ghostedmemory

Here's where you can find everything of mine! I'll be updating this sporadically as I add more things :D

here's my ao3: ghostedmemory. because i have been cursed with the fic writers disease despite constantly drowning in work for university. there's too much MHA on there, some Spider-man, and like two fics from another fandom rn. I might add more, who knows.

Avengers Com Lines Masterpost Thank you to papayafromtv for the inspiration behind this series lmfao. I'll be posting through this sporadically, considering i AM in fact a uni student, but I really do need to get my thoughts out and these are fun to make :D I'll be tagging these ones with #avengers com lines if you don't want to go through the masterpost MCU Incorrect Quotes Masterpost here is where i am putting all of the incorrect quotes for the mcu fandom, which will be updated mainly whenever i remember to do it, which won't be very often if im being fully honest with myself. anyway. i will tag everything with #mcu incorrect quotes if u want to search for them rather than scroll through the master list! i want to try and write more of these but we shall see how they go

Nat: why is Bucky pouting? it's not a flattering look on you. what happened to the murderous gaze?

Bucky: fuck you.

Sam: he's sad that Peter isn't here.

Tony: i'm not!

Nat: ...what?

Sam: last time Peter was here we were given a story time on sleep-deprived Tony, and got to listen to him swear at Steve, right after threatening that he'd tell his teacher that "Captain America made him stare through a window for seven hours" if he failed his Spanish test again.

Tony: he passed, by the way.

Sam: man, i really wanted that video.

Clint: Peter knows how to swear? he's like, twelve. why are we allowing children to swear?

Tony: he's sixteen.

Bucky: WHAT.

Tony: ...there's absolutely no way you guys actually thought i'd let a twelve year old fight out here. come on now.

Bucky: Sam, did you know he was sixteen?

Sam: of course i did. we text, like, every day, Buck. of course i know how old he is.

Tony: you two what now?

Sam: aw, are you jealous, old man?

Nat: he absolutely is. look at him, he's got tears in his eyes. he - *chuckles* Tony, you need to get a grip.

Tony: *sniffs* i'm not crying.

Clint: we're all forgetting the real questions here, guys. Sam, what the fuck do you talk to Peter about on a daily basis? surely you two don't have THAT much in common?

Sam: he accidentally sent me a meme at four am of- *abrupt laughter* of fuckin', Steve, and i don't know if y'all know this but i DO plan on using this to the best of my knowledge. but Steve's- *wheeze* Steve did these PSA things for high schools, and he sent me a meme clearly meant for Ned or MJ that just said: "So, you got detention."

Tony: *amused as fuck* oh, i know exactly what you're talking about, and I have every single PSA that he's done.

Clint: Tony, i have a suggestion.

Tony: ...oh dear god.

Nat: the last time Clint had a suggestion, the two of us ended up in Ethiopia. we started off in Massachusetts.

Clint: IT'S GOOD I SWEAR! we should like. *wheeze* we should do a movie night, and just play those. every single one of them.

Tony: ...i'll let the kids tag along. MJ will fill so many pages of that sketchbook of hers.

Sam: Peter might kill you. he's seen so many of those it might very well be the reason he's so short with Steve all the time.

Tony: no, Steve ate the last of his cereal once and Peter has never let him forget it. BUT if i put Pete on video duty he'll come. i might have to bribe him first, but he'll be there.

Clint: ...are we doing it?

Tony: nobody make plans for this weekend. FRIDAY, block off a movie night for this weekend on the Avengers Calendar - also, text Pete and let him know whats going on.

*two minutes pass*

FRIDAY: Boss, Peter wants you to know that: "Steve is a punk-ass bitch for making those PSA's but Ned, MJ and I will absolutely be there if only to see the face of the most patriotic man in America slowly and surely lose the will to live while debating if he can get away with homocide."

Tony: mother fucker-

Steve: LANGUAGE.

Sam: ooooh Tony said a bad language word!

Tony: for gods sake-

Bucky: and now he's using the Lords name in vain! how will we ever recover?

Steve: how about we focus for a change. stop distracting everyone on the com lines.

Tony: we are literally on a stake out. i could be doing so many more important things right now. there is not a damn soul getting distracted here, Steve.

Peter: i have homework, Mr Rogers. if i fail Spanish again i will be looking my teacher dead in the eyes and telling her that i failed because Captain America made me look through a window for seven hours.

Tony: *wheeze* Peter, you can't- *wheezes harder*

Sam: *cackling* oh i would pay to be a fly on that wall.

Peter: don't worry, i'll film it for you. MJ will want the references for her art book anyway.

Sam: oh, hell yes!

Steve: no names on patrol!

Peter: fuck off, Mr Rogers, nobody can hear us anyway.

Bucky: *laughing, slowly getting louder*

Tony: PETER- *breaks off into abrupt laughter*

Sam: *while laughing hysterically* Peter said a bad language word, Steve! get him!

Steve: ...Spider-Man, we've talked about this.

Peter: and i don't listen to anyone other than Aunt May and Pepper. and sometimes MJ.

Tony: hey! what about me?

Peter: you walked into a wall and asked FRIDAY to knock it down yesterday, Mr Stark. forgive me for losing respect for you.

Sam: *is literally crying laughing*

Tony: now hold on-

Bucky: *wheeze* Peter, kid, i'm begging you for a little more context.

Peter: no, like- *wheeze* okay so, he clearly hadn't slept for days at this point - he was paler than a Victorian child, since he'd been in the lab for about a week at this point - and he- *wheezes harder* he just waltzes out of the lab, grinning, looking drunk off his ass-

Steve: ...language.

Tony: i did not-

Peter: both of you shut up - anyway, he's looking drunk as fuck, and he just- *laughs abruptly* he just walked face first into the wall, and then just said "FRIDAY, get rid of that wall for me. it's in my fucking way" and then he just. fell over. i had to carry him to bed.

Tony: that's how i got there?

Sam: oh. my god. Peter, how many stories about Tony do you have?

Peter: so many.

Bucky: i need to be on stakeouts with you more often.

Steve: no, you don't.

Bucky: you're such a loser, Stevie.

*five minutes of silence pass*

Peter: hey, Mr Rogers?

Steve: what now, Spider-Man?

Peter: one, that was rude. two, i think the guy you've been making us watch just jumped off the roof.

Tony: WHAT?

Sam: huh?

Bucky: what now?

Steve: Shit!

Peter: Mr Rogers said a bad language word, Mr Stark!

He loves being able to throw himself into fights - all starting with the thrill of pulling pranks at school and just getting bolder and bolder with it. It could’ve been because it was attention seeking, it could’ve been any number of reasons that I could easily tie to his childhood if it wasn’t one in the morning and I hadn’t spent the last five hours trying to write an essay

It gets worse during the war. Now he has purpose, something meaningful to actually fight for. And when he gets the information that James and Lily have been murdered by Volde-tort that shit skyrockets - he chases after Peter, cackling when Peter gets away with it somehow….

And then he’s in Azkaban. And then there’s nothing for him to do for years and years - the real, human guards barely show their faces, and dementors do not understand spoken language - or humanoid language at all. There’s nothing.

And then he escapes, and that thrill he gets of not being caught is back tenfold. And the cycle repeats. Not getting caught. Being stuck in his childhood home. Calling Harry and almost getting caught. Being stuck. Breaking out to help Harry

The title, you may ask (I know you haven't) is Calling Me Royalty, and - ghost, isnt this about his relationship with his Mother? yes, yes it is. it makes sense, i swear.

It's starting in high school, where we spend a few chapters going through Arc One, how his high school years began to form his own world views, how he navigated forming his own world views and political ideals, etc etc, without his mother interferring, and then the consequences of doing so in her home/around her. We get to go through how the views he was raised with shaped his high school years, too, and how those views and things that shaped him to his core in a way he never got rid of moulded the way he made and kept friends, and for what reasons.

Then we get to the war, after being disowned, an adult out in the wild fighting the people his mother quietly supported, and yet we really get to see just how powerful he is, and still we are able to explore how his mother truly shaped him, how her teachings still aided her even when Sirius was of the belief (publically, but I'll get to that) that she was a terrible, unforgiving human being.

And then he goes to Azkaban, because Peter - little, weak, unassuming, loyal to a fault Peter - tricked him (and wasn't that shocking?), and he spends years there, keeping himself sane by not thinking of her, not thinking of his friends, turning into Padfoot. And Izzie and I will be ignoring the fact that she dies, for this, and she saves him. And he's thankful, and that love only a child who experienced comes back, and yet, he knows why. She wants something.

And Thus, this is where Calling Me Royalty comes in, even though its a song title: She needs him for his reputation, the one he gained pre-azkaban, and one that he can easily get back with her help. She wants to dismantle the government, to run it how she wanted it to be run from the beginning - but she was a woman in Elite Pureblood Society, and her husband was a powerful man, and there was no way she was able to make the changes she wanted herself - and she was going to use Sirius to get it.

Of course, she let Sirius have what he wanted - he was doing her a favour, after all, making these charges, taking care of whom she wanted him to. She would help him get Harry Potter's custody. Her way of saying Thank you, even if she would never say it.

And then, duh, the horcruxes, because without Walburga dying, without Kreacher being alone in the house with only her portrait, he doesn't go as insane, so we're going to have them figure out Regulus' sacrifice sooner through the locker, but I Digress.

Peter 'Survivor's Guilt' Parker meeting Matthew 'Catholic Guilt' Murdock at any age is so interesting. There are so many parallels in their stories, so many reactions and aspects of their characters that coincide with one another that could either lead to massive consequences if they arise at the same time, together, or could create something both beautiful and chaotic if the situation allows.

I think Peter would look at Daredevil and think he was overly violent, and begrudgingly admit that...he has a point. He's seen how the system fails people, he tries to save as many people as he can, and knows that some people cannot be saved. He knows that some people are beyond jail, are beyond changing their behaviours - but he's so young. What is he supposed to do?

And then he meets Matt Murdock, and thinks this man is everything he wants to embody - a lawyer who works for the good of the people, who is consistently taking pro-bono cases to help his community, just to see it thrive that little bit more.

And when he realises they're the same person? It would thrwo him for a loop, for sure, but it also would instantly make so much sense.

Peter has enhanced senses. He could see when Matt clenched his jaw a little too tight when someone started talking big, acting shady. He could see the way Matt would tilt his head, as if he were listening for things that could not be heard - though, if Peter tried hard enough, he could probably hear it too.

So when Matt realises that Spider-man is the teenage Peter Parker, and Peter has figured out his own identity without even being told, he's freaked out, and a little worried, and so, so angry at the world for pushing Peter to this point, where he thought the only way he could help was to put his life on the line night after night.

And Peter understands - because, although he doesn't show it (he has a persona, damnit, and he's gonna stick to it), he is so angry at the world - for taking everything from him, for forcing him into this position where the only way to quiet his mind was to go swinging from buildings, soaring hundreds of feet in the air across buildings, getting shot at on a regular basis.

They'd come to a kinship, I think. It would probably take a while - both so Matt could get over the whole Peter Parker Is In Fact A Teenager thing, and for Peter to realise that while he doesn't have to condone violence, that doesn't mean it can't be the answer - but they would get there, and they would work well together.