i love you to distraction

I LOOK FORWARD TO TALKING TO YOU. (you slipped  underneath the sleeves of my sweater like the first cool breeze of october, and i can’t remember the last time someone’s touch left goosebumps on my skin. these soft pin pricks remind me that i’m alive.) YOU LOOK BEAUTIFUL. (i want to kiss you just to see if you taste like the colors of the autumn sky because that’s what you remind me of.) IT WAS NICE SEEING YOU TODAY. (your arms feel like moonlight holding the crashing tide part of me together, something strong and inimitable like gravity and i’m reminded again why this is called falling.) HELLO. (i want you. that’s what this all comes down to, and i’m sorry but i tried to ignore it, i really did. my days consist of sleepless nights and 4 am mornings and my brain is a screaming limbo of lost time. but somehow you planted seeds in my heart and grew inside me like a rose bush defying all logic and that’s the entire point of this isn’t it ? the thorns prick my lungs but the smell of your smile hides the bleeding. and i’m okay with that. i really am.)

Aries  -  there is something sinister about sunny skies when you’re crying in your car; there is so much sadness in laughter being yanked out of your throat by an autumn wind.  Taurus  -  the windy road of your last love has lead you to a sleepy gas station that sells all your favorite candy, but you can’t stay there forever.  Gemini  -  i will never understand how the changing of seasons can make me feel so sad even as it is the only thing that can renew me, but maybe someday you might make sense of it. Cancer  -  if someone asked me what love looks like, i would tell them it looks like you scratching your face in your sleep; i would tell them it feels like feeding your cat while you’re away. Leo  -  sometimes i think that the key to happiness is learning to balance your structured sonnets and your comfy free-verse, but if it were that easy you might not need to write to begin with.  Virgo  -  if you find yourself feeling sad for the raindrops pounding their heads on the pavement outside your house, light a candle for each one and close your windows so the rain clouds can’t see the smoke. Libra  -  how many skies will you have to pass under before you learn how to slow your wanting? how many cars will you crash before you decide to look for the brakes? Scorpio  -  you have become a museum of charm bracelets and old theme park maps; remember to always leave room for this month’s bills and next week’s haircut or you will become more cemetary than art gallery. Sagittarius  -  tell me about your spine, or your knuckles, or your throat; don’t talk about your skin or your eyelashes or anything else meant to distract from your infrastructure. Capricorn  -  giving yourself time is hardest when you can’t think of anything but how quickly it passes; it’s even harder when your mind moves faster than any clock ever could . Aquarius  -  tell someone about the ice cream headache in your garden before your whole house freezes over. Pisces  -  you are stolen cinnamon and fresh apple cider;  you understand the sweetness within secrecy better than anyone else.