Bealucræft Bestiary

🌓⚔️The Bestiary

Gilles / Monet / Ambrose / Jersey / Hamond / Zombat

but there is something much deeper that I can't access. I can feel switches happening, I can feel my mind resetting, and I have 0 idea who is switching with who. Usually, it doesn't feel like my bodily control is switching, but my mental state/stress/memories are 100% being changed out.

There is very might a "higher function" (personality, hobby, response to stress) system within me, but there is also a "lower function" that I have 0 idea how to feel out. The memory holing, the compartmentalization, things that feel like software resets. I can feel memories slipping from me, I can feel my mind and thought processes changing in real time. I have no idea how to "identify" that. That whole function. What is going on there. What is happening. I mean, I know what's happening, but how do I begin to meet them?

I hear a lot of people talk about communication and coxing parts out but like.... I can only "talk" to other parts if we're under immense stress. I can not approach this lower function and befriend them.

Anyone else deal with this? Are there like... clinical names for this that I can look up?

not that anyone has outright been mean about it, but the way this community functions online just really favors that narrative and I simply will never fit into it, not for a long while.

jersey and monet were separate all along. yay for two women.

tiefling maker

me, gilles, ambrose.

made these. gilles looks like shit. ambrose is.... okay. i am best.

we have few appearances in headspace. not much solid. really only..... vibes. but i have always liked picrew.