Its okay if you dont have your whole life together by a certain age. Life is not a script you should follow in order to have everything be perfect (without it containing any changes whatsoever). You still have time to learn, you still have time to love, you still have time to find out, explore and see. Don't be afraid to take your time to achieve your goals and shape your life the way you want it, but also don't forget to stop and enjoy the beauty you might find on the way.

s/o to me for putting myself back together every time.

Someone living the life you want is not an invitation to disconnect and block those things just because it makes you feel bad about yourself. Shift your mindset. Realize that you could be living that life too and start taking control of your reality and decisions. It’s very popular for people to give advice and opinions when they have no real knowledge or experience. These people will tell you it’s okay to act on your feelings because it keeps you comfortable and safe and stagnant. But that’s not true. Feel your feelings but learn to control acting on them. Some of the things that make us uncomfortable should help you realize that something is off. And we should be using those moments of discomfort to grow. Don’t let fear or temporary emotions hold you back. Don’t hold on to hatred for those who have what you want. Don’t sit there and pity yourself when you are strong enough to accomplish those things too. You just have to believe in yourself and start taking action.