Puppi

i keep saying i need friends but once i make friends i get this annoying feeling that everything is awkward and i feel like me and my friends dont get along

i think we’re only still friends because they want lunch break friends yknow?

but i honestly dont care about being alone during lunch, i need to be alone.

i dont know if the problem is them or me, i have never felt this way with my old friends

it feels like the friendship is forced, we barely talk and if we do..it somehow becomes an argument

i started feeling so uncomfortable around them and theres only one person who i miss already because she was so kind to me we sat next to eachother in class and she helped me a lot.

but

im changing schools cus am a coward i cant even tell them that i dont wanna be friends w them anymore its so embarrassing, even if i did tell them what am i gonna say “oh i think our friendship is forced and i dont like you”

n then blocked me

i dont want any eyes on me, but i suck at makeup

back in 7th grade.. yes i used to wear makeup Every.Single.Day but all i wore was bronzer blush, lipgloss and eyeliner

now that i dont wear makeup no more, i don’t even know how to do my eyeliner its always one eye that looks good and the other eye is just a mess.