09 15 20  - AWARDS CEREMONY :: #DWC1STWIN!

he’s shifting from side to side nervously, the bright stage lights and the bodies crowded around him just a tad bit stifling. the mcs, however, look entirely unfazed—happy, even. with all the people watching from home and a large enough audience that could be found amongst themselves, changmin wonders how they manage to look so cool.

twelfth flyer

(...)

she hands him the flyer upon his request, noticing how excited he seems and how his ears are tinted red. she finds it endearing how he reacts to all of this. especially because she practically wants to react the same. 

“ah! i know! i know. i’m the same! i turn nineteen in december,” she reveals with a shy smile and excited nods. “i’m mina. kang mina. i signed just this month and it’s really an honor to meet you, changmin-sunbaenim.” she bows her head once more to show her appreciation. 

did she ignore him saying she could call him changmin or minnie? yes. but that’s because there could possibly be a manager walking around somewhere…. but also, he is her senior. so it’s out of respect! 

the hint of starstruck that colors the the girl’s bright eyes doesn’t go unnoticed by changmin, perhaps because he himself has been in her shoes quite a few times now. from accidentally running into an idol in his first month of training to seeing one of his friends debut, changmin knows what it feels like to be in the presence of someone who shone so brilliantly in his eyes that he found himself a little self-conscious. the thought that he might be that someone to another person is flustering, though, and it manifests in the way his cheeks remain just the slightest bit red after the initial shock of their encounter wore off.

“thank you!” taking the flyer gingerly, changmin folds it into a few lopsided squares ( although a bit uneven, the attempt was earnest ), and tucks it safely into the pocket of his sweatpants.

“mina! happy to meet you.” as if proving his statement, changmin grins broadly, his eyes curling up into cheerful half moons. admittedly, he’s a little down at the fact that she seems to have chosen to call him by his full name ( not that it was a bad one! — but even his mom calls him minnie... although, maybe it was because she was his mom ), but it’s okay. it’s understandable why she would want to err on the side of caution, especially since she was now training under sphere... but he supposes it wouldn’t hurt to try, anyways.

“you don’t have to address me so formally, by the way — y’know, since we’ll be same-aged friends and all!” with a pause, he finds himself subconsciously thinking back to his older sister’s words of advice.

‘if you’re too friendly, people from the outside might misunderstand...’

although there’s no break in his expression that would indicate any troubling thoughts, changmin finds himself adding hesitantly, “if you’re worried about someone overhearing and misunderstanding, i understand, though. no worries!”

‘...and then others might get in trouble, too.’

despite the lingering thought, he resolves not to let it obstruct their potential friendship. senior in the business or not, he’d never turn down the prospect of making a friendly acquaintence.

( besides, unlike the other convex members, he wasn’t particularly extraordinary. he’s still the same kid who loved dancing more than anything else in the world, and the desire he holds in his eyes for the spotlight reflects back in hers just as strongly. )

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08 11 20  - MV FILMING IN THE DESERT :: DON’T WANNA CRY BY CONVEX

“it’s so hot...”

even though he’s been under direct sunlight for a few minutes now, changmin finds that his eyes have only opened just a few millimeters bigger from their initial squint. it’s difficult to ascertain the exact details of the filming set because of how bright it is around him, and he’s half wishing he had actually bought those i-heart-la sunglasses at one of those merchandise shops in the airport when they had first landed.

( he’ll do it on the way back for sure. )

orion time

(...)

“well, looking the part is definitely much easier than going through it for real. wait wait wait, you’ve never confessed to anyone before? does that mean you’ve had people confessing to you? aigooo, mr. popular!” juyeon wraps an arm around changmin’s shoulders and shakes him from side to side with a bright laugh. 

“atta-boy! that’s what i wanna hear!” although, juyeon’s a hypocrite because technically he’s dating someone while still being a convex member. “i also promise…” he looks around to make sure that those passing by are not within earshot. “not to let my love life affect my idol life either. i worked hard to become convex’s link and i won’t jeopardize myself or the other members.” 

juyeon beams at his dongsaeng. “yeah, let’s ask them! i haven’t bowled in forever and i think they’d wanna play too. it could be fun. we could even make it a contest or something too and loser has to like… do something. maybe clean the dorm or buy food for the winners.”

flustered, changmin waves his arms around frantically in denial as sangyeon shakes him, his face starting to heat up. “hold on a second! i didn’t mean it that way, hyung!” sheepish, changmin tries to hide his face in his hands. “i’ve only been confessed to once or twice in school, but i couldn’t accept them because i was so busy with dancing. i didn’t really know those classmates too well, either! i felt bad.”

the more he rambles, the more he exposes himself, and now sangyeon knows that he’s never really confessed and has only been confessed to, which makes him look a lot more popular than he actually was. his face is colored a light shade of red when the other lets him go, and he presses his palms against his cheeks to try to will it to go away.

listening to sangyeon’s promise seriously, changmin nods enthusiastically. “i trust you, though! i think you’ll put any of us in danger on purpose or by being thoughtless.”

at the mention of a bowling contest, the dancer perks up, eyes wide and burning with the beginning inklings of a competitive passion. he had always been one for playing games and competing, whether it was through sports with friends or at ddr in the arcade near his high school. if he was to become the maknae on top, this was his golden opportunity!

“oh yeah, that sounds good! what if they have to clean the dorm and buy food for the winner?” suggesting it a bit slyly, changmin adopts a more mischievous expression. “unless you think any of the other hyungs might be really good at bowling, i think we have a good shot at winning, ehe.”

although sangyeon may have seen it once or twice from the younger considering how long they’ve known each other for, changmin’s sure the other members have yet to witness his more trickster side. what can he say, though--sometimes, you just have to hustle to win at life. 

twelfth flyer

handing it to @michaxrk

after meeting three idols (two from sphere, too! how embarrassing) while handing out flyers, mina thought her luck was already wasted just from those three interactions. she’s sure that at this point, she’ll have more normal people to give her flyers too. at least, that’s what she hopes. she can’t really be too sure, with how her life has been going so far in the last few days. 

she walks by people when she sees an oddly familiar face in the crowd. curious to see it up close, she takes it as an opportunity to approach them with a flyer. already having one in hand, she walks up to them and calls them out. “hi! excuse me! would you like a sphere flyer?” she runs to them and as soon as she’s face to face with the person, her jaw drops again. so much for thinking she wouldn’t run into someone she stans. 

“oh my god! you’re micha! from convex!!” she gasps and bows her head. “hi! oh my god! sorry for asking to give you a flyer! you’re already in sphere!!” she bows her head. “i’m a huge fan! that’s how i recognized you. wow! i’m rambling a lot. sorry!” she wants to ask if she and her could be friends, since they were both born in the same year (according to sphere’s profile for him). but she’s already said too much! so instead she stands there looking at him in awe… like a loser. 

no matter how many times he’s seen trainees outside giving out flyers, changmin never quite seems to lose the excitement that comes with seeing fresh faces and seeing their determination in getting their companies’ names out. 

back in his trainee days and even as an idol, he goes out often enough to get handed a flyer from an unsuspecting trainee. rather than revealing his status, however, he finds it a bit more fun to see the surprise on their faces when they find him at seocho. 

he’s heard from some of his trainee friends about the new casting ( especially for sphere ), so when a girl approaches him on the street with a flyer, changmin’s face brightens. 

this time he’s surprised, however, when she recognizes him.

“hi, that’s me!” flustered, he finds himself bowing back at the stranger, laughing. listening to her explanation, he rubs the back of his neck shyly. he’s been recognized once or twice already when going outside, but it still catches him by surprise. it’s a bit obvious that he’s still quite happy at being recognized. 

heaven’s kitchen.

(  tw !! brief mentions of dieting )

(...)

“o-oh my— a-are you okay? I’m s-so sorry, I didn’t m-mean to scare y-you. trust me, I k-know how it f-feels.” maybe one day he’ll explain his fears to the new members, the experiences he’s lived through over the years because of it all, but for now, he likes the innocent smile changmin offers him — like seungcheol is just another friend amongst the group and not someone to pity, or someone who doesn’t seem strong enough to be a leader, albeit even just for one unit. “d-do you want m-me to take a l-look at it? is t-there a bump?” he asks, though he doesn’t come any closer yet as to not overstep any boundaries. 

the delayed hunger is something seungcheol is also familiar with. sometimes, it feels like his body is so tired it doesn’t quite catch up to his hunger or thirst until hours later when he’s already indulging in sleep. perhaps his body forgets that it has anything to do besides practice and sleep, though the way he eats when he does sit down for a meal would persuade anyone otherwise. he had always considered his portions average before he signed to sphere, then slightly smaller to make sure he didn’t put on any weight they could punish him for, but now it feels like the opposite. sometimes they plate up for the entire group and seungcheol thinks momentarily before they start that he could eat all of it to himself. 

“o-oh, no, no, don’t w-worry about th-that at all. I think with h-how tired we can g-get, m-most of us c-could s-sleep th-through an earthquake, so a little k-kitchen noise is n-nothing.” he insists, shaking his head with a warm, wide smile and an airy laugh. “I w-was going to p-politely decline so I’d k-know you’d be w-well fed h-having it a-all, but n-now you’ve s-said it’s ‘one h-hundred p-per cent a-authentic’, I d-don’t know if I can resist.” he chuckles once more, breathing in the heavenly smell. he misses his own mother’s cooking, too, though he wouldn’t ever admit out loud ( for fear that it’d get back to her somehow and he’d have his ear chewed off ) that changmin’s smells even better. 

seungcheol’s concern makes changmin flustered just the slightest, and he rubs the back of his head a bit shyly despite his bright expression.

“oh, no! it’s okay! i’m okay! i’m tough to crack, haha. but, thank you for your concern.” not being one to forget his manners, changmin bows his head slightly with the thanks, rubbing at the back of his neck sheepishly. back at home, his mom would sometimes joke that he’s growing too fast, with how his full height used to be far, far below the overhanging cabinets in the kitchen just a few years ago. now, he stands at almost 180cm, still growing ( or he hopes he is ). sometimes, even he forgets this fact, and it’s led to a couple of accidental slip-ups here and there. nothing a band-aid won’t fix, though! he just hopes that no one ends up becoming an unfortunate victim of his clumsiness in the future. 

“hm, yeah, now that you say it, the hyungs work really hard! a couple of weeks ago, i actually snuck out to the dance studio to practice and accidentally bumped into a lot of stuff on the way out, but thankfully didn’t wake anyone up. i should make something for the others too, sometime.” picking up the spatula for the rice, changmin almost taps the tip against his chin in thought before remembering that it would be touching the rice not too long from now. he decides to let it hover at a safe distance away from his skin before he turns to seungcheol with a tilt of his head. “what do you think?”

humming at the other’s answer, changmin starts to search for two plates in the cabinets, grabbing them and placing them on the counter.

“ah, no worries! back at home, i always wanted to cook for my sisters, but they moved out when i finally got around learning. truthfully, it was lonely eating midnight snacks alone.” pouting at the recollection, changmin’s brows are furrowed as he plops a healthy amount of fried rice on a plate with an almost humorous amount of concentration. a beat passes, and he turns to look at seungcheol with a softened expression, now beaming. “but you’re here, now! so i’m not alone anymore.”

07 21 20 [ BACKDATED ]  - ‘ SURPRISE TIME! 🦄🦄 ’ :: MICHA’S SOLO SEGMENT

TIME: 45 min! ( 25 min SOLO / 20 min WITH TAEYONG, SEHUN, ROYAL, and a HARU cameo )

SONGS MENTIONED: heartz minhee ( @rkxminhee​ ) ’s vivid, per_se’s o sole mio ( @haknyeonrk​​ )  ACTIVITIES: special skills ( tricking ), question & answer, cover dances

“woah... woah!”

startled when the app indicates that the stream has started, changmin’s hand immediately comes up to cover his face shyly as he sees the viewers come flooding in. 

oh my,

woohyun tries his best not to think about zhengting’s departure, so he throws himself into practicing. there’s a lot to do, with the addition of the b-sides as well as working on their new title. don’t wanna cry has grown on him as a song, but the dance still has portions he stumbles over his feet with. so he does a bit more extra practice on it– at least to fine tune, so he can be prepared when their comeback approaches. and on top of that, they have to learn unit black’s call me baby. while familiar with the song from being under kt before his transferred to sphere– it’s dance is a little difficult for him to keep up with.

“hey, changminnie.” he calls out to the younger, smiling at his roommate brightly. he plops down next to him during one of their breaks. he braces himself on his hands, leaning back on them as he stretches out his limbs with a groan. “can i practice with you?” he asks, tilting his head at the other. “i’m struggling a little bit with call me baby…can i get some pointers?” he’s a bit sheepish as he asks, rubbing the back of his neck.

( he's trying his best not to worry about zhengting, to not think too much on it, but it seems that doing so has unearthed a different rabbit hole instead. )

alone in his head, it's easy to think that the older members are omnipotent and unfazed by the limelight regardless of their situation; even if that niggling voice of common sense nudges him whenever his imagination gets carried away, he wonders if he might crumble under the weight of such a famous song. trying to remember the excitement that had hit him when their stage was first announced but failing to chase away the nerves, he finds himself jumping around instead, shaking his hands and trying to rid himself of that strange, jittery feeling.

it's a momentary deep dive, however; as quickly as the anxiety appears, it's replaced by a sense of anticipation. changmin blooms back to life after a couple gulps of water during their break, visibly pleased to see woohyun when the other calls out to him.

( right, he has all the other members, after all - there's nothing to worry about! he's sure zhengting is doing well... he'll call him later, too! )

"hi hyung!" although sweaty, his face lights up and he scoots closer to woohyun. "of course! it was getting lonely doing my part over and over again..."

"let's do it - i can show you!" he makes a motion to get up before realizing that they had a few minutes of break left, and settles back on the floor sheepishly. "well! it was kind of tricky for me, too, back when i learned it... i was with the other busking hyungs and they already knew it, so i had to practice really hard to catch up."

thinking wistfully of his busking days, changmin uncrosses his legs and stretches them out on the floor, mirroring woohyun's position. truthfully, he didn't expect this outcome back then, but he's more than happy to be able to perform call me baby once more.

📝  [ from. 지창민 ]  micha’s_thoughts 🥰 👤  convex_미차 🦄      📅  05.04.2020 [BACKDATED]  🕒  11:50pm

consta, i missed you!!!!! ㅠㅠ i hope you all are resting well and are reading this in the morning ㅠㅠ 💚

this is the eighteen-year-old maknae ji changminnie, micha! can i tell you a secret?

it’s hard to sleep since there are so many thoughts running around in my head... the same thing happened the night before my teaser was released - i couldn’t sleep a wink and ended up sitting awake with the *plant hyungs until we had to get ready for practice. but you all were there when the video was posted, and i received a lot of love even though i joined later, so i’m really grateful. 😊

now, the night before we go onstage, i have a lot more strength than before because our consta is with us, but i still worry that i might not live up to everyone’s expectations. but that means i just have to work harder and believe harder in your love, right? 

truthfully, being able to confide in you all has made me feel a lot calmer. i think i can do well as long as we have consta. i know i’m still lacking, so i will work doubly... no, triply... no, quadruply... as hard until i become someone consta can be proud of! 

until now, this has been convex’s maknae and lead dancer, micha. thank you for your support and for loving me! please stay healthy and eat well~ 💚💚💚💚💚

07 24 20  - SPECIAL STAGE :: CALL ME BABY BY UNIT BLACK

cr. zhaolusi

the moment the song that they would be performing for the special summer stage at music bank was announced, changmin’s face lit up bright enough to flood the room with sunshine.

at this point, there were a few quirks belonging to ji changmin that convex’s instructors were accustomed to: first, that he would always greet the teachers in a unaffected and ( sometimes startlingly depending on what hour of day it was ) cheery manner; second, that he was always enthusiastic about whatever schedule was introduced to them for the month; and third, that he always, always looked inexplicably joyful whenever he performed onstage.

he’s even heard their performance coach joke once that they worried he’d be unable to dance onstage without smiling so freely, which was troubling considering that their upcoming title song was about holding in tears caused by heartbreak. in changmin’s defense, he’s rather eager to show the skills he’s been preparing for quite some time now, and finally being given a place where he could do so made his hunger for the stage more apparent than ever.

there were some things, however, that he didn’t wear on his sleeve—rather important things, at that. fortunately, getting to perform call me baby would reveal these sides of convex’s micha that he hasn’t been able to show so far. 

this street is completely crazy strangers in between people every moment that we’re together like boom boom boom boom boom

url  @changminxrk → @michaxrk 

ig handle   @ / jijiminnie → @ / michacha

cr. hwqll

i...is that pika? in this neighborhood? 

yes indeed, ‘tis me! for all the new people who i’ve missed over this very long period of hiatus / semi-hiatus due to being unceremoniously locked out of minnie’s account by tumblr... welcome & i hope you’re settling in well!! i play changminnie aka micha here, and i also play @rkxbin​ aka changbin! i’m re-introducing myself because i feel like it’s been that long ASKDNDFNKD but in the past few hours i have been cleaning up & updating both of my muses’ themes, fixing tags, and also making a game plan for plotting so i can hopefully stop flaking >< 

but yes! rambling aside, this is a plot call so please drop a LIKE if you want to plot for either binnie or minnie ( if i haven’t responded to your dms from before, you can still LIKE for me to come back and continue ; v ; thank you for your patience )!!

i have some relevant plots underneath the cut for those of you who might be curious! i hope you’re all having a lovely day ♡