Too sleepy and horny

going back and forth between wanting to die and feeling immense guilt for wanting that. (i don’t have anything and im not planning anything, for the record). but given my situation, especially the intense cfs crash im in rn… its hard ! i really dont see how someone like me can survive homelessness.

our family unit really broke down in 2024 and my moms emotional issues exacerbated and i don’t want to traumatize my siblings further and make my moms alcoholism worse

What a rush. Huge risks, several near-wipes, but HUGE rewards. Absolutely insane come up. We're in the BIG leagues now. 5th Rank Spells, level 9 class features. Investigator (me!) moving up to +2 on my class feature is so fuckin' huge. Big mysteries unfurling. Some unexpectedly clever choices catapulting us ahead.

Over 90% of parents of visibly intersex children opt for cosmetic surgery on their infants.

The ones that don't experience medical violence then, likely experience it as a teenager.

I didn't.

I am very rare in that I did not experience medical violence.

Why? Because I learned what intersexuality was as a young age, and I actively fought against what doctors wanted to do to me. All the way down to legal research on what medical care minors can be forced into. I remember walking into that doctor's appointment with the state law written down that proved that if I did not consent they could not do surgery.

A gay Canadian adult film star claims that he was detained for over eight hours by U.S. Customs before receiving a 10-year ban from the country. Milo Miles said he was traveling to Las Vegas from Toronto's Pearson Airport in January when a routine U.S. customs screening turned into a nightmare. "It was the worst and most painful day of my life," Miles told LGBTQ Nation. "I was subjected to derogatory comments, with an unsettling focus on my sexual orientation and my sex life." Miles said his phone and luggage were searched, and he was asked intrusive questions about his sexuality and line of work. “All of this happened on two hours of sleep. I was starving, dehydrated, and in a state of complete exhaustion. I was treated like a criminal despite having done nothing wrong. I felt coerced, manipulated, and powerless. I am devastated.” U.S. Customs has the right to deny entry to people they believe are sex workers, even if they’ve never been convicted, and will use coercive tactics to try and elicit a confession, according to Maggies, a Canadian sex worker justice organization. [...] According to Miles, who was planning on visiting his boyfriend in Florida after the award show, U.S. Customs accused him of "escorting with no evidence" and were fixated on the "gay clothes," fiber pills, and PrEP he had packed, despite finding nothing illegal in his possessions. Miles ended up missing his flight due to the lengthy interrogation. When he came back the next day to catch another flight, he was interrogated again, and this time they found evidence of his career in the porn industry. "This officer decided to be a lot more thorough with his search and interrogation," he said. "After about two hours of intense interrogation, he found evidence that I do porn on my personal phone. Then, over the next two hours found evidence of escorting on my other phone." Miles said that they never found any evidence of prostitution, but noticed text conversations he had with past escorting clients — who he mostly provides with a boyfriend experience — and current text messages where he was trying to make plans with a client in Las Vegas. "Escorting is an exchange of money for time spent with an individual," he clarified. "For example, most of my clients are looking for 'the boyfriend' experience. Or someone to go to dinner with. Prostitution is an exchange of money for sexual services. There was never any evidence of prostitution on my phone, only escorting." Getting banned from the U.S. isn’t just bad for his career — he shoots a significant portion of his adult film project in the country — but has also damaged his personal life. "I was planning on building a life in the United States with my [future] husband, with my partner, who's American," Miles said. When asked by LGBTQ Nation what advice he would give other queer travelers, he said, "Avoid the United States at all costs. It’s not worth it. It’s not worth it to put your life at risk."

Even if he were a prostitute, the government should have no right to do this to any sex worker.

They targeted him because he was queer & a sex worker & a man of color (& he is a sex worker, since some people in the notes seem confused: doing porn / "adult films" is sex work, escorting in sex work, stripping is sex work, etc. these are just different types.)

The link above to the organization Maggie's goes to a fact sheet they made specifically for sex workers traveling to the US for this exact reason (just a few pages from the whole thing:

IF I AM QUESTIONED AND SENT BACK, WHAT HAPPENS NEXT? Most likely you will be banned from entering the US for a minimum of 5 years. If you travel in the US before the ban is over, you will be charged with a federal crime. After the ban, you may or may not be subject to questioning again. Remember that legally you cannot enter the US within 10 years of working as a sex worker.