Pirate Angel Baby

Title: Dark as Blood Series: MCU/Marvel Comics Author: Saetha (AO3)/@heartoferebor (Tumblr) Artist: @drjezdzanyart: AO3 | Instagram Characters: Bucky Barnes, Steve Rogers, Peggy Carter, The Howling Commandos Pairing: Steve/Bucky, Steve/Peggy Rating: M Length: 49,698 words Summary:  Magic has always been a part of this world. Some have it, others don’t - and Bucky discovers early on just how destructive his own is. As much as he might hate his abilities, however, he will use them to keep first his family and Steve and then the entire Howling Commandos safe. Things get more difficult once they get thrown into the fray of war, but somehow they endure, the Commandos growing stronger as they grow closer. Warnings: Hurt/Comfort, Angst, (Medical) Torture, lots of mentions of blood, Alcohol Notes: A fic for the @cabigbang! I had so much fun writing this and even more collaborating with the wonderful Lorien on the artwork <3. Also featuring tons of awesome Howlie friendship/cameraderie and Bucky and Peggy getting along fabulously because YES.

“How do you do it?” Steve finally asked, his voice brittle as he was trying to wipe his eyes dry. “How do you not break over and over again?” He was well aware that as a sergeant Bucky had seen, had commanded, more than his own fair share of death.

“I do,” Bucky told him. “We all do. We just can’t let the cracks swallow us whole.”

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But ya’ll don’t get it. This is EXACTLY what it’s like to be bi. If you grew up in any sort of environment where LGBT was Not Accepted, and you had any inclination toward the opposite sex, you just ran with that, because that’s all you were ever taught to look towards. And because for the longest time even the media was all ‘you’re either gay or straight’, forgetting that the B in LGBT has been there for quite a fucking while, you had no outside stories or icons you could turn to for guidance. 

No one teaches you what being in a same sex relationship is supposed to be like or feel like, and what’s worse, most likely all you know is a caricature of what a homosexual relationship and/or person is, so your own experiences really won’t match up. So none of what’s happening to you makes sense with what you know.

So I can 100% fully believe my dude here thought he was straight. Until society teaches what it also means to be bi, this will neither be the last nor weirdest story you ever hear about a bisexual awakening.

I think he thought I was gonna ask for an autograph because I was not even lowkey staring I was full on moon-faced and bouncing and he kept looking over at me hesitantly like aw jeez kid fuck off

anyways I finally managed to squeak out that I was a huge fan and asked for advice on writing, “how do I write as well as you do?” in my horrible thick German accent and broken ass English and he gave me the best writing advice I have ever received

“shit kid, stop worrying about how other people do it and just write your story”