but there is something much deeper that I can't access. I can feel switches happening, I can feel my mind resetting, and I have 0 idea who is switching with who. Usually, it doesn't feel like my bodily control is switching, but my mental state/stress/memories are 100% being changed out.

There is very might a "higher function" (personality, hobby, response to stress) system within me, but there is also a "lower function" that I have 0 idea how to feel out. The memory holing, the compartmentalization, things that feel like software resets. I can feel memories slipping from me, I can feel my mind and thought processes changing in real time. I have no idea how to "identify" that. That whole function. What is going on there. What is happening. I mean, I know what's happening, but how do I begin to meet them?

I hear a lot of people talk about communication and coxing parts out but like.... I can only "talk" to other parts if we're under immense stress. I can not approach this lower function and befriend them.

Anyone else deal with this? Are there like... clinical names for this that I can look up?

Monet comes out for a few things: To be a bitch, to be hungry, to masturbate and have sex, to deal with headaches and every other type of pain, and to age regress. I love her very much, but we do offload a lot onto her LMFAO.

Ambrose: (out loud, to partner) I love you (amongst other, more charged comments and thoughts) Gilles: (joking) Who let Monet out? Monet: Have you ever considered that I am not the only one who cares for our girlfriend. 

Ambrose: (holding a glass bottle in lap, between thighs) This feels like a dick. Hell yeah.  Monet: Oh my god.  Gilles: He's the one with the penis.  Ambrose: ?????  Gilles: The phantom penis. That we've had since 2017. It's yours.  Monet: We finally found the phantom penis. 

Gilles: I can not believe all of the suave butch jock fantasies came from Ambrose. I thought those were completely gone.  Monet: I can't say I'm mad, he's a lot more fun than you. But we'll have to keep an eye on the flirting.  Gilles: Do you not like the academic butch vibes?? I thought this was good. Monet: We haven't had sex appeal since 2023 because of you.   Ambrose: Am I About To Watch A Domestic. 

Gilles: And on the website, we can have a breakdown of the past two systems and show how the three of us have evolved into who we are today. Because I am clearly Pinnacle > G + Strahd > Gilles and then Monet is potentially Zombat > Bug (and maybe Mimz) > Monet. And- Ambrose: I have so much work to do. Do not start a project right now.  Gilles: Well I'm just thinking about it Ambrose: Well stop it. Not yet. 

Monet: (driving, pissed off) I am so fucking hungry right now.  Ambrose: Monet. Babygirl. Do you need me to drive.  Monet: No. Let me do this.  Monet: (pops a curb) Gilles: (metaphorical side eye to Ambrose)  Monet: Okay find. You can drive. 

There was a lot more that we can't really remember, but these were the ones that really stuck out or made us laugh. 

Monet and I have never really spoken much like this. It's always been very vague and hard to word. But with the appearance (or perhaps reappearance) of Ambrose, discernable conversation has really spiked. I didn't really think that there was anyone but Monet and I in here. But I guess I was wrong. I do think that the three of us are just more healthy/evolved versions of Pinnacle, Zombat, and Rodney, the three parts that we uncovered upon initial syscovery. That would translate well to G, Bug, and Sun in the terrarium, and then Gilles, Monet, and Ambrose right now. Of course, the terrarium also had Strahd, Mimz, and Craw.