Soft Acid

I have managed to prove myself wrong, again. I feel the happiest moment of my life, at the moment. I feel more than alive.

Just as i thought, the culprits for my depression, are definitely my toxic relationship with parents. Having unemotionally immature parents, took a huge troll in me, so being independent in the city of Subang Jaya, makes me realize my potentials.

I have also managed to discover one vital thing; I have ADHD. Character's development, at the best

Regardless, i am still trying to find ways to help and improve my life.

Also, living in Subang Jaya is definitely one of the best decisions that I have made. Went through a few hipster cafes and restaurants. Cool stuff is happening in Subang Jaya.

As for me and Akem, we do our best to get through this life. We fought, once in a while but we would manage to cool down easily too. (I think that's healthy and the best way as well)

Tomorrow, I'm gonna be someone's wife. I don't like the title. I feel the pressure of being someone's wife. I have to admit, this is the most terrifying chapter of my life.

It is sad that I have decided to use this kind method of escape in the name of betterment. I hate how society wants to be in the certain ways as a wife. I am afraid of inlaws. I am afraid of having people against me. I am a weakling against people because I enjoy being my own.

I want to grow. I want to be better but I can't believe I have to use someone's else to fill the responsibility. I feel hopeless. I feel like I will stuck in the same circle. I am a worthless. I am a shitty person. When will I ever have a chance to be truly freed from these assumptions?

"I find you attractive, physically."