I wish that I could kill myself without having to do all of the work. I would like to be euthanized at a vets office or have someone else to pull the trigger for me. I'm really tired of existing the way that I am but I don't have the energy to do anything about it.

Hello everyone, sorry it has been awhile. They found an abnormal result with my spine at our last MRI and we are going to be doing a full spinal MRI to check for chiari malformation. I am scared and exhausted but relieved we may have found our answer.

Hello everyone, good afternoon. How are you today ? I am not feeling the best still. I decided to bake pumpkin pie to try to feel better, and because I kind of felt left out from people doing Thanksgiving. I hope you have a good day.

I think I am genuinely reaching my limit.

I love you all. I'll get to asks soon. I'm sorry for being less active. Today I had my first cardiology visit. He ordered a few tests, but says he strongly suspects autonomic dysfunction. I have been told to up my salt intake to 3g per day, which feels like a lot. I don't know. I'm tired of more and more tests every appointment.

One of my close friends died yesterday morning and it feels so unreal to me. What do you mean she's gone forever.