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โ i wasnโt in love with him. โ
โ i loved him. of course! it was impossible not to. โ
โ everyone loved you. everyone wanted to be around you. โ
โ i protected him. i was honest with him. โ
โ it's just you and me, mate. and the girl with agoraphobia, but she's in her room. โ
โ are you telling me you spent your summer reading the bible? โ
โ oh no no. not, uh, friend. more an admirer. from afar. โ
โ so you're picking apart the style my essay instead of the substance? โ
โ it's not what you argue but how. โ
โ fuck, that's kind. are you serious? โ
โ heโs been expelled from almost every school in england for sucking off the teachers. โ
โ there arenโt any pictures of me as a kid. โ
โ you look different. โ
โ harsh! that is so harsh! youโre such a snob! โ
โ only rich people can afford to be this filthy. โ
โ do you think he'll be jealous? โ
โ no, i'm not like you. this is all i have. โ
โ this feels a bit fucking stupid now to be honest. โ
โ honestly? i don't think i'll ever go home again. โ
โ just be yourself! they'll love you! โ
โ everybody just goes to ruin, i suppose. โ
โ but darling you're kind about everyone, you can't be trusted. โ
โ i have a complete and utter horror of ugliness. โ
โ because you're a terrible person? โ
โ daddy always said that i'd end up at the bottom of the thames. โ
โ fucking hell you gave me a fright. โ
โ i wanted to have a look at the moon. it's nearly full. do you know what that means? โ
โ i'm cold blooded. we're all cold blooded, haven't you noticed? โ
โ because youโre so fucking beautiful. โ
โ you're in your see-through nightdress underneath my window. โ
โ i could just eat you. โ
โ lucky for you i'm a vampire. โ
โ bring on the slutty fairies. โ
โ it's just fucking cringe, mate. โ
โ what a little shit-stirrer. โ
โ itโs just so disappointing. you're just another one of his toys. โ
โ alright, fuck this. i'm getting a drink. โ
โ are you going to behave from now on? โ
โ i mean, youโre a fucking liarโฆ why would you lie? โ
โ ...i just wanted to be your friend. โ
โ you canโt ignore me forever. โ
โ can you fuck off and bother somebody else? โ
โ you really do notice everything don't you? โ
โ you canโt just throw me away. โ
โ i just gave you what you wanted. like everyone else does! โ
โ everyone puts on a show for you. so iโm sorry if my performance wasnโt good enough. โ
โ i just need you to understand how much i fucking love you. โ
โ i'm still the same person. โ
โ i don't know what you are. but i do know you make my fucking blood run cold. โ
โ it was the end of everything. โ
โ none of us wants your bloody american feelings! โ
โ your politeness is so grating. do you know that? โ
โ you're always skulking around. weaving your spider web. โ
โ i think you're a moth. quiet. harmless. drawn to shiny things. batting up against the windowโฆ just desperate to get in. โ
โ you've made your holes in everything. you'll eat us from the inside out. โ
โ you ate him right up. and you licked the fucking plate.โ
โ have you been happy? โ
โ i loved you. by god, i loved you. but sometimes i... hated you.โ