yikes!

I'm not working on any Pokemon projects right now, but I wouldn't say I'm done with it! I still love Pokemon and think about Pokemon stuff frequently 🙈

I keep seeing posts about the new Arceus game and thinking that, if I play it, I bet I'll have ideas for new Pokemon stories... so stay tuned on that lol.

cw: infidelity, cheating

omg, anon, your ideas are both incredibly angsty and incredibly juicy…

I can see both of these scenarios!

maybe Hux and Ben (you guys know how much I love my canonverse benarmie aus lol) are going through a rough patch. Ben is feeling unhappy and resentful. maybe Hux has been distant, and they’ve been fighting, and Ben (wrongly) suspects that Hux has been cheating emotionally or physically.

when he meets someone in a cantina (having stormed out of the house during a fight), part of him feels like this is what Hux deserves for treating him badly.

or maybe they're not having any big problems... but when Ben is offworld without Hux, he meets someone, and there's instant chemistry. he loves Hux and wants to be with him - but they've been together for so long that he'd almost forgotten what it was to feel a spark like this: an immediate, intense attraction, the excitement of something new.

he lets himself get swept up in what he's feeling and cheats. (is it a one-night stand? do they spend a few days together while he's planetside?) then he goes home to Hux. (does he keep talking to the person he slept with?)

the other question is how Hux finds out...

forgive me if this is too angsty, but... I once read that men are more likely to cheat when their partner is pregnant (for a variety of reasons). just throwing that out there...

in any case, I love the idea of Ben’s family “siding” with Hux. both Ben and Hux would probably be surprised by this - Hux thought Ben's family didn't really like him, and Ben had always sort of assumed their loyalty would be with him, whatever the situation. but everyone is so disappointed in Ben's behavior. (I imagine Leia would have some choice words for him.)

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me too, I’ve been thinking about it all day  😭 😭 😭

just... poor Armitage, having to deal with morning sickness and hormones and various aches and pains, all alone, while grieving 😭

through the first trimester and most of the second, he’s terrified that something will go wrong and he’ll lose the baby -- lose the last piece of Ben, the only connection that remains.

(re: this post and this post)

both, I think -- one after another. initially, he staunchly insists that he’s not in labor. he can’t be, since he’s not due for another two weeks.

even when the speeder breaks down on the way to the medcenter, he tells himself (and Rey) that it’s fine, really, because this isn’t the real thing. (they shouldn’t have left the house in the first place, he argues, but there’s nothing for it now.) they’ll just wait until the storm blows over and everything will be fine.

when it becomes clear that he’s in labor, he still tries to resist -- doesn’t want to practice proper breathing, doesn’t want to change positions (as much as is possible in a speeder, anyway), doesn’t want to do anything to facilitate the process.

it’s not up to him, though. eventually he realizes that he’s really having the baby, whether he wants to or not, without a medical professional in sight. that’s when the panic sets in.

just had a concept pop into my brain: vaguely canonverse au where Ben dies in an accident when Armie is 8 weeks pregnant

you guys know how much I like the whole “mutual pregnancy” thing, and also that I have a soft spot for reylux

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I have extremely powerful feelings on the subject 💦

there are a lot of possible scenarios, but for right now, let’s say that Hux has recently given birth to their first child and is nursing. while Kylo certainly enjoyed the many changes to Hux’s body during the pregnancy (including his bigger breasts), he didn’t think that would extend to changes after the baby came...

... until the first time Hux wakes up in the middle of the night, his breasts full and leaking through the thin fabric of his top. Kylo is transfixed.

it’s not long before they discover that additional nursing sessions don’t take anything away from the baby -- in fact, the stimulation convinces Hux’s body to produce even more milk, which necessitates more nursing sessions, which results in more milk...

after a year, their baby is weaned and eating solid food -- but Hux is still lactating, because somebody isn’t ready to give it up. 😉

in this scenario, I imagine that Hux is terrified of giving birth. he wants to have a child, and pregnancy is all right... but he’s fearful and anxious about the actual delivery.

for months, he’s envisioned a calm, controlled, medicated birth in a hospital, with his husband by his side the whole time.

ahh, omg, thank you for this message! it inspired me. I think I’ve got something...

Armie and Ben live on Arkanis, in a remote home near the sea, with no close neighbors. two weeks before Armie is due to deliver their first child, Ben’s younger sister Rey comes to visit.

for some reason (we’ll work that out later), Ben is away from home and unavailable. Rey is keeping Armitage company for the afternoon.

when Armitage goes into labor, Rey panics -- but he insists it’s not the real thing, because he’s not due for two more weeks.

eventually, however, Rey insists on driving him to the medcenter, which is more than an hour away by speeder. because of Armitage’s denial, his labor is well underway by the time they get on the road.

it happens to be storm season on Arkanis. the sea is roiling, the roads are flooding, and rain is coming down hard enough to bruise the skin.

several miles away from town, the speeder breaks down and Rey is unable to repair it. the road is remote enough that there are no passing speeders that might be able to give them a lift.

to make matters worse, the weather is so bad that their comms get no signal, so they can’t even let someone know where they are.

meanwhile, Armitage’s contractions are getting closer and closer together.