touch starved reader finally getting physical contact from cassie
i’ll be 22 in september and i haven’t been in a relationship since i was 19 so i’m very touch starved lol. i think about both me cassie being touch starved a lot 😔</3
imagine starting off platonic, and cassie comforting you after a hard shift. she’s not used to physical contact either—with the exception of harrison—so she needs it just as bad as you ૮◞ ‸ ◟ ა cassie pulling you aside after you’re off the clock, just talking to you about her day which eventually makes you feel comfortable enough to vent. it ends in you doing your best to fight back tears. it hurts cassie’s heart to see you in pain like this. with sad, emphatic puppy eyes, she tilts her head at you (like how she did to my good friend victoria javadi in that one scene iykyk). then she pulls you in a hug, taking you by surprise and even cassie. you’re stiff at first, but quickly melt into her touch and reciprocate her embrace. your whole body radiates with warmth and comfort as cassie holds you, gently scratching her nails on your back. it’s in that moment that you start crushing on her.
going forward, cassie will find any excuse to touch you. when she passes you a tool, her touch lingers longer than necessary. she’ll purposefully pass behind you just so she can place a hand on the small of your back or so her hands can ghost your waist. cassie knows she probably looks like a fool, she sure feels like one, but she starts to high-five you after successful procedures. she gets second hand embarrassment from her own actions, but she loves the way your face lights up every time. she can’t pass up a chance to get to feel your hand on hers, sometimes squeezing it adoringly.
she finally gets the courage to ask you out after a patient asks her out. cassie politely declined, though she was disgusted by the thought. it was then that she realized she could only see herself being with intimate with someone she truly liked, and that someone was you, your name never leaving her mind. you accepted happily of course, already smitten. leading up to your first date, cassie touches you more intentionally. she’ll linger way longer than necessary when your fingers brush. she squeezes your arm affectionately more often than before. once, when you were charting, cassie gave you a completely unprompted shoulder massage. her small touches made you more giddy than you already were, and she absolutely loved it.
when you finally kiss for the first time, it’s so soft and tender and full of love— even if you guys haven’t said it to each other yet. as your relationship blossoms, you both grow very physically affectionate. at work you’ll sneak subtle touches and will act all coupley when you get a moment alone.
one day you’re in the break room, pouring yourself your second cup of coffee. you hear the door open, but don’t check to see who it is since you’re making sure not to spill. as you’re putting the pot back, you suddenly feel arms snaking around your stomach, startling you. you’re met with cassie’s grounding touch and the familiar woodsy vanilla scent of her, mixed with antiseptic from the hospital. she presses a kiss to your shoulder, and your hands find hers, covering them. her hold on you is tight yet tender. affectionately, she nuzzles her head into the crook of your neck, her face and nose tickling you. you giggle as cassie smothers you with kisses from behind. but then the door swings open…
dana walks in, followed by trinity. you and cassie jump apart right away, trying to save face. no one at work knows you’re dating. it’s something you both would prefer to keep private, especially because it’s a fresh relationship and you’re coworkers. dana smirks, an amused grin spreading across trinity’s face as she crosses her arms.
“hello, there,” dana greets, her boston accent adding some intentional sass to her tone.
“hi,” you reply, immediately turning to the abandoned mug of coffee you poured for yourself before cassie came in.
“hey,” cassie says, then pressing her lips together into a thin smile as she nervously straightens out her scrubs top.
“i just came to grab a monster,” trinity tells you and cassie as she strides over to the fridge.
“and i’m just here for a cup of joe,” dana says, walking over to where you’re standing by the coffee machine.
you step aside, the ceramic mug in hand, so dana can pour herself a cup. “me too,” you say before taking a sip of the warm, brown, much needed caffeinated liquid.
“mm,” dana hums in response as she grabs a mug from a cabinet. the room is silent now, making you a little uneasy.
“see ya later,” trinity tells you all after she grabs a monster energy drink, breaking the silence and walking to the door. “and by the way…” she says, spinning around on her heels before she leaves the break room, “you guys make a hot couple by the way. it’s always fun when one of you comes in with a badly covered hickey you think isn’t noticeable!”
you nearly choke on your coffee at trinity’s words, the way she says it so casual. cassie’s eyes widen and her face flushes. like she’s drawn to you, she unconsciously takes a step closer to you. dana finishes pouring her cup of coffee, the tan mug full to the brim. she brings it to her lips and takes a sip, then looking at you and cassie with a smile toying on her face.
“i’ll see you two lovebirds later,” dana says with a wink. she then turns around to exit the break room. as she opens the door, without looking back, she shouts, “as you were!”
mortified, you turn to cassie. she has that same shell-shocked look on her face. “oh my god,” you whisper, stepping closer to cassie. she does the same, closing the distance. “that-that was…”
“weird?” cassie finishes for you, a small smile meant to reassure you appearing. you wrap your arms around cassie’s waist while she brings hers up to your neck. she wraps one arm around you, and the other finds the back of your head, using her fingers to gently massage the top of your neck. “predictable?” cassie adds.
“unsurprisingly surprising? very fucking annoying?”
you chuckle and nod. “all of the above.” cassie kisses you then, just a quick peck. when she pulls away, you drop your head to her shoulder, your grip on her waist tight. habitually, cassie slowly sways side to side, soothingly rubbing your back as she does. she presses a doting kiss on the top of your head, work on the back burner of your minds’. it’s just you two right now.
thinking about how important it is to have physical contact during sex 🥺😵💫 cassie loves to have her hands on you, her body flush against yours. she makes sure every part of you feels love and always holds you close— even when she’s fucking you until you’re dizzy and spent. afterwards, cassie keeps her sweaty body in contact with yours. there hasn’t been a single time where you don’t cuddle after sex. you lay on top of her or vise versa. you’ll drape a leg over her and rest your head on her chest. one of your favorites is spooning. usually, cassie is the big spoon, but you switch it up (she won’t admit it but she secretly loves being the little spoon). sometimes you’ll face each other on your sides, your arms wrapped around one another and your head dipped down onto cassie’s chest, or she will rest her head on your shoulder. cassie loves it when you put your head on her soft belly, she’ll run her fingers through your hair and admire your side profile. she’s big on snuggling… specifically you.
as you grow together, physical affection becomes a constant in your relationship. you’re not used to being touched so much, but now it feels wrong without it. at home cassie’s always holding you in some way. in public she always has contact with you in some way. a hand on the small of your back. her arm around your waist. her fingers laced with yours. a hand on your thigh when you’re sitting. before you, cassie absolutely loathed pda, but now she finds herself guilty of it every now and then. it’s not her fault she can’t resist touching you, kissing you, caressing you, and holding you! she can’t resist you period. ♡