Rae

scrrowblue ; a mildly headcanon based portrayal of Benjamin Aaron Fairest of Friday Night Funkin’ Soft. a study of trauma and the struggles that come with it, the non-linear nature of recovery, and finding one’s own freedom and path in life. painted by Pico, 18+, he / him.

potentially triggering content present. content warning for child abuse and its physical and mental effects, as well as mental health struggles such as c-ptsd, anxiety and depression. 18+ to interact.

send an emoji/series of emojis for my muse to answer any of the following questions in character! for some questions, there are fields italicized and bolded for you to fill in with the name of a person/place/event/etc in the muse's life. please remember to fill in these spaces in order for the question to make sense! each emoji is described in case you can't see them, and they are listed alphabetically. ♡

✈️ AIRPLANE — have you traveled anywhere that helped you discover something about yourself and/or about the world?

😠 ANGRY FACE — how easy or difficult is it for you to express your emotions? if you find it difficult, what do you think is holding you back?

🎨 ARTIST PALETTE — what are some hobbies that you like to partake in? do you think they're just to pass time or to distract yourself, or do you believe some of them potentially have therapeutic outcomes for you?

🎈 BALLOON — what is something you've created and/or accomplished recently that you're proud of?

🖤 BLACK HEART — what would you say is the darkest thought you've ever experienced? what do you think caused you to have that thought? have you ever planned on or fantasized about acting on it?

🏹 BOW AND ARROW — if there's something from your past that you'd give anything to go back in time and redo, what is it?

💔 BROKEN HEART — is there anyone in your life you wish you had a better relationship with? if so, how come? what makes this person important to you?

🎄 CHRISTMAS TREE — what is your favorite holiday and why?

🌙 CRESCENT MOON — what would you say is your current biggest dream and/or career aspiration and why?

❌ CROSS MARK — how would your life be different if [name of person] had never been in it? would it be better or worse?

⚔️ CROSSED SWORDS — do you have any skills that you are absolutely grateful you have and that mean a lot to you? how do you usually use these skills? would they come in handy if someone you cared about was in trouble?

🔮 CRYSTAL BALL — what is a core memory from your childhood that you think defines you today?

🗡️ DAGGER — what is something or someone you know you can't afford to lose? how far are you willing to go to make sure you don't lose it/them?

💧 DROPLET — are you grieving something or someone? do you feel like you lost something or a part of yourself with it/them?

😶‍🌫️ FACE IN CLOUDS — is there something you're hiding from the people you love? if so, how urgent is it for them to hear it? what's holding you back from sharing it?

🍂 FALLEN LEAVES — how would you metaphorically describe your life and the journey(s) you've been on?

👻 GHOST — is there someone or something that you feel is missing from your life? do you know if there's any way to find it/them?

🩶 GRAY HEART — what kind of friend do your friends consider you to be (mom friend, uncle friend, funny friend, etc) and why? what do you think this says about your personality?

🤝 HANDSHAKE — do family or platonic relationships mean more to you? or do they mean different things to you?

❤️‍🔥 HEART ON FIRE — what angers you the most? what triggers this anger, and how do you cope with it? what does this anger feel like, if you had to describe it?

💋 KISS MARK — if you had to share a romantic kiss with a loved one, where would you share that kiss and why? are you thinking about giving this romantic kiss somewhere other than the other person's lips?

✝️ LATIN CROSS — are you a religious person? did you grow up religious? does your faith mean anything to you today?

🩵 LIGHT BLUE HEART — what do you fantasize about the most often (generally/sexually/etc)? are there any people that are significant to or that you can see in this fantasy and why?

⚡️ LIGHTNING BOLT — how has [significant event in muse's life] impacted you? what has it made you realize about yourself? about others? about the world?

💄 LIPSTICK — have you had any romantic or sexual experiences that made you realize something about yourself?

🪄 MAGIC WAND — would you describe yourself as a superstitious person (someone who believes in superstitions)? do you believe in luck?

❤️‍🩹 MENDING HEART — how strongly do you experience your emotions? does it depend on who you're interacting with and/or the context of the situation?

🎶 MUSICAL NOTES — what song lyrics do you think most accurately describe you? your journey through life? who you are as a person?

🫂 PEOPLE HUGGING — generally speaking, do you feel very supported by the people in your life? how strong and cohesive is your support system, if you have one? do you often feel like you're at the front of the line or pushed to the side by the people in your life?

❤️ RED HEART — what is/are your love language(s)? how do you use it/them to communicate your feelings about others?

💞 REVOLVING HEARTS — who and/or what are you most grateful for in your life?

🎀 RIBBON BOW — how confident are you with your physical appearance? is there anything about it that you are insecure about? is there anything about it that you are happy about or gives you confidence? how do you think people perceive you based on your physical appearance?

🧪 TEST TUBE — if you knew you were going to die tomorrow, what is one thing you absolutely have to resolve and/or do before then?

🤔 THINKING FACE — what three emotions tend to dominate your mindset? do you know why they do?

💭 THOUGHT BALLOON — is there something or someone you find yourself thinking about more often than other things? if so, why do you think you do this?

💀 SKULL — how has [name of person] 's death influenced your outlook on life, if anything?

☀️ SUN — would you describe yourself as more of an introvert or extrovert, or are you somewhere in between? how come?

🪽 WING — if you could choose to have one superpower for a day, what would it be and why? what would you do with it?

send in one of the prompts below for my muse’s response. it’s a mixture of platonic, shippy, and smutty. you may specify intentions if you’d like. please add ‘reverse’ at any time to reverse the roles.

( little spoon ) both muses are cuddling and the receiver ends up being the little spoon

( big spoon ) both muses are cuddling and the receiver ends up being the big spoon

( chest ) sender pulls the receiver into their chest for a hug / cuddle

( crawl ) sender crawls into the receiver’s chest for a hug / cuddle

( behind you ) sender hugs the receiver from behind

( side hug ) sender hugs the receiver from the side

( pillow ) sender lays their head on receiver’s chest

( tears ) sender is crying and ends up being held by the receiver for comfort

( hurt ) sender is hurt and is being comforted by the receiver for comfort

( kiss ) muses are cuddling and begin kissing

nsfw prompts.

While Ben had been quite nervous to try this new position Rae had suggested, not at all used to being the one ‘giving’, he’d trusted Rae and agreed to trying it out. He was glad he had, too, this felt great. He didn’t have to worry about doing something wrong, as Rae controlled the pace, and Ben could hold him close and kiss him all he pleased. Rae definitely seemed to be enjoying himself too, a sight that had Ben’s heart fluttering in the best way. He loved him so much, and was happy to see him feeling just as good as he did.

“ Haah-…Mmf…! ”

Biting his lip to stifle the moans that left him with each bounce, Ben’s hands soon found Rae’s hips to help keep the taller steady, leaning in to start pressing kisses to his partner’s neck. He muttered praises against his skin, smiling all the while as his thumbs affectionately brushed against his lover’s skin.

“ Y-You’re doing really good… ”

“Mmm…” God, that felt so good. He was so perfect, he loved everything about him. Loved all of these moments between them, both casual and intimate.

When he feels kisses against his neck, lifting his head to give better access, wrapping his arms loosely around Ben's own wanting, needing him close as it felt a little overwhelming.

Pico was breathless as he once again sealed his lips over Rae’s own, hands clumsily finding the taller’s shoulders to keep him close. They’d been making out for a few minutes now, with not a care given from the usually stressed redhead. For as tense as Pico often was, it apparently only took a long kiss or two for him to relax, with said kisses steadily turning into a heated makeout session. His nails dug into Rae’s shoulders through the material of his shirt, urging the other closer. Somebody’s eager.