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Is sending your mind back into your body at an earlier age murder because it overwrites the younger you's mind?
I think no. If your past self sets up a bomb to kill your future self, no one would think that was murder even if your past self was pretty sure that your future self would change their mind about it. The interests of your past, present, and future selves aren't perfectly aligned (and there may or may not be total continuity of consciousness) but these selves clearly blur together sufficiently that we can treat them as a single individual, and would classify such an act as suicide, not murder. If so, however you think of overwriting your past self - suicide, nothing special at all (arguably depends on the specific rules of time travel in play) - I don't think you could call that murder either.
I actually think I would call the first scenario murder, or some third thing depending on the context? In our pedestrian reality, the bomb in question would be something the person remembered planting - every day they don't disable it is a day they are consenting to suicide. If we add in magic, and allow for someone to kill their future self without them consenting to it via time portals or memory wipes, that seems substantially different from suicide, right? The dead person had no desire to die.
We never face this scenario in real life, so we have no intuitions for it. But if you think about it for a bit, "choosing to die" is crucial for a suicide. Here is either a murder or maybe something like an accident. Maybe "self-murder" if you want to get creative about it?
And I think this heightens if you reverse time - we accept that time moves linearly and so you are responsible for your own actions. If you take a pill that will somehow kill you in twenty years, yeah I can see how that would be called suicide (even if I lean another way). But with going back in time, your younger self committed no actions! They were completely uninvolved in whatever is going on. The direction of time is load bearing to ethics.
Now admittedly what "sending one's minds back" means is up for debate here - I see versions where that is essentially murder, and versions where it is much more of a "mind meld" kinda deal and doesn't work the bad way. That is all just a separate question, my thoughts are just assuming it is the bad versions for the sake of argument.
The past-timeline presumably doesn't exist in reality until you travel to it, so there isn't a mind there to erase if you jump directly from the present into your old body and thus no murder occurs. Probably!
Inside Mari by Oshimi Shūzō explores this question a little; the premise initially appears to be a straightforward body swap story, but then the protagonist discovers that their former body continues to be inhabited by their original consciousness, raising the question of whether they've murdered the person they've been copied into. I won't spoil it further but it's a fun psychological drama.
at risk of swinging around some cognitohazards, the time traveler is late to the party lol. it already became increasingly untenable to think that any element of "me" has long term persistence and we currently feel that we pass the baton and replace who we were quite often.
the model is like this: elements of "personality" are constantly being loaded in and out of working memory in response to environmental and mental triggers, and also continually being built out through recursive elaboration. there is no particular guarantee that the properties we consider to make up a 'person', like habits, goals, beliefs, affect, memories, ways of thinking and so forth will stick around; everything is constantly getting ship of theseus'd the fuck out of it and evolving on a chaotic course.
this is particularly acute if you have a condition that leaves you with limited working memory such as "adhd", but it seems like it's probably at least a little true of everyone.
like, how do you know you are the 'same person' you were yesterday, or a year ago? well, you are able to retrieve memories (which you assume are mostly true) and look up records (same) and, most importantly, you have a habituated inner self-narrative function that associates the symbol 'I' with those various things: this is my hand, I was there yesterday. it is conventional to interpret that the 'I' that is remembering is the same entity 'I' that wrote the memories, but this is kind of arbitrary: in computers, we take a different stance, and say one 'program' can write a file and 'another' can read it, even though these 'programs' are entirely abstract entities made out of the same instructions operating on the same hardware.
of course, since all these processes are attached to a body it is natural for the current 'me' to pick up where the previous one left off and keep operating the same interface of social roles, ongoing projects etc., but it will not be doing so in the same way yesterday's 'me' was, and the differences could prove to be quite drastic.
under this account, a future time-traveling version of us dropping into our body would amount to dumping a whole flood of procedural, episodic and semantic memory-mechanisms into our brain, perhaps setting up new circuits to process them in different ways; we would generate different 'programs' than we would otherwise and our life would divert down a different course, and our narrative-self-model would be different (we would believe ourselves to be a time traveller). which is to say we'd undergo a pretty major switch.
however, compare other things that change the course of a life: a traumatic event, a profound acid trip, gaining or losing a job, a chance meeting with a partner, the social media eye of sauron: all of that would (more gradually) achieve the same thing, right, as the effects compound? just to a much lesser degree with a stronger chain of 'continuity'.
so it all rather depends on what is preserved. is the future time traveler just a new headmate with knowledge they "shouldn't" have? (not unlike 'fictives' who find themselves subjectively experiencing first-person memories of places their body has never been and things which did not happen, but in this case accurate to some future.) or do they completely wipe your existing memories and leave only the parts of the body outside the brain intact?
(in fact, the experience of a time traveller replacing you with memories, affects, intentions etc. from a past time is something a lot of us will experience: if it happens suddenly and temporarily in response to a trigger it gets called a 'flashback', if it happens due to age it gets called 'dementia'.)
unfortunately this isn't just a fun little thought experiment; so far as suicide we have had to think about this kind of thing quite explicitly to make sense of things that cannot really be understood.
Is sending your mind back into your body at an earlier age murder because it overwrites the younger you's mind?
I think no. If your past self sets up a bomb to kill your future self, no one would think that was murder even if your past self was pretty sure that your future self would change their mind about it. The interests of your past, present, and future selves aren't perfectly aligned (and there may or may not be total continuity of consciousness) but these selves clearly blur together sufficiently that we can treat them as a single individual, and would classify such an act as suicide, not murder. If so, however you think of overwriting your past self - suicide, nothing special at all (arguably depends on the specific rules of time travel in play) - I don't think you could call that murder either.
I actually think I would call the first scenario murder, or some third thing depending on the context? In our pedestrian reality, the bomb in question would be something the person remembered planting - every day they don't disable it is a day they are consenting to suicide. If we add in magic, and allow for someone to kill their future self without them consenting to it via time portals or memory wipes, that seems substantially different from suicide, right? The dead person had no desire to die.
We never face this scenario in real life, so we have no intuitions for it. But if you think about it for a bit, "choosing to die" is crucial for a suicide. Here is either a murder or maybe something like an accident. Maybe "self-murder" if you want to get creative about it?
And I think this heightens if you reverse time - we accept that time moves linearly and so you are responsible for your own actions. If you take a pill that will somehow kill you in twenty years, yeah I can see how that would be called suicide (even if I lean another way). But with going back in time, your younger self committed no actions! They were completely uninvolved in whatever is going on. The direction of time is load bearing to ethics.
Now admittedly what "sending one's minds back" means is up for debate here - I see versions where that is essentially murder, and versions where it is much more of a "mind meld" kinda deal and doesn't work the bad way. That is all just a separate question, my thoughts are just assuming it is the bad versions for the sake of argument.
The past-timeline presumably doesn't exist in reality until you travel to it, so there isn't a mind there to erase if you jump directly from the present into your old body and thus no murder occurs. Probably!
Inside Mari by Oshimi Shūzō explores this question a little; the premise initially appears to be a straightforward body swap story, but then the protagonist discovers that their former body continues to be inhabited by their original consciousness, raising the question of whether they've murdered the person they've been copied into. I won't spoil it further but it's a fun psychological drama.
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