galynnxy

pasensya na po if hanggang ngayon may matinding galit padin po ako sa kanila

wala eh, masakit padin kasi

maybe that's why lalo ata akong minamalas kasi di ako marunong magpatawad sa mga kasalanan nila sakin

idk when that time will come

that I can easily forgive them

pasensya na po ulit kung di ko po magawa

Happy First Anniversary to my first love~

I remember that day before we finally become a couple,

Hinatid mo ako nun hanggang sa office kasi night shift ako nun

Like the usual, before ka umuwi, hinug muna kita dahil mamimiss na naman kita (palagi naman eh)

But the bonus part of it, I gave you a kiss sa cheeks

Nagulat ka pa nga nun eh kasi napaka sudden lang nung action na yun

Although di nga lang yun official first kiss kasi naka face mask tayo nun haha 🤣

But I was just a happy kiddo na may mission accomplished while papasok sa office

Then the night came, during lunch break

It's the usual chat between us, kulitan and kamustahan

Then in the middle of nowhere, you chat me:

"I love you"

which is tinawanan lang kita nun kasi sobrang random mo nun, it's the very first time you dropped those 3 special words sakin, nakakapanibago

Pero yun pala sinasagot mo na pala ako (dahil ako yung nanliligaw lol)

You wanted me to be your girlfriend kasi baka makawala pa ako

and yes, ako din, I wanted you to be my boyfriend

it really really felt surreal that time

di ko maramdaman yung paligid ko na ewan

all I can feel is nothing but happiness because finally, my dreams came true

I'm finally gonna be with the love of my life

pero as much as I want to celebrate that day, epal lang itong nakakapagod at nakaka-stress na work ko, nakakahiya lang din kasi birthday pa man din ng kapatid ko

But despite all of it, that day will be memorable to me...

Sayang lang kasi naalala mo yung plano na dapat pupunta tayo ng Tagaytay to celebrate our first Anniversary? Hanggang panaginip na lang siya eh inaabangan ko talaga tong araw na ito for us but now I'm currently typing this in the middle of the night, just reminiscing the old memories over and over na alam kong di ko na maibabalik no what I do...

Again, over and over again, I am still currently accepting things that happened between us and sa mga bagay na ginawa mo sakin

And again, I'm moving foward leaving all these behind because I know they will bring nothing but pain in me so there's no really use to stay in there anymore

Maybe or maybe not, after ng ilang taon at malilimutan ko din itong araw na to...

At malilimutan ka din ng puso ko...

To my deareast who once become part of me

You're my first, my love, my everything

welp, it's the 29th of the month, the Leap Year, and imma going to dedicate this post about sa taong hinahanap ko...

I've been thinking about this for a very long time and finally, alam ko na kung ano ang gusto ko sa isang lalaki (or so I really thought 😂)

and here's the following checklist na kailangan ma-meet:

kaedad ko or 1-2 years older than me, if mas basta sakin dapat 1 year younger lang than me and kapag mas older, oks na yung hanggang 5 yrs older and wag na sosobra (or depende sa character dahil ayoko naman ng too much matured or gurang na)

Same almost ng body type sakin cuz I’m not really into chubby guys cuz they look like lousy to me

5'4" and above pero oks lang naman sakin if ka-height ko basta ayoko ng mas maliit sakin

Working individual, ayoko ng pabigat pls

May pangarap din sa buhay

Dog type of personality (GOLDEN RETRIEVER PLS), maraming kwento pero di nakaka drain ng energy

Very understandable, mahaba ang pasensya, di nakikisabay sa init ng ulo

A wise person and can emotionally handle me, marunong makinig, hindi sadboi

Open-minded, knows hows to properly argument sa isang topic, hindi atheist

A witty and a wholesome person, hindi KJ (example: ayaw sa KPOP and Taylor Swift ❌)

SMART GUY but not to the point na masyadong genius kasi iba na ang takbo ng utak nun (oks din sa pagka-nerdy 'cuz damn ma)

Hindi tamad, marunong din sa gawaing bahay (like this is a fr, I hate guys who doesn't know how to live by themselves)

Has 5 love languages 🥹

Doesn't hate cringe stuffs like he knows how to punch a line cuz marupok ako sa cheesy lines 😆

Gentleman, sweet, caring, knows boundaries, loyal, consistent sa efforts, very appreciative, gives a lot of assurance

Hindi nagtatago ng secrets!!! Knows how to open up his feelings and di takot maging vulnerable

Confident guy (pero not too much na parang si Gaston ng Beauty and The Beast) and hindi lousy

ATTRACTIVE CUTIE NA NAKASALAMIN PLS 🤍

Cutie ngumiti, parang si SUGA ng BTS and Taehyun ng TXT (heto talaga weakness ko and I’m get easily hook sa cute na smile 🥹)

Hindi nahihiyang i-flex ako sa socmed

He's someone na can be suplado to others (specifically yung mga manlalandi) but pagdating sa akin, sobra akong mahal haha

Mukhang seryoso on the outside pero softie inside

He's someone who can be my best friend, my lover, and my partner for eternity~

Though di ako strict but no smoking/vaping sana

BONUS: if same kami ng hobbies like playing genshin, into arts, same almost ng music taste sakin~

Though I know these qualifications only fits sa isang character sa K-Drama (which means unrealistic like sino bang nilalang sa mundo yung may ganitong almost perfect na personality) and I know ang kapal ng mukha ko to have these standards compare to me na di naman perfect at complicated person pa pero please Lord, pagbigyan niyo na po ako na ma-meet yung soulmate ko na check yung lahat ng standard ko kasi ayoko talagang magsettle sa isang taong "pwede na" dahil sa wala akong choice at malapit na akong tumandang dalaga

huhu like please, hindi ko pa ba ito deserve? after all the shitty heartbreaks I've been through lmao

pero I'll try my best also to fix myself para mameet din yung standard sa level ng soulmate ko. syempre ayoko naman din na malugi siya and maging unfair sa kanya noh

hopefully ma-manifest tong wish ko even though napaka sobrang imposible pero kaya ko naman mag hintay ulit para sa kanya hahaha 🫠

Dear self,

Thank you for still trying to love me!

I know we're not that much affected now but whatever happened in the past means nothing now, okie?

Don't worry, I know soon someone will always greatly loves us that all the pain we had before will be nothing~

I'm proud of you always!

Love you to the galaxy and back,

to be kissed

to be hug so tight

1st anniversary to where it all started

that one simple chat na nagpabago sa life ko and kung saan ako ngayon...

I wonder if you can still remember it, that curiosity and excitement na first time na lang ulit magkakausap after ng ilang years ng walang communication sa isa't isa

I know how you already knew this na hindi naman talaga ikaw yung iisang option na pagtatanungan ko from the very start, pero ginawa ko kasi alam kong may makukuha ako sayo

at you already knew na wala na talaga akong plano pang pahabain pa ang usapan natin dahil matagal na kitang gusto at ayokong umasa at masaktan ulit, pero hindi mo ko hinayaan na maputol yun...

and we eventually become close friends again, even playmates sa isang favorite game ko

until we dated

slowly fall for each other

and we become couples~

and fast forward sa ending na kinakatakot sa simula palang...

siguro nga universe made a way for us but that doesn't mean na were meant for each other...

natupad naman din pangarap ko eh, ang mahalin ang isang katulad mo and mahalin din ako kahit sa napaka ikling panahon lang

pero hanggang doon na talaga yun

oo masakit, even until today kasi ang ganda ng simula natin eh, kasabay lang taon na yun. it's like maagang plotwist siya for me. you were like a biggest gift to me na matagal ko nang hinihiling

never in my wildest dream na gagawin mo yun eh, you knew it. you always knew it

but even though I'm still grieving from this lost love of mine, I have learned to accept it every single day...

and even though this is not what I've been expecting, hopefully all these pain and grief will turn into something more beautiful

marami pang araw na susunod na magpapaalala pa sakin tungkol sa atin dalawa but those days will just pass by like normal days that happens everyday