, and if that's your style, I highly recommend it. I suggest picking up the 20th Anniversary Edition (4th edition) rather than the current "V5" run, as it's more canonically coherent and the mechanics feel better, in my opinion. To each their own, however--V5 lovers, have fun.
Q: Why do you mention being "problematic?"
A: Because I'm not a good or nice person in source and I won't apologize for it.
Q: Why do you write "problematic" in quotation marks?
A: Because I think it's a stupid concept to apply to someone or their source, and I only refer to it to get my point across. In an ideal world, I wouldn't need to.
Q: Why do you reblog so many BPD posts?
A: I have BPD. My symptoms are significantly lesser now that I am in a system, but some things linger.
Q: I know VTM! Did you really do [bad thing]?
A: Probably.
Q: What about [stupid thing]?
A: Unfortunately.
Q: What's your opinion on [discourse of the hour]?
A: I am an 1100-year-old vampire with a blog.
Q: Why am I blocked?
A: You probably said something that annoyed me and I decided that I didn't want to talk to you. If you have an overly aggressive DNI (especially if I and my friends qualify), post constant moodboards with uncredited images in alterhuman tags, or say unhinged and rude shit to my friends, that might be why.
Q: What's the best way to get in contact with you?
A: If you have my Discord, use that. If not, I can be reliably reached both on tumblr and on Dreamwidth.
Q: Why are you so abrasive?
A: I'm an old bitch with a long history of having to defend myself. I'm fairly dry in humor, as well, and not terribly good at tone over text, so I usually come across as more severe than I intend.
Q: Can I ask you for advice?
A: Certainly, if it has to do with my areas of interest, particularly alterhuman identity. I do not give relationship advice (don't ask me why people have asked) because, as some of you know, I am the king of freaking the fuck out and turning evil upon getting divorced. I have BPD. Ask me for advice that doesn't involve quite so many emotional hang-ups, please.
Q: ...What's with the wizardposting tag?
A: Sometimes I get silly with it.
Q: I want to talk to you, but I'm kind of scared to--what can I do about that?
A: Reassure yourself that I am nothing special and reach out. I'm not going to bite your head off unless you're a bitch to me, guaranteed. I am literally just a creature.
Q: I made something because of one of your panels, do you want to see it?
A: YES. ABSOLUTELY AND COMPLETELY YES. Please tag me in it! I want to see it!
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Hey, I hope this isn’t too weird of a thing to say, since we don’t know each other that well. But over the past few years that I’ve been in the Dreamwidth community, I’ve seen the struggles that you’ve gone through from a distance, and I just really admire how much effort you’ve put into working on yourself and giving back to the community even with those roadblocks in place.
Coming from a source like VtM to a life that's so wildly different, plus dealing with health problems and managing the Dreamwidth – that first thing sounds way more difficult and disorienting than anything I’ve ever had to process re: fictionkind identity, and I’m impressed and grateful that you’ve continued to be a presence in the community and done your best to help others regardless. The fact that it’s such a different experience from ours means we don’t always know what to say, or feel like there’s much we can do to help, but we *have* been paying attention, and we’ve developed a lot of fondness and respect for you. When Erik and I said we wanted to take some of the weight off your shoulders, we really did mean it, and we really do hope we’ll be able to, because you deserve it.
-Erik and Ren
Thank you. I really do appreciate this a lot. It has been an immense amount of work, but it has been fulfilling, and I'm glad that it has helped someone. :] Thank you for stepping up to help me with the Dreamwidth. It really does matter to me.
yeah, sure, it was the "power of friendship" that defeated you, and not my super cool "mega bone explosions" spell that I worked really hard on, whatever idiot
goodnight goblins. goodnight ghouls. goodnight screaming tomes and scrolls. goodnight floating glowing eye. goodnight my dear homunculi. goodnight imps and spectral wraiths. goodnight false god that feeds on faith. goodnight bony skeletons. goodnight inert collapsing sun. goodnight monster made of mud. goodnight vampires drinking blood. i wish you all good evil-night. and please do let the bed bugs bite
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oh shit i didn't expect this to actually get notes lmao
these are all direct quotes from jeffrey jerome cohen's "monster culture (seven theses)" (full pdf linked)
i highly encourage you to read it yourself!
that said, while i think cohen's writing is evocative, it can be a little dense, so while i'm here, here's my capsule summary (you can also hear me talk about this in the first episode of my podcast) (listen to @ghostswerepeopletoo)
i. the monster's body is a cultural body - The monster is a work of fiction to be analyzed through tools of literary and sociological theory.
ii. the monster always escapes - As long as the cultural fear from which the monster stems persists, the monster will reappear in retellings, reimaginings, and sequels.
iii. the monster is the harbinger of category crisis - Monsters defy binaries and challenge easy comprehension or categorization.
iv. the monster dwells at the gates of difference - The monster represents the Other.
v. the monster polices the borders of the possible - Tales of the monster exist to discourage unacceptable or taboo behaviors.
vi. fear of the monster is really a kind of desire - Subjects can vicariously participate in the disruption of the social order through the monster.
vii. the monster stands at the threshold… of becoming - Within the monster we find information about the self.
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I want to see more polyamory pride this pride month i'm serious. Stop being weird about people with multiple partners polyamory is awesome and beautiful and queer
