it's fine i don't even need to be part of social groups or friend groups anyway (giant hole appears in my chest spontaneously) ? what's that

i really don’t have the time to be the way i am

Im sorry I didn’t reply to your message for three weeks. I did not forget about it infact I thought about it regularly every day. It will happen again

feels like im always recovering. when do i get to live

"it's okay to rest for as long as you need from burnout" how long is it actually going to take though. there's stuff i wanna do.

ummmmm what do i find enjoyable again

experiencing intense melancholy tonight if you want to pull up

nobody in the entire world has ever known what to do with me

it's so sick and twisted that you have to forge the life you deserve from the molten scraps of the life you were forced to have

unfortunately i could never be nonchalant because i am not well in the head and also my soul is on fire

my ultimate fantasy is to have a brain and body that allows me to enjoy being alive