Probably screaming inside

i have this recurrent problem where i read a fic and i'm like aaw i want to know love, so i go on a dating app and like a bunch of profiles, and then two hours later i get a message but my mood has shifted to antisocial in the meantime so i'm just 'hugh i don't want to talk to people', and this is why i'm single.

*through gritted teeth* you are not a child taking a test with the purpose of getting the highest score, you are an adult trying new things and finding ways to enjoy your life, make mistakes, be a beginner, be mediocre, be where you need to be, be unlikeable, just. be.

ugh yeah that's the good shit

Being overstimulated is such a weird thing to explain to people. Like "hey sorry, I'm not mad at you and this is nobody's fault and I'm not blaming anyone for it happening, I am aware this is a part of regular everyday life but I am mentally crumbling because There Have Been Things Happening nonstop for 5 hours straight back to back with no breaks, and I really need to sit down in complete silence for like 15-25 minutes, after which I will be completely fine and can proceed as normal. But if I'm not allowed to have that, I will resort to violence."