Well, Fuck.

fifty reasons why i’m bi → sarah paulson  (17/50)

… I don’t know, it sounds stupid typing it out but hey - to share is to care.

Do you ever find a person so perfect in every fucking way that they leave you in awe of their existence. That’s all fine and dandy until you the realization dawns apon you that they’re so completely out of your league that you have a better chance dating a sheep than you do them.

That kind of love is absolutely soul crushing.

You see them almost everyday turning completely mundane tasks into graceful acts of God and you wonder why the fuck are things so difficult.

That’s me. That’s my life.

I get scared

When I think

Of me and you

For teasing thoughts

That this couldn’t be true

Floods my mind

And drowns me

For days in blue

Oh foolish me

Overthinking again

When I should

Be thankful instead

For being near

And spending time

Talking with me

Right here

To be treated by you

In this way

Is not what I

Expected

To look at you

Your beautiful face

Is consolation enough

For this lonely wanderer

I am a night walker

Traveler in the dark

Yet I’m never alone

For when I look up

I see you

The night sky

You are the gaping abyss

That threatens to

Swallow everything

Your body

Studded with stars

So bright and so distant

Constellation tattoos

Tell stories of

Your thousand life times

Both here and afar

I long to embrace you

My arms outstretched

To the skies

And as I close my eyes

I end up embracing

Myself instead

And my heart ache

An ancient pain

A longing so pure

My eyes bleed profusely

You are hear

And you are near

For that I am grateful dear

But what we are

Is the high wall between us

I’m happy

Just being where I am now

And I can see that you are too

But darling why

Do I feel this way?

As if I am being

Pulled a little closer

Resisting only

Makes things worse

The pain unbearable

But when I look at you

You seemed unfazed

Yet your heart resonates

The same song

This heart sings

Uhg

What is it that you really feel

but somehow you made it worth it

you shine through the clouds like some sort of goddess

who comes just the brighten my day

your laugh sounds like the first raindrops before thunderclaps

when youre on a stage, your bubbles fill the whole room and i feel like im floating.