ââŚYeah. Murderâs still not the wave for me. I can write about it. I can understand the theory of it. In a defense way. But the enjoyment of it? The whole âthrillâ of it allâŚâ Dominic shook his head. âNope, not for me.â It also didnât help that when Dominic had to actually do so, end the life of another being - the reaction to do it was natural. Picking up a gun in self defense and eliminating any threats was done thoughtlessly. Just like his father taught him. It was that fact that honestly scared Dominic. âŚPlus, when he took out the vampire threatening his other best friend. It was the demented thread of⌠quiet happiness⌠that was still uncomfortable. So, no. Murder was not the wave for Dominic. Nor did he want it to be. âAs for this whole lavish thing⌠Yeaaah.â He dragged out the word. âI donât know how many lifetimes itâs gonna take for me to get use to that. I mean, yes, Iâve traveled but not counting my Christmas/New Years trip in London? Iâve always gone on the governmentâs dime and I donât know if you know but America is cheap as hell.â He replied with a chuckle. Dom shrugged. âAlright, so whatâs relaxing to you?â He asked Gigi. âAnd youâre something else is a compliment. I promise.â He replied, placing a hand on his chest as he smiled down at her.
Another shrug rotated his shoulders. âI donât know how to really explain it? I mean, Iâve never had a girlfriend just up and whisk my ass away to Paris. And you know I like traveling. Itâs a nice surprise and-â Dominic shrugged again. ââŚI donât know.â He uttered, his voice low. âYou think that youâre not showing me that you care. But you do. You are. I know you worry about our thing âcause we each have our separate thing with Luna butâŚâ He trailed off. âOur thing is quiet. Like building a campfire, you know? It doesnât have to be all big and loud and in a hurry. Weâre still learning each other. Weâre simmering right now. Weâll get to the big ass bonfire soon. I know it. But Iâm good with the lil campfire we got. âCause for somebody who says she doesnât know how to do feelings⌠youâre not doing too bad with me, alright?â
A low chuckle left him. âSo⌠did that help, my explanation?â He asked, reaching out to tuck a stray hair behind Gigiâs ear. âAye.â He gently chided. âI donât care if we donât make sense to other people. Do we make sense to you? Do you want us to be for real? Thatâs all I need to know. I already said that weâre working out the rest. I donât want you acting with me. Havenât you done enough of that? Donât you want to just be you, all the time, with me?â He rolled his eyes. âIâm a grown ass man. Pretty sure that I have a good idea of what Iâm getting into with wanting to be with you. For real.â He paused, a reminder tickling the back of his brain. ââŚWe donât have to be together just âcause weâre dating Luna, you know that right? If you donât want to date me, Iâll respect it.â Dominic shifted topics. âAnd as for my edibles? âŚIâm an only child and a foodie. You want some of my snacks, you gotta ask. Or at least put cash where the food was, if you ate all of it. Or Cashapp or Venmo me or something.â He laughed, the noise coming from deep in his chest at the memories of calling Gigi âFrostyâ. Heâd forgotten all about that. âOh, câmon! You know you were cold as fuck to me when we met! You know thatâs how you got that name. I didnât know that past me hurt your feelings like that. Iâm sorry.â Dominic apologized, meaning it regardless of the amused expression he sported. He did not expect Gigi to pull that memory out. âIf it makes you feel better, I havenât called you that in years. I think I stopped as soon as you warmed up to me too.â He shook his head at her assessment. ââŚIâm still human. I have more chances of getting sick than you do. Not gonna lie, it sucked that you just⌠flaked. Real talk, would you have done the same thing if Luna was sick?â He asked curious as they continued on their way to start the surprise birthday trip to Paris.Â
âThatâs cool?â Gigi said with a small shrug. âIf it helps, itâs not so much the thrill of it that does it for me? And I mean technically speaking, itâs less of an enjoyment, so much as a fascination? Itâs hard to explain. But, I guess itâs the moment when youâre watching someoneâs life fade out of their eyes? In those last few moments, people seem to go through all of these emotions. Fear, anger, pain, bargaining, hope? And then itâs just gone. All the pleas and the worries and the joy. The empathy? It just vanishes and it feels like that person was never really there to begin with. Itâs hypnotizing and perplexing. And I guess a part of me always wondered what would happen if I actually did it? I held off from killing for so long and, so I wondered, if it came down to it, would those emotional pleas make me pause? Would they register with me or make me feel whatever youâre suppose to feel for each other? But, it didnât. Each time Iâve done it, itâs felt no different than... than stepping on an ant? I mean itâs more of an adrenaline rush than stepping on an ant for sure, but when the adrenaline subsides, youâre suddenly back to feeling, well, for the most part, numb and, before you know it, you start to crave the rush once more because at least itâs something other than nothing? Thatâs why Iâm interested in death and murder and all that. That and the fact that splattered blood is very cinematic,â Gigi attempted to explain. âTrue. But, I mean whatâs the difference from going on the governmentâs dime and mine? Other than how mine is clearly a step above?â She asked curiously. âAnd hmm... spas? Massages, fancy food, being waited on hand and foot, gigantic stuffed animals, an excessive amount of pillows, and oh! Music or classic movies. Those too,â She mused. âWhat about you? Whatâs relaxing to you? And oh. Okay,â She said with a small nod and a hint of a smile.
âAs long as you think itâs nice,â Gigi said, accepting his explanation without a second thought. âItâs not that we both have our separate things with Luna as much as how I donât really know how to do quiet? Iâm loud and excessive and in a hurry as a person and very, very impatient. So, this all very new? I guess?â
âA little bit, yeah?â Gigi said with a small nod. âAnd no. Not really,â She answered honestly when Dom asked if they made sense to her. They were as different as different could be and, if Luna had never existed, she had high doubts that they would have become a thing. âBut, that doesnât mean I donât want for us to be?â She admitted with a soft smile. âAnd I guess? But, I also think thatâs a part of me. I say what people want to hear to get what I want. I donât even know that Iâm doing it half the time. Itâs just second nature by now. If someone doesnât like how abrasive I am, I stop being abrasive around them. Then they donât get mad or leave. But, Iâm working on it. And okay,â She let out a little laugh at his words. âIf youâre sure, then weâre all good. And I know that. I just didnât know if you knew that,â Gigi said, hoping her train of thought meant as much sense out loud as it did in her head. She knew they didnât all just have to date, because they both liked Luna and Gigi wouldnât be hanging out with Dom if she didnât want to. She just sometimes felt like Dom expected her to be more like Luna than she was or ever would be. âOh! Wait- youâre telling me that I whisk you around the world, but if I want an edible I have to pay you? Wow! I see how this relationship works now. And so? Iâm a sociopath! Iâm literally the definition of selfish and unwilling to compromise. Being an only child is not an excuse,â Gigi let out a laugh, shaking her head as she looked over at him.Â
âOh, I know. And Iâm still cold as fuck, thank you very much. But, you didnât hurt my feelings? I donât even know if my feelings are really the ones you can hurt? So, no need to apologize. I just assumed I was still the Ice Queen is all, but I guess not? And only partially. But, oh... Sorry?â Gigi didnât know her keeping her distance when Dom was sick would bother him this much. âI didnât mean to flake. I just didnât see how I was needed in the situation? But, real talk, yeah I would. Why would it being Luna have anything to do with it? I like you, Dom. Just as much as I do with Lu. Itâs why Iâm trying not to be so overly âmeâ to fuck this up, but taking care of someone? Nursing them back to health when they have a fever? That isnât me. Thatâs Lu. And I know you donât want me to act around you, but I donât know how to be me and be sympathetic and mean it? If I was sick, not that I ever get sick, but if I was Iâd want you both to call a doctor for me and then leave me be. Why would I subject you to an illness when a Doctor is much more equipped to helping me? Thatâs how my brain thinks. Calling a doctor and not leaving you for dead is me caring, which I know is âcoldâ and âinsensitiveâ and âfucked upâ and probably a hundred other rather rude adjectives, but I guess I donât know how to be nurturing, unless itâs pretend that is?â