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Though I’m pretty sure I got it right but, just wanted to make sure 💀 thanks for archiving her posts by the way, they’ve been helping me a lot

You’re welcome <3

I mean, if nothings exists but you, how much attention do you need to give an apparency? Don’t do anything to the thoughts, let them pass, they’re irrelevant. What I’ve been doing nowadays is thinking the worst thoughts as a challenge. To prove to myself they have no power when I know myself to be who I am. Nothing bad happened, never will. I like doing it because it gives me a certain kind of power when in the past I used to fear them. I do it on purpose, like "do your worst" kind of thing to my own mind. It’s been proven harmless and the thoughts worthless.

What materializes/exists is only what you are. Esentially nothing if you don’t know yourself to be a person, somewhere. But you’ve always known yourself as something. Choose a different thing, resistance (and urgency) only comes up when you go back to trying to make it happen in the world instead of just being it.

Neville again since the masses love him:

There is nothing to tame. The pain is not yours; as long as you keep claiming you are this body it will persist

The antidote is the same for everything in the world: don't want it? Let go of it

Don't call it your life. Scoff in its face. Don't care. Don't want it? Not yours. Genuinely distrust it's yours. It's already not real, if you understand this, truly, you cannot be affected. Choose as you please

The body is not you nor yours it's an idea with no sentience, you are the one who says I'm this, I'm that. The power is you. Simply don't say so anymore. Be bold and shameless and live your highest ideal only.

So I've known loa for 2 yrs now lol but my life is still the same and I want to end this suffering and I'm very determined now... I understand most of the things you teach here but can you gimme an example like if you wanted to change your full appearance then how would you go about that ( can I also do it on a time crunch) and should I do the same for changing other things in my life too

No need to answer tho if you feel uncomfortable but I'm really hoping for your answer 😭🥲

I do it all the time and so do you

I don't need to give you an example, I do it freely whenever I want

The body is in your mind. You got that right?

If you know it to be inside you and not something external, what's hard about changing it?

Know yourself as you want, you only see what you are. Everything is effortless

There is no time so do it now. You don't need anything to validate existence. It validates itself.

There's nothing to wait or be desperate for. Know it is so, and let it be. Don't try to make it be, it already is.

There are greater powers out there than changing our body,

I don’t really understand this post by https://www.tumblr.com/sweatycuntthatloveslana/726513039463022592/i-have-such-a-big-problem-not-identifying-with-the

I mean i get really confused why they say stop trying to realize that you are oneness when you should only observe and is like so easy to realize????? but the I see ppl being on a journey and realizing things. I try so hard to understand that I am but I also think I’m overthinking this and it should be easier. What do I do? I’m so confused.

"I mean i get really confused why they say stop trying to realize that you are oneness"

they mean stop trying to get vanessa to understand that they're Self. stop trying to convince yourself you are Self. you ARE already Self, but by convincing yourself, searching, fighting the mind etc it just affirms the fact that you think you are vanessa who has to work hard to be Self.

people are on a journey realising things bcs there is ego to let go of before you see that you are Self. its like cleaning a mirror, you cannot see yourself in the mirror if you don't clean it a little.

lester did say himself that you can just be free and drop vanessa immediatly, but most ppl can't do that.

so, you are already Self, but you don't see it due to your identification with vanessa.

"I try so hard to understand that I am but I also think I’m overthinking this and it should be easier. What do I do? I’m so confused."

wdym understand? theres nothing much to understand. its just I AM. no memories, no fears, no desires, no conditions, no roles to play. just being. its in the phrase itself. "I AM." and thats it. not I AM vanessa.

mind understands, Self knows.

heres a question: do you use effort to be vanessa? do you think constantly about being vanessa? are you trying to be vanessa? or are you just vanessa?

also you say you are trying hard to understand, but here you identify as vanessa.

Q: Well, I persist in using effort to try to be what you say I am. I keep working at this thing of being effortless. Does that make sense? Lester: No, does it? Q: Not to me. Lester: Right. There's something wrong there. Q: What did I say? Lester: You're using effort in trying to make yourself effortless - that's impossible! It's a contradiction. You've got to stop using effort. You've got to let go and let be. That's what is meant by "Let go and let God." You are it, you're the god; let go and let your Self be. However, it seems to take much effort because you are using tremendous effort to hold onto and maintain your non-self, your ego, and there is where your effort is. It takes no effort to be what you are, the Self.

I don’t actually really know how to apply any ND knowledge.

I know that there is nothing to do, but everybody seems to get the hang of it somehow and I just don’t.

I can’t really see the difference between my ego saying that everything is perfect or ME saying it. I try to remember that I am Self and I don’t need anything because it is perfect, but I don’t feel as if I am progressing.

I feel as if I am not applying anything I have learned properly. Any advice?

"I don’t actually really know how to apply any ND knowledge."

here's a practical guide.

all you need to do is act from this.

take it seriously. really remind yourself of it.

getting annoyed? 'this is not me, but the character'

walking outside? 'oh wow its kinda crazy this is just a dream'

making food? 'rice only exists because of my thought of it, i wonder what would happen if i stopped thinking of rice's existence lol'

seeing people talk on the phone? 'that body and life is also mine...'

"but I don’t feel as if I am progressing."

let go of the idea of progressing. just allow yourself to be. do you see that you want vanessa to see that shes Self? vanessa wants progress. Self already is.

pick a teacher. read intensly of that teacher only. you can read others, but only take what that one teacher says seriously. you can use the others as padding/details on certain topics

what ever the teacher says, do it.

just trust your teacher and do exactly as they say. actually do it. got a problem? go to the chapter in the book or read the blog post talking about problems. and just understand it and carry it out.

live on from that understanding

the trust you were putting onto the teacher, will be redirected to trust in Self as you gain confidence

remember, the teacher and the student are the same.

"but so what if theyre not me? that doesnt mean they cant limit me."

thoughts limit WHO??

idk what you're on about anon. they're not you, so they don't have anything to do w/ you. so how can they limit you (SELF)??

thoughts are everything to the character, who IS the mind!!

leave the world alone and come back to yourself. see your Self first, without the world in the way.

TW:ABUSE

So recently I witnessed physical abuse it was so bad and my ego was going through I couldn’t eat or even sleep it was really bad and the guilt was eating me bc I couldn’t do anything to help that person

So I was like that’s enough this has nothing to do with me as awareness. Whenever the scene or feelings rise up in my body I just them be here I didn’t engage with them it was like I was watching a movie (I’m sorry if this sounds kinda tone deaf) but the ego was tricky at first bc I was engaging with its thoughts such as “I hate this” and “how I’m gonna get rid of this” I was silent I was observing everything the scenes and the emotions bc it’s just the ego is talking to itself and I feel so much better I feel so disconnected even the memories are becoming so blurry I don’t even remember the full details

I’m not gonna lie it’s not easy process but I’m still trying my best🥹

I just wanted to thank you for everything you’re doing you’re such an angel Sophie ❤️❤️❤️🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

Either you are body conscious and a slave of circumstances, or you are the universal consciousness itself — and in full control of every event.

Freedom from self-identification with a set of memories and habits, the state of wonder at the infinite reaches and riches of being, its inexhaustible creativity and total transcendence, the absolute fearlessness born from the realization of the illusoriness and transiency of every mode of consciousness — flow from a deep and inexhaustible source. To know the source as source and appearance as appearance, and oneself as the source only is self-realization.

The acceptance of the unreal as real is your obstacle; only by seeing the false as false and abandoning it will reality be brought into being.

All you need is to understand that you are the source of reality, that you give reality instead of getting it, that you need no support and no confirmation. Things are as they are, because you accept them as they are. Stop accepting them and they will dissolve.

You have never been, nor shall ever be a person. Refuse to consider yourself as one.

Fearlessness comes by itself, when you see that there is nothing to be afraid of. Reality is you alone. You gave it (the person/the world) reality through either your attention or identification.

Start scorching thoughts of limitation by ignoring them. An unrecognized visitor will soon leave. Your past self is nothing more than a thought.

Ask yourself: Who was born first, you or the world? As long as you give first place to the world, you are bound by it. Once you realize, beyond all trace of doubt that the world is in you and not you in the world, you are out of it.

One should think deeply about who has created this entire animate and inanimate universe. With the power of pure discrimination one should recognize the one Supreme God.

Recognize God, and then find out "Who am I?" Give up attachment to the false and remain as the form of the Supreme Self.

One should cast off the doubts that one has about being in bondage and gain conviction about liberation. One should examine the elements in creation and see them as temporary and ephemeral.

The premise of the final doctrine (siddhanta) should be understood. One should see the end of creation and remain at peace in the conviction of the one Supreme God.

Association with the form of the body creates doubt and destroys contentment. One should not swerve from the firm conviction of one's true "Self Form."

Accomplishment is Self-Knowledge. Identification with the gross body increases doubt. For this reason, on should hold firm to the contentment of Self-conviction.

When remembering body-consciousness, the power of pure discrimination is gone. For this reason, one needs to make the intellect firm in the conviction that one's true identity is the Self.

The firm conviction of the intellect fixed in the Self is itself the state of liberation. The fact that "I am the Self," should not be forgotten at anytime.

Primarily the one who is completely free of doubt is called "accomplished" (a Siddha).

The "True Form" of the accomplished one is not the body so how can there be any doubt? Therefore, you should know the Self as being completely without doubt.

The quality of being identified with the body has many signs, but for he one who is bodilessness itself, and who has no bodily identification, what signs can be described?

How can the attributes of That which cannot be seen with the eyes, be described? The Self is pure Reality, how can he be described by any signs?

To have signs means to have attributes. Reality is without attributes (nirguna). That itself is the sign of the accomplished one, the Master, who is the form of Reality.

Therefore, know that Self-Knowledge is free of all doubt and is conviction and contentment itself. This is definitely the sign of an accomplished one.

Im this anon, and sorry if I came too rude. I mean through my day I try to observe or to not identify but I just can’t because I’m too attached to Vanessa or my ego. I feel like this is exhausting and I don’t know how people do it. Because I’ve been doing it for a while and I think this is not what it’s supposed to feel like. I want to feel numb but I attach myself to hard to things. I’ve realized that I’m aware of things all the time but this doesn’t make sense to me. What should I do?

(And sorry again for my words)

No I didn't think you were rude, I just didn't understand what exactly are you trying to practice that is hard? Any feeling of it being hard is you identifying with ego again. But you'll have to drop attachment at one point if you want liberation, there's no way around it 🤷‍♀️

Yet it shouldn't be hard to take life easy? Isn't that two contradictory words used together?

Try being patient with yourself; ask yourself to WHOM the thoughts arise. You'll find yourself independent of the ego that's bothering you so much.

Attachment wears off with practice and the understanding that there is nothing to be attached to.

Maybe this post helps

"I keep working at this thing of being effortless. Does that make sense?"

Okay so I talked about void here.

Instead of trying to do anything during the day, why don't you try this at night ?

I came up with this now, after thinking of my own experience and how I could make it even easier for you

To be aware of the Self means to forget the person. Yes?

Either you are what is known, or the knower. You are always aware of there being a person in the waking state. Then, you put the consciousness in the body because besides knowing there is a person, you also know yourself to be it.

So, at night when you are alone, forget the person. I know!! Easier said than done. If I say "Don't think of an apple", you're going to think of an apple. So don't tell yourself "forget about the person and the world", but actually become aware they don't exist.

Become aware of nothing. Become aware of the knower. Of your own beingness.

From there you will be able to become aware of there being a person, then a world. You will be aware of yourself conceiving *there is a world and there is a person*.

No more try to do anything during the day if it's too hard and the mind feels too strong to overcome. FOR NOW. Because I believe the experience of That could make it easier to resume your practice for self-realization after.

Yes. Be fully aware of who you are and you will do it with no problem.

You can do it right now, there is nothing that is without you being conscious of it – you don't need to wake up to it when you're it NOW. 🤣

For real, the second you became aware of another thing the old is already not.

When you take the inconsistency away, what remains? Well what remains I cannot say, I can only be. Because “nothing” remains. There is no definition to be placed on what remains because as soon as you define it, it changes into what you’ve defined it as. Both formless and form simultaneously and “everywhere”. I just am, bound to nothing, free of everything. There is nothing more to do.

Yesss! As soon as you conceive of That as something it becomes that something.

Hm

As long as you dropped the notion of being the body and know yourself as That

Then

You know yourself, then you know what you appear as. What you are conscious of is instantly. You are supposed to see it. The way you see Vanessa and the world.

If it is not instant then you again are confusing the you and doing something through the ego

What you said could work as well, I don't know! It depends on you. What you described is just manifestation and persisting in something being true over something that is false

My “world” changes every day and I am just so happy! (My boyfriend has even become extremely sweet more than he usually is) For so long, I have been entirely detached from my ego that “me being at work” feels like a memory/dream, and it’s so bizarre! (Sometimes I even almost forget to punch in! haha!) I already know that after writing this, I will hardly remember that I even did so unless I really try to remember, but why would I want to? I know who “I am” all the time, so for fun I’ll “play” a game or “watch” tv but I won’t remember even doing those things. I even don’t remember conversations. They too feel like a dream/distant memory.

Desires and fears are no longer a thing which is amazing! I can literally just sit “all day” in a state of peace and indifference if I wanted to.

It’s such a weird but awesome feeling once you realize Self! “Every day” I look at things around me knowing that they aren’t real and it’s so nice! I even “tested” out changing my “world” and I was able to change a lot by simply not worrying/knowing that things aren’t real, and going on with my day!

You have helped me so much on my “journey” 💖

This is a very good testimony of how it happens! The memory thing; yes, exactly! You have no reason to hold onto it anymore. I am aspiring for vanishing it completely and living now to now just like Nisargadatta 💖

Conversations are like: I can see these bodies talking about something but does it really matter? It is happening and the conversation is going on but it has no meaning to you. Unless it's a bf or a person you really love discussing with, in which you get more "involved" but that too is only for the moment and you move on from the experience onto another!