âpairing â suguru geto x reader!
âsummary â I saw you laughing in one of his pictures
But you'll be the one with his ring on your finger
There's red and green everywhere, but l'm so blue
Cindy Lou Who
âwarnings â nsfw, friends to lovers, jealousy, angst, fluff, smut, touching, MDNI
a/n â this is the longest fic I have ever written I swear. I did not think it would be this long but I certainly got in my feels as I related with the reader. Hopefully you'll stick until the end and read it, I really hope that you enjoy this long fic I honestly put so much into this so, I hope you enjoy!! đ€đ°(I got to admit I have a soft spot for geto) I was gonna make it a part 2 but it wouldn't make sense honestly.
The room buzzed with quiet chatter, the hum of conversation floating softly around the group. You sat there smiling, fainting as you always did, content to be near himâ Suguru with his effortless charisma and mysterious persona seemed to always brighten the gloomiest days. He was leaning against the chair with his arms crossed, calm and collected as effort. But then his voice cut through the room, soft but yet so clear that it stopped every sound in the room.
âWe're engagedâ Suguru announced, his tone soft and his smile uncharacteristically tender.
The words hung in the air for a moment before anyone reacted. Shoko was the first to recover, her sharp whistle breaking the silence. âFinally!â she exclaimed, grinning with excitement.
Saturo clapped Suguru on the back, his laugh loud and infection. âAbout time man. Congratulations!â
Nanami nodded, offering a polite âCongratulationsâ, while Haibara beamed with happiness as his usual self ,excitement brimming with every word.
You didn't move. You didn't blink.
The word echoed in your head, bouncing around in the hollow space where your heart had been just moments before. It was a strange feeling, this heavy emptiness, like the floor had been ripped out from beneath you, yet you were somehow still sitting there, rooted to your seat.
Your hands tightened around the edge of your chair, knuckles going white as the smile on your face stayed frozen, the one you always wore when you looked at himâSuguru, who could never see what youâd been hiding all these years.
Of course, you knew about her. Of course, you knew theyâd been together. You told yourself you were happy for him, that youâd cheer him on from the sidelines like the good friend you were supposed to be. But the word engaged made it real in a way you hadnât prepared for.
âY/Nâ Shokoâs voice dragged you out of your spiral thoughts. You realized everyone was looking at you, waiting for your reaction.
You forced your lips to move, pulling them into something resembling a smile. "Thatâs... amazing news," you managed, your voice sounding foreign even to your own ears. "Congratulations, Suguru. Iâm happy for you."
You didnât even know if he noticed the slight tremor in your voice. You hoped he didnât.
Suguruâs gaze met yours, and for a moment, you saw the gratitude in his eyes, the warmth of someone who thought you were genuinely celebrating with him. It hurt worse than you expected.
The conversation shifted after that, the others diving into questions about wedding plans and dates. You stayed quiet, nodding along and laughing when it felt appropriate, but your mind was elsewhere.
Years. Youâd spent years loving him, dreaming of a moment that would never come. And now you realized that the tiny, flickering hope youâd buried deep inside you had finally been extinguished.
You excused yourself before the first tear could fall, muttering something about needing air. As you stepped outside, the cold evening breeze hit you like a slap, and the tears youâd been holding back spilled over, hot and bitter.
Theyâd said love was beautiful, but all you felt was the ache of something unspoken, the weight of what could have been, and the sting of words that could never be unsaid.
In the cold night, the snowflakes slowly fall like a weeping willow. In that moment of grief, your tears could only dry down as the cold air buries them as if they were never meant to be seen. You look out into the dark night on the balcony as mountains surround your tiny frame , Switzerland surely was a sight indeed.
To think that you once dreamed of having an all-white wedding with Suguru here, in the same place where your story together had quietly begun. The memory slipped into your mind like a cold breeze, subtle and uninvited, piercing itself together from fragments of the past. You were so young when your families first came here, deciding on a joint holiday in the picturesque Swiss Alps.
Even then, as a child, your heart skipped a beat at the sight of Suguru. His shy smile and the way his dark hair stuck out from beneath his knitted hat warmed something inside you, even in the biting cold. That trip had marked the start of what you thought might someday become more a quiet connection that belonged to the two of you.
Over the years, it became a tradition. This snowy haven turned into a cherished secret getaway, first for your families, and then, as you all grew older, for your tight-knit group of friends. The memories blurred together: late nights sitting by the roaring fireplace, voices overlapping as the six of you shared dreams for the future. You and Suguru would always sneak off to steal the last pack of marshmallows, giggling like children as you toasted them over the fire and talked about things that felt too fragile to share with anyone else dreams, hopes, and love.
In those stolen moments, you allowed yourself to dream of his love. You pictured what it might feel like to have him look at you the way he looked at the snowflakes falling softly against the window, with quiet wonder. You dared to imagine a future where you were more than just friends, a future where this place, this beautiful, snow-covered haven, could host an all-white wedding with you and Suguru at the center of it all.
But that dream had shattered the moment he met Cindy. She wasnât just a passing crush or a fleeting romanceâshe was everything he had chosen, everything he had committed himself to. The warmth you once felt in his presence now left an ache, a reminder of all that could have been but never would be.
And now, as you stood here again in Switzerland, surrounded by the same breathtaking views that once held so much promise, the memories were sharper than ever. It was no longer just a place of dreams but a place where the reality of loss lingered in the air, mingling with the scent of pine and snow.
Your sudden nostalgic memories were interrupted by the creaking sound from the door behind,you slowly turned around.
He stood there, slowly his usual relaxed self approached you, softly the heels of his favorite Wyatt Jodhpur boots clicked against the wooden floor. The only sound that could be heard was the door closing behind him, not a word was spoken between the two of you and finally he reached your fragile figure.
The silence was the only thing that held the atmosphere in place.
âIt's cold outside, what are you doing here?â, he took off his coat to cover your figure. As if the words just woken you upon a dream you had, you tugged it against your flaying skin. Seemingly you forgot about your earlier meltdown,and for some reason the dark night was hiding your tear stained cheeks.
âThe sky looked beautiful, couldn't miss the opportunityâ you exhaled softly,like a secret only to hear by the sky itself.
Not once have you dared to look into his eyes, for you knew it would only stir the motions further. You smiled softly as you reached out to catch a few snowflakes, Suguru could only smile at your playful nature.
âAre you going to the Christmas Market Wednesday?â you asked.
A sigh escaped him as his fingers rubbed his temples. âAh yes I almost forgot, I still need to pick up Cindy from the airportâ
The name hung in the air like a bittersweet melody, a reminder of what might have been. She was the woman who had unwittingly stolen the future you had once dared to dream of, a future that now felt as fragile as glass.
âI understand Suguru, you don't have to apologizeâ a response so dimly that only at night could hear you cry.
You slowly got up from your crouching position and for the first time your eyes met. For a moment it felt like the melancholy of a storm-laden sky, looking into his eyes and they reminded you of the deepest earth crust that no one could understand, but sadly you were reminded that only you were an admirer.
âI'm sorry but I need to go to my room, it's been oneâŠ.-â slowly you were searching for your words, something that wouldn't give it away. âOne memorable nightâ you smiled up at him.
His smile reached yours, as you tried to mimic his actions. Finally your words cut through.
âI'm so happy for you and Cindy, Suguru. I only wish for the best, for both of youâ.
Before Suguru could utter a word you were through the door, leaving him in a timid state of unawareness. You had to leave, you had to get away from him, for he didn't know the way he held you so captive like a bird in a cage,that never saw the day in light. As you walked your way out of the restaurant, you bumped into Shoko.
Her eyes widened slightly as she took in your expression. Shoko had always been perceptive, and tonight was no different.
"Hey," she said softly, her voice carrying concern. "You okay?"
You forced a smile, one that didnât quite reach your eyes. "Yeah, just tired. Long night, you know."
Shoko tilted her head, clearly not convinced but wise enough not to push further. "If you need anything, you know where to find me."
You nodded, offering a quiet, "Thanks, Shoko," before brushing past her and stepping into the cold night air.
The walk back to your room felt endless, each step weighed down by the ache in your chest. Memories of Suguru's smile, his laughter, and the way his eyes used to light up when he looked at you played in your mind like a cruel montage. And now, all of that was meant for someone else. Cindy.
Finally, you reached your door, fumbling with the key as your vision blurred with unshed tears. Once inside, you let the facade crumble. The weight of the night hit you all at once, and you collapsed onto your bed, burying your face in your hands.
The sobs came in waves, raw and unrelenting. You cried for what was, for what could have been, and for the pieces of your heart youâd so willingly given to someone who could never see you the same way.
Between the tears, you whispered into the silence, "I just wanted him to choose me... just once."
But the only answer was the stillness of the night, a cold reminder that some stories arenât meant to end in love.
The chalet buzzed with excitement as everyone prepared for their outing to the Christmas market. The morning sunlight filtered through the frosted windows, casting a golden glow over the snow-covered peaks. You busied yourself with adjusting your scarf, focusing on the small task to keep your thoughts from wandering.
âAre we all ready?â Shoko called out, her voice cutting through the chatter.
âJust waiting on Haibara, as usual,â Nanami replied, sipping from his steaming coffee mug.
You smiled faintly at the banter, grateful for the distraction. This trip was supposed to be about making memories, about enjoying the company of your closest friends. But as much as you tried to focus on that, a nagging feeling stirred in your chest an ache youâd tried to ignore since last night.
The others finally gathered, bundled up in thick coats and gloves, and you all piled into a couple of cars for the short drive down to the village. The road wound through snowy forests, the trees heavy with frost, their branches forming an archway over the path.
By the time you reached the market, the quaint streets were already alive with the hum of holiday cheer. Wooden stalls lined the cobblestone paths, their roofs dusted with snow. The air smelled of roasted chestnuts, spiced cider, and freshly baked pastries.
âAlright,â Gojo said, clapping his gloved hands together. âLetâs split up and meet back here in an hour. Everyone, try not to buy something completely useless.â
The group laughed, and you found yourself relaxing just a bit. But as you turned to follow Shoko toward one of the stalls, a familiar voice cut through the festive noise.
You froze, the smile slipping from your face. Cindyâs voice.
Turning slowly, you saw themâSuguru and Cindy walking toward the group. Suguruâs arm was slung casually over her shoulders, her hand resting on his chest as they leaned into each other. Cindy looked radiant in a cream-colored coat, her hair falling in soft waves around her face. She laughed at something Suguru said, the sound warm and light, and he smiled down at her with an ease that felt like a knife twisting in your chest.
You hadnât expected her to arrive so early. Youâd thought you had more time to prepare yourself, to steal your emotions before being forced to face them. But there she was, as if plucked from the pages of some perfect holiday romance, looking every bit the part of Suguruâs fiancĂ©e.
âHey, sorry weâre late!â Cindy said, her voice bubbly as she greeted the group. She gave you a quick hug, her perfume lingering even after she pulled away. âSuguru thought itâd be nice to come early and surprise everyone.â
You forced a polite smile, though your heart felt heavy. âItâs nice to see you, Cindy.â
She beamed. âYou too! Isnât this place magical? Suguru was just telling me about how you all used to come here as kids. Itâs so sweet.â
Her words hit harder than you expected, a reminder of the memories you shared with Suguru that now seemed to belong to someone else.
As the group began to move through the market, you found yourself trailing behind, your gaze occasionally drifting to Suguru and Cindy. They were inseparable, holding hands, sharing whispers, laughing together. At one point, Suguru adjusted Cindyâs scarf with a tenderness that made your stomach twist.
âHey.â Shokoâs voice pulled you from your thoughts. She had fallen back to walk beside you, her sharp eyes studying your face. âYou okay?â
You nodded quickly, not trusting yourself to speak.
She sighed, slipping her arm through yours as the two of you wandered toward a stall selling handmade ornaments. âYou donât have to pretend with me, you know.â
âIâm fine,â you murmured, though you didnât believe it.
Shoko didnât press further, but her presence was a comfort nonetheless. As the morning went on, you tried to focus on the market: the glittering lights, the cheerful music, the scent of holiday treats. But no matter how hard you tried, your gaze kept drifting back to Suguru and Cindy, and the realization settled in your chest like a weight: this trip wasnât going to be as simple as you had hoped.
You told yourself it was time to let go, but the ache in your chest wouldnât subside.
âShoko, I'll be back in a bitâ, before she could protest you turned into a quieter part of the market, drawn to a small stall tucked away in the corner. The vibrant hues of oil paintings caught her eye landscapes of snowy peaks, quiet villages, and vivid sunsets.
âYou have a good eye,â a low, smooth voice said.
You turned, startled, and found yourself face-to-face with a man who could have stepped out of one of the paintings himself. His dark coat was tailored to perfection, his scarf loosely draped over his shoulders. His eyes, a deep, piercing shade, were focused on her with quiet curiosity.
âOh, I was just looking,â you said, your voice soft as you turned your gaze back to the painting in front of you.
âAnd now youâre being modest,â he replied with a small smile, stepping beside you. âThat oneâs my favorite too. The way the light plays off the snow itâs tricky to capture that feeling.â
Your eyes widened slightly. âYou painted these?â
âI did.â His smile grew, a touch of pride glinting in his eyes. âMy nameâs Shui. Iâve been exhibiting in Europe for a while now. And you?â
You hesitated. âIâm just... here with friends. Weâre visiting for Christmas.â
âWell, whoever your friends are, theyâre lucky to have you. You seem to notice details most people overlook,â he said, his voice gentle, as though the words were meant only for you.
The compliment caught you off guard, and you felt a blush creep into your cheeks. âIâm not sure about that.â
Shui tilted his head, studying you like a puzzle he couldnât quite solve. âTell me, what brought you here? To this part of the market?â
You hesitated. The truth felt too heavy to admit to a stranger. Instead, you shrugged. âI guess I wanted to get away from the noise. This place feels... quieter.â
He nodded knowingly. âQuiet is good. It lets you see things more clearly. Like this.â He gestured toward the painting you had been admiring. âThat piece was inspired by a winter I spent alone in the Alps. Sometimes solitude brings clarity.â
You looked at him then, really looked at him. There was something grounding about his presence, a quiet strength that made you feel like you didnât have to pretend.
âYou sound like youâve figured things out,â you said softly.
âNot entirely,â he admitted with a small laugh. âBut Iâve learned that the right people and moments come when you least expect them.â
The words hung in the air between the both of you, heavy with meaning. For the first time in days, the weight on your heart felt a little lighter.
Shuiâs smile returned, warmer now. âIf youâre not in a rush, Iâd love to show you a gallery nearby. Theyâre exhibiting some of my larger works. Call it an artistâs shameless self-promotion.â
You hesitated, glancing back toward the bustling part of the market where your friends were. But the thought of facing Suguru and Cindy again made your heart sink. âI think Iâd like that.â
âGood.â Shui extended his arm. âShall we?â
You looped your arm through his, and together, you both walked into the snowy morning , leaving the noise of the market behind. For the first time in a long time, you felt like you were stepping into something new, something that didnât revolve around Suguru.
Over the next few days, Shui kept appearing inviting you over for coffee, joining you for a quiet walk in the snow. His presence helped you feel seen in a way you haven't before, igniting a sense of independence and hope.
The ice rink shimmered under the warm glow of fairy lights strung above, their golden light reflecting off the smooth, frozen surface. Laughter and the soft sounds of skates gliding over ice filled the air. You found yourself gripping Shui's arm tightly as you wobbled on the blades, trying not to fall for the third time that evening.
âEasy there,â Shui said, chuckling. His hand steadied you, resting gently on your waist. âYouâre not bad at this; you just need a little confidence.â
You laughed softly, feeling the tips of your ears burn from both the cold and his touch. âYouâre just being nice. Iâm pretty sure Iâm a danger to everyone on this rink.â
âYouâre doing great,â he insisted, flashing you a warm smile that made your heart skip.
Unbeknownst to you, Suguru stood at the edge of the rink, leaning against the wooden railing. His dark eyes followed your every movement, the cigarette between his fingers forgotten as it burned down to ash. Each laugh you shared with Shui, every time you leaned into him for support, sent an unfamiliar pang through his chest.
âWhatâs with the long face?â Shoko appeared beside him, her wine glass still half-full, her sharp gaze cutting straight through him.
âIâm fine,â Suguru muttered, his tone clipped. He exhaled slowly, the smoky patterns of his breath mixing with the cold air.
Shoko raised an eyebrow, unconvinced. She followed his gaze, landing on you and Shui spinning awkwardly on the ice, laughing like children. âThey look good together, donât they?â
Suguruâs jaw tightened, and he looked away. âI guess.â
Shoko smirked, taking a sip of her wine. âYou guess? You donât sound too thrilled about it.â
He frowned, the irritation in his chest growing. âWhy would I care? She can do whatever she wants.â
Shoko tilted her head, studying him like a puzzle. âYou know, for someone who doesnât care, youâve been staring at her all night.â
His silence betrayed him, and Shokoâs smirk deepened. She leaned in closer, her voice lowering. âYou know what your problem is, Suguru? Youâve spent so long convincing yourself you donât feel anything for her that you actually started to believe it. But seeing her with someone else? Thatâs not jealousy, is it?â She paused, letting the words sink in. âItâs regret.â
Suguruâs chest tightened, her words hitting harder than he wanted to admit. He didnât answer, couldnât answer.
Shoko straightened, brushing imaginary dust off her coat. âFigure it out, Suguru. Before itâs too late.â With that, she walked off, leaving him standing there, his thoughts swirling as heavily as the snow falling around him.
Later during the night, the rink cleared out a bit as the group reconvened, some of them sitting by the edge with hot chocolate while others skated lazily around. Cindy was chatting animatedly with Haibara, completely unaware of Suguruâs distracted state.
You had just stepped off the rink to fix your skates when Suguru appeared beside you, his hands shoved deep into his coat pockets. His presence caught you off guard.
âYouâre getting better out there,â he said, his voice softer than usual.
You looked up at him, surprised. âThanks. Shuiâs been helping a lot.â
At the mention of Shui, Suguruâs jaw tightened, though he forced a small smile. âYou seem... happy.â
You blinked, unsure of what to say. âI guess I am. Itâs been nice.â
He nodded, glancing down at the ice. There was a tension in the air, a silence that felt heavier than it should. Finally, he spoke again. âCan we talk? Just for a second.â
The sincerity in his tone caught you off guard. You nodded, following him a few steps away from the group.
âWhatâs on your mind?â you asked, your breath visible in the cold air.
He hesitated, his dark eyes searching yours as though trying to find the right words. âI just... I wanted to say Iâve noticed how different youâve been lately. With him.â
You blinked. âWith Shui?â
He nodded, his gaze dropping to the ground. âYeah. Itâs... good. You deserve to be happy.â
The words felt forced, and you could hear the strain in his voice. Before you could respond, he stepped closer, his warmth cutting through the cold air between you.
âButâŠâ He stopped, his breath hitching. âItâs hard to see you with someone else.â
Your heart pounded in your chest, his words hanging heavy in the air. You couldnât move, couldnât speak, as he leaned in slightly, his gaze. His words hung in the air knowingly, as he moved a bit closer,the space so small closing in as your breathing, became much more rigid.
Frustration? Guilt? No. This was entirely different. This was pure, unfiltered anger.
For years, you had swallowed your feelings, buried them deep beneath the surface where they couldnât hurt youâor him. You had watched him love someone else, choose someone else, while you stayed silent, convincing yourself it was better this way. And now, just when youâd started to heal, just when youâd found someone who made you feel seen and whole again, here he was. And for what? To pull you back into the storm youâd barely survived?
Your hand moved before your mind could catch up, the sharp sound of the slap cutting through the cold air. Suguruâs head turned slightly from the impact, his dark hair falling into his face. He didnât flinch, didnât even raise a hand to stop you.
âHow dare you,â you said, your voice trembling with emotion. âHow dare you make me feel like this. After all these years after ignoring me, after choosing herâyou think you can just show up and ruin the one thing thatâs finally made me happy?â
Suguru turned back to face you, his cheek reddened but his expression unreadable. His dark eyes, however, betrayed him. There was something thereâsomething raw and vulnerable that you didnât want to see.
âI never meant to hurt you,â he said quietly.
âThen stop,â you snapped, your voice rising. âStop doing this. Stop making me feel like Iâm losing my mind. You donât get to do this to me, Suguru. Not now.â
He stepped closer, and you instinctively took a step back, but he reached out, his hand brushing against yours. âI didnât realize,â he started, his voice breaking slightly, âhow much I was losing until I saw you with him.â
âThatâs not my fault,â you said, your voice shaking with anger and hurt. âYou donât get to want me now just because youâre scared of losing me. You made your choice, Suguru. You chose Cindy. And I chose to move on. For fucks sake you're engaged Suguru!âThe last sentence cut through him like a blade,almost as if he forgot.
His grip on your wrist tightenedânot enough to hurt, but enough to stop you from walking away. âI was scared,â he admitted, his voice barely above a whisper. âI thought I could ignore it, that it was just in my head. But it wasnât. Itâs never been in my head, and now itâs too late, isnât it?â
You opened your mouth to respond, to throw another fiery remark at him, but before you could, his lips crashed against yours.
The kiss was desperate, almost feverish, like he was trying to say everything he couldnât put into words. You froze, every part of you screaming to push him away, but for a momentâjust one moment you let yourself feel it. His hands moved to your waist, pulling you closer, and it was as though the entire world disappeared.
Reality snapped back like a whip. You shoved him away, your breath ragged as you stared at him in disbelief. âWhat the hell is wrong with you?â you hissed, your hand trembling as you wiped your lips.
Suguru's lips parted, his dark eyes filled with regret and something elseâsomething you didn't want to name.
"Iâ" he started, but the words caught in his throat.
Before either of you could say anything else, a voice cut through the icy tension, slicing it in two.
"Whatâs going on here?"
You froze, your blood running cold as you turned toward the sound. Cindy stood a few feet away, her arms crossed tightly over her chest, her gaze shifting between you and Suguru. Her eyes narrowed, her usually soft features hardening into something unrecognizable.
Suguru immediately straightened, his expression unreadable as he turned to face her. âCindy,â he said, his voice unnaturally calm.
âDonât âCindyâ me,â she snapped, stepping closer. âI saw it. I saw you kiss her.â
Your heart plummeted to your stomach, panic rising like a tidal wave. âItâs not what you thinkââ
âOh, spare me,â Cindy cut you off, her voice sharp enough to draw blood. Her gaze locked on Suguru, her voice shaking with anger. âHow long has this been going on? Was this some kind of sick joke between the two of you?â
âItâs not like that,â Suguru said quickly, his voice firm but tinged with desperation. âIt just... happened.â
ââIt just happenedâ?â Cindy echoed, her voice rising. âAre you kidding me, Suguru? Weâre engaged! Or did that just âhappenâ too?â
The group, drawn by the commotion, began to gather nearby. Shoko was the first to approach, her sharp eyes darting between the three of you as she pieced together the scene.
âWhatâs going on?â Shoko asked, her voice steady but laced with concern.
Cindy turned to her, her voice cracking. âWhatâs going on is that I just caught my fiancĂ© kissing her.â
The words hung in the air, heavy and suffocating. You wanted to disappear, to run and never look back. Instead, you stood frozen, your gaze fixed on the ground as everyoneâs eyes turned toward you.
âCindy,â Suguru said again, stepping toward her. âI know how this looks, butââ
âDonât,â she interrupted, her voice breaking. Tears filled her eyes, but she blinked them away, refusing to let them fall. âI trusted you. I believed in us. And thisâthis is what you do?â
For a moment, Suguru looked utterly lost, his calm facade shattered. âI didnât mean to hurt you,â he said quietly.
âBut you did,â Cindy shot back, her voice trembling. âAnd the worst part? You didnât even think about me. About us. Not for a second.â
She turned on her heel, walking away before anyone could stop her. The group stood in stunned silence, the festive air of the rink now heavy with tension. Your brimming eyes caught Shui, and your heart broke at the sight.
Shoko was the first to move, stepping closer to you. âAre you okay?â she asked softly.
You shook your head, unable to speak. Your gaze flickered to Suguru, who stood there, his shoulders slumped as he watched Cindyâs retreating figure.
âI should go,â you whispered, your voice barely audible.
Shoko nodded, her hand resting lightly on your arm. âIâll come with you.â
As the two of you walked away, you could feel Suguruâs eyes on your back, the weight of his gaze like a physical pull. But you didnât look back. You couldnât. Not this time.
The amount of days that has passed and the amount of guilt that surrounded your heart was unbearable. Your eyes swollen from all the tears you've spilled these past few days,are now stained through a soaking wet pillow.
Your mind drifted. The pain in your chest could never compare to the heartbreak she might be feeling now, the weight of guilt still clung to you like a heavy cloak, threatening to drown in despair. You never wanted to be the other woman, never in a million years have you thought of yourself that way,but yet here you are.
A knock was heard from your cosy Swiss Chalet. It was nearly sevenâin the morning, who could be here so early?
With a deep sigh, you pushed yourself out of bed and made your way to the door. Opening the door widely, there she stood.
Cindy as perfect as ever, with her long black hair and red lips. The way she looked at you you couldn't tell if it was pure anger or if she felt sorry for you. The silence was erupted, softy by her sweet tone, âMay I come in?â.
You nodded as, you opened the door widely for her to enter. The clack of her heels and long brown coat made her look so elegantly, you couldn't help but admire her.
You both seated, in the living room. Not one of you uttering a word so far.
âCindy.. I-â you interrupted.
âI always knew he loved youâ, she whispered as her eyes caught yours. The confession made your heart swell for a moment but yet break for her.
ââ...he always found reasons to be near you,â Cindy finished softly, her voice cracking just slightly. She looked down at her hands, fidgeting with the gold bracelet on her wrist, and you could see the weight of her words pressing down on her.
You swallowed hard, guilt surging through you like a tidal wave. âCindy, I⊠I didnât mean for any of this to happen. I neverââ
She raised a hand to stop you. âPlease, donât. Iâm not here to point fingers or assign blame. Iâve had weeks to process this, and⊠Iâve come to terms with it.â Her red lips curved into a faint, bittersweet smile. âSuguru and I⊠we werenât meant to be. I see that now.â
Her words stung more than you expected. You knew she was right; there was no denying the unspoken connection between you and Suguru. But the last thing you ever wanted was to hurt Cindy.
âI broke off the engagement,â she continued, her tone steady but void of the anger you half-expected. âWeâve decided to go our separate ways. Itâs for the best.â
âIâm so sorry, Cindy.â Your voice was barely a whisper. âIf I could go back, Iâdââ
âDonât,â she said again, her gaze sharp but not unkind. âWhatâs done is done. Suguru⊠he loves you. He always has. I justââ She took a deep breath, as if steadying herself. âI just hope youâll take care of him. Thatâs all I ask.â
You nodded, tears threatening to spill as you reached out to touch her hand. âI promise.â
Cindy stood then, her heels clicking softly against the wooden floor. She adjusted her coat and gave you one last look, her expression unreadable. âGoodbye,â she said simply, and then she was gone, leaving behind a whirlwind of emotions.
The door had barely closed behind her when you felt a presence behind you. Turning, you saw Shui standing in the hallway, arms crossed, his face clouded with a mixture of hurt and confusion.
âShuiâŠâ you began, guilt tightening your chest. âI didnât know you were here.â
He scoffed, shaking his head. âYou didnât need to. I saw everything.â
You stepped closer, desperation creeping into your voice. âIâm sorry, Shui. I never meant for you to get caught up in all of this.â
He exhaled heavily, running a hand through his hair. âYou donât have to apologize to me. But you shouldâve been honestâwith Cindy, with Suguru, and with yourself. This didnât have to end like this.â
âI know,â you said quietly, your voice barely audible. âI know I messed up. Iâll fix it, I promise.â
Shui studied you for a long moment before nodding slightly, his expression softening just a fraction. âJust⊠donât let Cindyâs sacrifice be for nothing,â he said before walking away, leaving you alone with the crushing weight of everything that had happened.
You sat down on the couch, the silence of the room pressing in around you. Cindyâs words echoed in your mind, and for the first time, you allowed yourself to fully acknowledge the truth: you had to make things right, not just for Suguru, but for everyone who had been hurt in the process. And this time, you wouldnât let them down.
Finally, it was Christmas morning. Suguru busied himself with last-minute touches, his hands steady as he arranged the garlands around the hearth. The soft hum of laughter and chatter filled the room as friends gathered near the twinkling Christmas tree, their faces lit with joy. Despite the warmth and festive air, Suguru's thoughts were elsewhere, swirling with unease and anticipation.
âSuguru,â Gojoâs unmistakable voice broke through his focus. Suguru turned, only to find his friend wearing a knowing grin. âStop pretending youâre not looking for someone,â Gojo teased, clapping a hand on his shoulder.
Suguru opened his mouth to retort, but then his breath hitched. There you were, standing by the doorway, wrapped in a soft sweater and scarf, snowflakes still melting in your hair. The world seemed to still as his gaze locked onto yours for the first time in weeks. A flood of emotions, relief, longing, and something deeper rushed through him as your lips curved into a tentative smile.
âHey,â you said softly, stepping further into the room.
âHey,â he replied, his voice barely above a whisper.
The morning unfolded in a whirlwind of torn wrapping paper, shared laughter, and playful banter. But Suguruâs focus never strayed far from you. When it was his turn, he reached under the tree and pulled out a small, carefully wrapped package, his hands trembling slightly as he handed it to you.
âThis is for you,â he murmured, his dark eyes watching your reaction intently.
You blinked, surprised, before carefully unwrapping the gift. Inside was a delicate necklace a simple gold chain with a tiny charm shaped like a star. It sparkled faintly under the warm glow of the Christmas lights.
âIt reminded me of you,â he admitted, his voice low. âYouâve always been the brightest thing in my life.â
Your heart clenched at his words, and for a moment, you forgot everyone else in the room. âSuguru⊠itâs perfect. Thank you.â
As the day slipped into evening and the snowstorm outside intensified, the group gradually dispersed, leaving you and Suguru alone by the fireplace. The flames crackled softly, casting flickering shadows on the walls. Wrapped in a shared blanket, you both sat close, the warmth of the fire chasing away the chill in the air.
âI missed this,â Suguru said, breaking the comfortable silence. He glanced at you, his gaze tender. âUs. Talking. Laughing. Just⊠being.â
âI missed it too,â you admitted, resting your head on his shoulder. âI missed you.â
The hours stretched as you reminisce about old memoriesâlate-night adventures, inside jokes, and moments of unspoken connection. The weight of the weeks apart seemed to dissolve with every shared smile, every stolen glance.
At some point, the conversation lulled, and Suguru tilted his head to look at you. His hand reached up, brushing a stray strand of hair from your face. âYouâre beautiful,â he whispered, his voice thick with emotion.
Before you could respond, his lips met yours. The kiss was slow at first, soft and exploratory, but quickly deepened as weeks of longing poured into the moment. Your fingers tangled in his hair, pulling him closer as the firelight danced around you.
âSuguru,â you breathed against his lips, your voice trembling with both desire and uncertainty.
âCome with me,â he murmured, his eyes dark with intent. He stood, pulling you to your feet, and without a second thought, the two of you slipped away into the stormy night.
His room was dimly lit, the faint glow of the snowstorm filtering through the curtains. The air was thick with unspoken words as he guided you inside, his hands warm and steady against yours.
Your skin was greeted by the soft kisses of his lips. There was no worries, no longer the wait that you have spent years on waiting for this man. Finally he had you all to himself.
Your heart pounded as his hands came into contact with your satin shirt. His kisses didn't fail once as the goosebumps seem to appear on your skin. A lowly chuckle could be heard from him as his hands made their way to your breasts only to squeeze them together.
Slowly the remaining clothes you both wore were on the floor. You laid there naked, on this very day just for him. Your voluptuous body made it hard for him to breathe in this now hot room. His now dark eyes ranked over your figure,imagining all the dirty things he can do to you.
Slowly his hands explored your now naked thighs,squeezing the soft flesh. A moan treated to escape your now red lips.
âThe way, I used to imagine this, fuckâ, his thick voice now clouded with lust. He pulled your now burning body, close the edge of the bed only to get down on your knees.
Never in your dreams have you thought this would happen. Suguru Geto down on his knees for you. His tongues darted out as he finally reached your waters, a low groan escaped his throat just enough to wake your core. The taste of you on his tongue was like heaven itself, a lustful man like himself has finally tasted the meal he most surely has been craving for the longest time
âOh my-...â the muffled moans that were drawn from your pretty mouth, and your now arched figure was something he could now control. His tongue interned your now tight hole, with this action your hands flung to his long luscious locks.
âSuguru, oh my goshâ, a smirk invaded Suguruâs lips as he finally looked at your face. His one finger slipped in without permission, he slowly pumped the digest, driving you to ecstasy.
âSo damn wet, can you hear yourself?â the question came out vaguely as he chuckled,proud of himself was an understatement. He made a mission for you to hear the sounds that escaped your now wet core.
âSuguru, please⊠â you moaned louder as he started to go faster,and started licking your clit.
âOh - Oh-Oh my.. fuckâ your hands gripped onto him for dear life as you felt that familiar feeling creeping.
âDid you sleep with him?â What stupid questions was this man asking you? , while you were on the verge of coming. A loud slap could be heard as his one hand came into contact with the soft flesh of your thigh along with a sudden gasp from you.
âAnswer me, I asked you a questionâ, his tone low and demanding as your eyes made contact with him.
âNoâŠ. I didn'tâ the words finally came out in a low cry.
âGood because you, belong to meâ he murmured softly to you.
With his fingers so deep in you, his kisses made their way to your breasts only to sucked on your now sensitive nipples. Your breasts bounced slightly the faster his fingers went.His kisses finally reached your ear only to whisper the dirtiest secrets to you.
âCum for me babyâhis voice haled, and just like that he made you feel true ecstasy. His name rolled off your lips as he continued his ministries,until he rode out your orgasm.
The soft rhythm of your breathing filled the quiet space, and Suguruâs dark eyes roamed your face, searching for any hint of hesitation or concern. For the first time, you could truly see himânot just the man in front of you, but the intensity and passion that had always burned beneath the surface. It was overwhelming, almost too much, yet it felt right.
His lips found yours again, slow and deliberate, as though he had all the time in the world. His kiss carried a tenderness that made your heart flutter, and your hands instinctively cupped his cheek. A smile tugged at your lips as you remembered slapping him not long ago. The irony wasnât lost on either of you.
His deep voice broke the moment, pulling a laugh from you. âAt least I know my girlâs got a mean slap,â he teased, his grin devilish.
âYou deserved it,â you shot back, your voice softer but still firm. âFor everything you put me through.â
He didnât deny it. Instead, his smile deepened, an unspoken acknowledgment that your words were true.
When he kissed you again, it was different. The slow tenderness gave way to something rougher, more urgent. His hands framed your waist as he lowered himself, his body fitting perfectly against yours. The warmth of him, the weight, the unspoken promiseâit was enough to make your heart race.
Suguru hesitated, his movements slowing as his dark eyes met yours. He knew your boundaries, understood the reverence you held for yourself and your body. It hadnât been years for him, but he knew it had been for youâsince before you left high school, since the last boyfriend you had allowed close. That thought only made him more careful, more determined to handle you with care.
He pressed his lips to yours once more, a silent reassurance. His touch was reverent, patient, yet full of the fire that only Suguru could bring. He was readyâbut only if you were, too.
Your eyes met for the slightest moment before his member stretched you out softly. A low moan could be heard from you as you wrapped your thighs around his hips.
âFuck, you feel goodâ he mumbled against your skin kissing your colrboneâsucking on the soft spot to ease the unfamiliar feeling. Slowly he started to pump his member in and out of you stretching, your now tight woman hood just for him.
Your moans didn't go unnoticed by his actions ,as started sucking onto your right nipple.
âYou feel that baby?â he asked you as you looked at him. A simple nod and moan slip your mouth.
âFuckâ he cursed underneath his breath. Without a word, you were on your stomach only for him to lift you slowly, pulling your hair slightly as he slid into you again.
âOh my fuck, Suguruâ this position made everything much more pleasant.
A loud slap was heard for the second time that night against your ass, a sign of dominance. You cried out loudly, the stinging feeling bringing a whole new sensation.
âMine, all mine. It's like you were for meâ he repeated his words as you felt his member twitch inside you. You couldnât help but squeeze around him, only making him hiss at the pleasure.
âCome on baby, I'm close. Fuckâ he gave you one last smack as he let go of your hair.
âSuguru I'm closeâ he hummed at your response and he started going faster and faster. Your second orgasm was finally approaching for the night,the tingling feeling starting to swell up in your core as you felt the way Suguru hit that one spot over and over again.
Finally you came along with him,the feeling of him filling your core with such ease, didn't go unnoticed. Your trembling figure laid out before him, as Suguru milked his way out, making sure none of his seeds go to waste.
The exhausted sound which came from him as he collapsed on top of your now, wet body.
Silence was all that could be heard as you lay beneath him, the storm outside a faint whisper against the windows. Suguruâs warm breath fanned against your skin, and for a moment, neither of you moved, both lost in the intensity of what had just unfolded.
Then, with a tenderness that made your heart ache, he gathered you against him, pulling you into his arms so you rested against his chest. His fingers traced lazy circles along your back, grounding you in the moment as you both basked in the quiet intimacy.
âYouâre incredible,â he murmured, his voice soft and full of awe. âI never thought this would happen⊠that Iâd have you like this.â
You tilted your head to look up at him, a small smile tugging at your lips. âI guess Christmas miracles do exist.â
He chuckled, the deep, rich sound vibrating against your ear. âIf youâre my miracle, then I mustâve been really good this year.â
The two of you fell into a comfortable silence again, the weight of unspoken emotions finally lifting. Suguruâs hand moved to brush a strand of hair from your face, his touch so gentle it sent shivers down your spine.
âDo you regret it?â he asked suddenly, his tone hesitant, as though he feared your answer.
You shook your head, pressing a soft kiss to his chest. âNot for a second. Iâve wanted thisâwanted youâfor so long, Suguru.â
His arms tightened around you, as though he couldnât bear to let you go. âIâll spend the rest of my life making sure you never regret it,â he promised, his voice thick with emotion.
âYou already have,â you whispered, your voice catching as your heart swelled with love.
The storm outside seemed to ease, the wind quieting as if nature itself was giving you this moment of peace. Suguru leaned down, pressing a lingering kiss to your forehead, his lips warm and reassuring.
âYouâre everything to me,â he said softly, his dark eyes searching yours. âI want to build a life with you. Whatever happens, I want you by my side.â
Tears pricked at your eyes, but they were happy ones. âIâm not going anywhere, Suguru. This is exactly where Iâm meant to be.â
He smiled, a rare, unguarded expression that made him look almost boyish. âGood. Because I donât think Iâd survive losing you again.â
Nestled together, you both drifted into lighthearted conversationâtalking about future plans, inside jokes, and everything in between. Suguru shared stories about his childhood, his dreams, and even the little things he loved about you that heâd never had the courage to say before.
By the time the storm completely passed, dawn was beginning to creep through the curtains, bathing the room in a soft, golden glow. Suguruâs arms tightened around you one last time as you both lay there, utterly content.
âChristmas will never be the same again,â he said, his voice laced with affection.
âNo,â you agreed, pressing a final kiss to his lips. âItâll be better.â
And as the morning light filled the room, you knew that this was just the beginning of a lifetime of happiness with Suguru by your side.
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a/n â just a reminder I was tired when I wrote the smut part, so there was less passion in my opinion . My writing usually has so much passion in the especially in those scenes I dislike it so much when I write smuts so vaguely :') I'll make sure to make it better when I do the rest of the ingredients for Fruitcake !! đ°