Now that I finally get a chance to seat myself after helping with dinner and doing an assortment of other things I get to
Bare with me!! Or don't, I don't care, I just want to ramble about how much I love my partners and how gay I feel nearly every second of every day and how I just wanna smother them in love and make them feel like they're so valued and wanted and cared about and how they light up my world like a lantern lights up the darkest nights and RAGH PLEASE I WANT TO KISS YOU
I love you so much like 🫶
I want to steal some of your writing energy, honestly. I can ramble sure, but usually it's just a incoherent blabbering in my head that I don't usually have energy to write down? Like how the HELL did Lumi write ALL THAT and then proceed to be like, "chat, I'd write more but I'm tired and my brain is exploding" YOU COULD WRITE MORE? ExCUSE ME?
For me, right here, I'll eat that shit UP nomnom it's so good and chewy it's my favorite texture
And the fact that Hawkins has easily written over 10 documents. Sir. Excuse my reference but why do you write like you're running out of time? WRITE DAY AND NIGHT LIKE YOURE RUNNING OUT OF TIME ?? (Hamilton reference..)
How do you guys love my weird stupid ass so much that you put ALL THAT TIME AND EFFORT into writing me novels? I feel like I fall short so often because I burned my writing energy out so bad when I was younger. Obviously I'm getting it back, but compared to YOU GUYS? Help me I feel sick I'm shivering in my timbers
Anyways onto other topics
I've spent so much time with Telly recently and it's so EHEHE little.. wolf prince.. you're so pretty, and I love your voice and your laugh and your humor and I love that your so caring and thoughtful, but now take that love and give it to YOURSELF!!! THATS RIGHT! LOVE YOU, SIR! LOVE YOURSELF BECAUSE YOUR HANDSOME AND BEAUTIFUL AND CUTE AND HOT AND SEXY AND ZIWJEBSBA
Anyways, I love you? Come here and lay in my lap please, lemme snuggle and kiss and love you and and, you're so great :(
Ehe. Zirrrooo don't think I forgot about youu.. I'm not nearly as affectionate with you as I am with the other 3 but I hope that one day I can reach that level with you because you genuinely deserve to be loved, feel loved, have love, etc. Ziro, I love you. I don't say it a lot but know it's true. I respect you, I love you, I want you, you absolutely deserve to be loved and wanted. You are DESERVING!!
If you doubt yourself prepare to be smothered with love (if you're okay with that I don't wanna overwhelm you 👉👈
Just know that you're so very valued. I should actually check on you soon shouldn't I.. hrrm. I'll look into it!
I'm. So gay for you? Please? Even the little bit I got of you last night. I need. More? Give it me please? 😭 (ew I hate these. Tumblr emojis? They look stupid)
Anyways. The little conversation about how you have most of Hermes possessions and how "of course I do! (Have the cape)"
EXCUSE THE FUCK OUTTA ME WHATCHU MEAN OFFF COURSSEEE? You never told me that. You never TOLD ME you got a fricking SUPER HERO CAPE AHAHSH and Tellys fricking jab about me *daydreaming?* (how do you italics here wtf)
Telemachus your shut your face (I hadn't but now I am how could you)
(One song I've definitely daydreamed to with him is Favorite T-shirt. I know he doesn't have tshirt but I don't. Care. Let me be happy and delusional/silly)
I miss your voice but I'm patient and in love with Telly so it's okay I can wait til the next turn comes/SILLY
I find it really funny how you guys all switch, funnier to watch Telly and Hawkins messing around it's silly (it's my turn next/silly/j)
Anyway next words hhm uhm brain. Explode. Writing is such. Such interesting?? Yes
Lumi. Points at you! Grrgrggrr hi I love you
I was watching tik tok and I seen one that made me think of you, maybe I'll go deeper into that later but. EHE. I love you so much you're so pretty and cute and I wanna ruffle your ears gently and cuddle you and love on you but I can't and :(
Let me just be gaaaay..pleaaseeeee
IM BEING BLINDED BY THE SUN RAHHH I just wanna write but I can't seeee :(
Honestly that's. All I got right now?
I love you guysysysys so muchcjcj please know that. I could probably go more actually but I wanna space out to music and think about. How gay and queer I am
