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instead you look aloof and rude and not worth peoples time because you dont give back. like idk, i talk to people and listen because i care about friends. but so much of what i say is filtered through fear and lost. and im dissasociative and autistic so how im percieved and why people leave or give up on us is completely unknown to me.

like im constantly grasping at connections and reality but they slip away and im left wondering why i cant be loved or kept around

I actually can’t

What the fuck

I’m so lonely but I hate people

They scare me and irritate me and I want to be left alone because it’s better that way

But I’m so damn lonely and I need friends

thing i drew for the jo/kä gift exchange in may but never posted :,)