“I guess feeling friends fade away from your life hurts. It hurts because you don’t connect with people often but with them it just clicked. It hurts because you could feel the distance growing. They stopped texting you as often. You felt you were annoying them. You watched them post on social media with their new friends, and felt a pocket of envy in your stomach. It is so much harder to let go of someone when you are a quiet person like myself, when you know that friendships do not come often or easily. They do not sprout like flowers. They are rare occurrences, like twins, the Grand Canyon, or dogs with two different coloured eyes. So I am sorry, my friend, that my friendship did not satisfy you, and I’m sorry my friendship to you wasn’t as rare an occurrence as yours was to me. I’m sorry you got bored of me, I’m sorry we grew apart.”

“I can’t call you because if I did, I would be forced to face the fact that one of my closest friendships has been reduced to calculated and pleasant small talk that is the total opposite of who we used to be. So, I’m sorry, I wish I could do this, but we’ve spent months slowly drifting to the point that catching up now seems like a painful formality with someone who I’ve already lost and may never get back.”

“Relationships fail when people take their own insecurities and project them as their partner’s flaws.”

“You deserve all the good things. You deserve waking up happy in the morning. You deserve dancing along to music in the kitchen while cooking breakfast. You deserve to feel weightless after a mid-day run. You deserve the smell of your favorite black coffee. You deserve reading a book at the park under the clear blue sky. You deserve to dance in the rain. You deserve to sing along to the radio in the car. You deserve shaking from laughter. You deserve feeling loved. You deserve happy.”

“You were my happiness for so long.”

I haven’t seen you in years Unless you count your smile softly melting the walls of my dreams each night Dripping memories down each cheek