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"She felt very young; at the same time unspeakably aged." — Virginia Woolf

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currently playing...

blooming crown — idid 0:56 ────◍──────── 3:03

up next...

moonstruck — enhypen

cherish (my love) — illit

wassup — young miko

split — maggie lindemann

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currently... 📚 reading whatever makes me cry 🎧 building the perfect playlist 🌧️ waiting for rainy days ✏️ filling notebooks faster than i finish them ☁️ probably thinking about jungwon

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about me

🌷 gray 📖 minor 🎨 writer & artist 🥋 third-degree black belt in taekwondo 🌙 infp 💌 bisexual

i collect books, playlists, pretty stationery, tiny moments, and things that make ordinary days feel a little softer.

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favorites

📚 turtles all the way down, anne of green gables, six of crows, the cruel prince, looking for alaska, percy jackson

📺 friendly rivalry, arcane, star wars, avatar: the last airbender, anne with an e, the fragrant flower blooms with dignity, pretty cure

🎧 idid, enhypen, illit, cortis, måneskin, chase atlantic, maggie lindemann, lana del ray

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things you'll probably find here...

✿ books

✿ music

✿ marching band

✿ poetry

✿ photography

✿ late-night thoughts

✿ sketches

✿ tiny collections

✿ pinterest finds

✿ life lately

✿ verses that comfort me

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"Let all that you do be done in love." — 1 Corinthians 16:14

i hope this blog feels like finding a forgotten bookmark in your favorite book.

decided to give my cat attention to help cope

that fucker bit me

“Act like a lady. 

Sit up straight. 

Watch your tone.

Never step out of line. 

Stay silent.

Cross your legs.

Never deny a man. 

Stay thin, but don’t be skin and bones.

Make yourself look put together, don’t look like you’re trying too hard. 

Be responsible.

Never fail. 

Be everything.

Never take up space.

Keep your keys between your fingers.

Raise your children. 

Never protect your own life because a fetus is more important.

If you don’t want a baby don’t have sex.

You didn’t want the baby?

Well why didn’t you keep your legs closed. 

I bet you enjoyed it. 

What were you wearing? 

You were asking for it. 

You should’ve known better.

No, we’re not going to convict him. 

He has such a bright future, he’s an important part of society. 

No, you’re not allowed to have an abortion. 

It’s your fault you got raped. 

You shouldn’t have been walking alone. 

Why are you so angry? 

Men are innocent, you can’t reprimand us. 

You women are crazy, control yourselves. 

Women are so emotional, must be that time of the month.

Go back to the kitchen.

Raise your child.

Stop complaining.

It’s your own fault.

Shut your mouth.

Open wide when I say.

Stop crying.

Women are so useless. 

They’re only mothers, whores, or nuns, as a powerful man once said. 

Their worth is based off of their devotion and submission to me, whether they can give me pleasure. 

Women are like children. 

They are stupid and useless.

Give me pleasure, give me offspring, and maybe I won’t give you that black eye.

Don’t fight back or I might make it harder. 

You’re a slut.

You asked for this.

Stop fighting back.

You don’t deserve the rights you fight for.”

bro I got back from marching band and I about died from the heat

Idk who to tell this to so I figured I'd post about it.

For about 6 months I've been questioning my religion. I've been going back and forth between christian, agnostic, and atheist and I was so confused. I felt hated by christians for being bi (or possibly lesbian idk rn) but I felt confused by agnostism and atheism so it's been a rollercoaster. I've avoided all talk about religion because it triggers those thoughts severely (I have religious OCD if that wasn't clear enough)

Well, I was scrolling on Pinterest today and when I tell you I had like 6 videos popping up, all telling me to come back to God and that he's not mad at me and I started bawling like a baby because I felt God and it's like I've stopped questioning and I know this is what I believe. I believe I'm a Christian who loves women and feminism and love and kindness and whimsy and art and gentleness. <3 XX